Indohyus

Hi, quadruplets,

Daddy had a tough day, but thinking of you makes me feel better. I always have stories to share with you! Here’s a cool story about a creature from long, long ago called Indohyus. It was a small mammal that changed a lot over millions of years. Eventually, it became the whales we know today. Isn’t that amazing?

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Indohyus: The Little Swimmer

Once upon a time, a little creature named Indohyus lived in a warm, green world about 48 million years ago. Indohyus looked a bit like a tiny deer, but he had some special secrets! Indohyus loved to splash in the water. He had strong legs to run on land and a body that could swim, too! His teeth were special because he liked to munch on both plants and little fish. As time passed, Indohyus and his family began to change. They spent more time in the water, and their bodies became smoother and sleeker, just like the fish they liked to catch. This was the beginning of their journey! Indohyus's jaws transformed, making it easier to eat yummy treats from the water. 

As they evolved, their teeth became sharper and better suited for catching fish, while their strong tails helped them swim faster. Fossils of Indohyus show that he had special bones that helped him float and stay underwater. He was a little explorer, learning how to dive and play in the sea!. With each splash and every swim, Indohyus and his family slowly changed into incredible creatures that would become the great whales we see today. They adapted to their watery home, learning to hunt and play in the ocean. And so, from a little land-dweller to a magnificent swimmer, Indohyus changed over millions of years into the whales we know today.

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I need to freshen up and grab a meal before heading to work. Yes, daddy just returned but has to go back out again for work.

Love as always,

Daddy

Oceans: Our Oxygen Source

Hi, quadruplets!

How was your day? I’m super excited to share some amazing science facts with you! Did you know that oceans produce more oxygen than all the trees combined? Isn’t that cool? A lot of schools tell us that only trees help us breathe, but the oceans are really important too! Tiny plants called phytoplankton make about 50% to 80% of the oxygen we breathe! Can you believe that one little phytoplankton cell can produce half of our oxygen? These tiny guys also help keep our planet's climate balanced by soaking up carbon dioxide!

I can’t wait to be back soon so we can jump into our new science project together! We’ve got five awesome projects to do, and daddy loves it when we work as a team! So far, we’ve planted seeds in a polybag and watered them every day—guess what? Our trees are growing! We had so much fun with a bubble experiment and we went on a nature walk to collect leaves, stones, and flowers. Plus, we did a cool experiment to see what floats and sinks with toys, coins and sponges in a water bin. We even mixed colors using cups of water and food coloring!

It’s 11 PM on the dot. I need to go to work now. Papai.

Always love,

Daddy

You Warm My Heart

You're the thought that keeps me warm inside. Only you can give me that feeling.

January 10, 2024

Menerima sebuah pergi

Abang nak hantar emel tapi tak boleh. Kalau abang boleh akses blog, abang nak tulis dekat blog. Abang rindu sangat sampai sakit dada. 

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Dan tentang kau yang pernah menjadi tokoh utama;Terkadang, ada harap untuk kembali berjumpa, ada harap untuk kembali mengulang kisah yang lama, ada harap untuk kembali seperti sedia kala. Tapi, semua hanyalah harapan yang tidak mungkin menjadi kenyataan; Kau telah menulis ceritamu bersama orang lain.

Iya, hatiku pernah seakan diguyur hujan paling deras saat melihatmu melangkahkan kaki, hatiku pernah seakan teriris pisau paling tajam saat merasakan ditinggal karena terganti, hatiku pernah seakan ditancap duri paling dalam saat kau memintaku untuk jangan menanti.

Dan, untuk pernah-pernah yang tak akan pernah lagi aku ulangi;

Aku sadar, sekuat apapun aku mempertahankan, yang ditakdirkan hilang, akan tetap hilang.

Seerat apapun aku berusaha menggenggam, yang ditakdirkan lepas, akan tetap lepas.

Selama apapun aku menanti, yang ditakdirkan tidak kembali, akan tetap tidak kembali.

Dulu, jika aku merasa sedih, kau yang selalu ada membuatku tertawa.

Dulu, jika aku merasa kacau, kau yang selalu ada membuatku damai.

Dulu, jika aku merasa kosong, kau yang selalu ada membuatku penuh.

Kini, aku harus belajar untuk menciptakan tawa sendiri, aku harus belajar mendamaikan hati sendiri, aku harus belajar memenuhi diri sendiri.

Maafkan aku karena terlalu ingin memiliki,

maafkan aku karena merasa paling dilukai,

maafkan aku karena terlintas rasa membenci.

Aku tidak tahu badai apa yang menerjangmu di sana,

aku tidak tahu luka apa yang kau coba sembuhkan di sana,

aku tidak tahu sebanyak apa air mata yang kau coba hapus dan sembunyikan di sana.

Mungkin, badaimu lebih hebat dari badai yang menerjangku di sini.

Mungkin, lukamu lebih dalam dari luka yang menggoresku di sini.

Mungkin, air matamu lebih banyak dari air mataku yang mengalir di sini.

Namun, jangan pernah bertanya seikhlas apa aku, jangan pernah bertanya serela apa aku, jangan pernah bertanya semampu apa aku. butuh ratusan luka yang aku sembuhkan setiap hari, butuh puluhan kali aku menghapus dan menulis kembali tulisan ini, sebelum akhirnya kukuatkan hati menerima sebuah pergi.

— patahan.ranting

Rindu

"I can be okay. I can be okay. Abang buat tak tahu je dengan budak ni"

Rindu sangat :(

I miss you

It’s 1:53 AM on September 27, 2024. I just returned from work, took a long cold shower, and I'm doing some laundry. While hanging the clothes, I remembered when you said, "I'm sorry for everything, abang." I paused; I had no words. I’m not sure why that moment suddenly came to mind. After three days of long hours at work without returning to my room, I’m exhausted but can't sleep. You’re on my mind. I really miss your voice. Would it be okay if I called you just to hear you  breathe, without saying anything? I’m fine with that. I don’t know how to stop longing for you or wanting you. I don’t know how to stop missing you or thinking about you. It feels like I’m searching for you everywhere I go, and this feeling is really overwhelming. How are you, sayang? Are you doing okay? How’s your pregnancy?

Talking to you has been the best part of my whole year.

 Mandi embun

My soul misses your soul

My darling, Nurhara,

I listened to one of Nick Vujicic's talks on YouTube. He and his wife have a routine of asking three questions every month. The questions are: "What am I doing that you want me to stop doing? What am I not doing that you want me to start doing? What am I doing well that you want me to keep doing?" Ara, my love, could you answer these questions for me? I’d appreciate your thoughts.

I'm taking a break after drilling for seven hours. Suddenly, I remembered our conversation on May 5, 2024, when you tried to soothe me while I was feeling down. You asked a simple question that I didn’t answer: "What does Imam al-Ghazali teach us during times of obstacles, abang?" Life is a struggle, and navigating each obstacle requires wisdom and patience.

Imam al-Ghazali, one of my favorite philosophers, teaches us a few things to do when we face troubles in life. What are they?

1. Tawakkul

2. Patience and Perseverance

3. Self-Reflection and Self-Improvement

4. Seeking Knowledge and Guidance

5. Gratitude and Contentment

Al-Ghazali emphasized the importance of placing trust in God and surrendering to the divine will. By acknowledging that God is the ultimate source of all outcomes and events, we understand we are part of a larger divine plan. He stressed the virtue of patience in the face of adversity, reminding us that challenges are temporary and part of our growth journey.

Regarding self-reflection and self-improvement, Al-Ghazali highlighted that during obstacles, individuals can reflect on their actions, intentions, and beliefs. We can strive to overcome personal weaknesses through introspection and self-discipline. I’ve done my self-reflection by writing notes, poems, or letters to you. Writing sharpens our thoughts and clears our minds.

As for seeking knowledge and guidance, Al-Ghazali emphasized the importance of gaining knowledge from the Quran, hadith, and wise scholars. By doing this, we can find guidance and inspiration to navigate obstacles in a spiritually meaningful way. We always need guidance, and the best guidance comes from our parents; they know us better than anyone else.

As we grow older, we encounter many difficulties far more complex than those from our youth. We often forget to feel gratitude in our lives. It's human nature to sometimes focus on what we lack. Al-Ghazali taught us to cultivate a mindset of gratitude for our blessings, even amidst difficulties, with a sense of perspective and appreciation for the good in our lives.

Today, I did water boring. I used my experience to locate groundwater without any tools for site assessment. Lacking a drill rig to create a borehole, I used a cane to drill until I reached water, typically through layers of soil and rock. Then, I made a casing pipe to prevent the borehole from collapsing. Instead of installing a pump to extract water, I used a technique similar to that of a well.

It's almost time to break my fast. See you, my love.

My soul misses your soul,

Smoothie

Hati berbunga riang

Ara sudah tidur jam 8:45 malam. Anak-anak yang besar tiada di rumah. Cuti sekolah seminggu. Umar menyertai kem matematik di Canada. Adam ke Mexico City bagi mengikuti kem seni lukis di sana. Huda pula sudah berlepas ke Amerika Syarikat untuk memulakan pengajian peringkat ijazah. Rumah sunyi kata Ara.

Ara menghabiskan masa dengan kembar selain membaca dan berkebun. Makanan kembar tukang masak yang sediakan. Ara punya banyak masa untuk diri sendiri. Saya sering ingatkan dia untuk menjaga kesihatan diri dengan mengambil makanan berkhasiat, kerap bersenam dan minum air secukupnya.

Saya bawa keluarga ke Guatemala untuk menghabiskan masa bersama. Tak banyak tempat yang kami lawati. Saya suka gunung berapi jadi saya bawa keluarga ke Pacaya Volcano. Gunung berapi ini masih aktif. Pemanduan dari Antigua mengambil masa dua jam. Pagi itu kami bertuah kerana dapat melihat lawa terapung. 

Petangnya kami bersiar-siar di Parque Central de Antigua. Saya menemani Ara melihat matahari terbenam. Berbual-bual tentang perkara sederhana berat. Ara bertanya tentang bahagia dengan yang baru atau bahagia dengan masa lalu; petikan dari sebuah blurb novel katanya. Saya menjawab dengan jujur dan teliti.

Esoknya kami ke  Lake Atitlan. Tasik ini merupakan antara tasik tercantik di dunia. Pemanduan dari Antigua kira-kira tiga jam. Kami menyewa bot menelusuri tasik melihat panorama yang indah. Sesekali jari kami bertaut seketika seperti tidak ingin melepaskan lalu kami berbalas pandangan. Hati berbunga riang.

Kami melawat Panajachel, salah satu di antara 3 perkampungan berhampiran Lake Atitlan. Kampung lain yang berdekatan ialah San Juan La Laguna dan Santiago Atitlan tetapi tidak sempat di lawati. Perjalanan kali ini santai-santai sahaja. Kami tidak melawat muzium dan tempat bersejarah yang lain. 

Sabtu petang, saya bercadang ingin melihat rembang mentari dari kaki bukit Cerro de la Cruz. Malangnya, tempat ini tutup sebelum matahari terbenam. Ahad pula tak bercadang untuk mendaki Indian Nose kerana kesuntukan masa. Saya lebih berminat untuk bermalam di Volcan de Fuego. 

Pulang dari Guatemala, seperti biasa saya mengambil pakaian Ara untuk di cuci. Esoknya dia tidak bertanya apa-apa malah mengucapkan terima kasih kerana selalu mencuci bajunya. Dia tak lagi marah-marah atau bad mood. Sambil memilih pakaian, dia memuji kekemasan saya menyusun pakaiannya. 

My bad

Hi Mak,

I wish I could turn back time and never searched for you. It would have been better to watch from a distance, seeing your family happy. When I entered your life, you lost yours, and I can’t forgive myself for that. I’ve felt the weight of a heavy burden ever since. It hangs over me constantly.

Mak Ucu often mentioned how much you wanted to meet my sweetheart back then. You were eager to have a daughter-in-law. I wanted to bring her to see you, but it always felt like “the best-laid plans of mice and men often go awry.” Things always fall apart from what I planned.

You left me, and she did too. Every man dreams of introducing his special someone to his parents, but I never had that chance. She found someone else and seems genuinely happy, and while I feel sad, I’m also glad for her. It's hard to let go, but her happiness matters most.

Instead of taking Ara to Singapore to meet Mak Ucu, I brought Mak Ucu to KL to meet Ara. I didn’t want to travel with her; the journey felt too long, and I didn’t feel right bringing her out of town. Ara is very close to Mak Ucu; they often talk on the phone for long stretches.

September 1, 2024

Johor Bahru, Johor Darul Ta'zim

A year changes everything

"Awak kejarlah impian awak. Jangan berhenti. Jangan pernah berputus asa. Jangan mudah mengaku kalah. Saya pilih awak sebab saya tahu awak perempuan yang cerdik, yang ada cita-cita dan bersifat feminis. Sifat-sifat itu selalu membuat saya jatuh cinta dengan awak. Saya kagum dengan pencapaian awak dan setiap perkara yang awak lakukan.

Saya percaya perempuan tempatnya bukan hanya di dapur, bukan hanya di katil, bukan semata-mata untuk berdandan. Perempuan juga memiliki cita-cita dan impian untuk di kejar, untuk di genggam. Kalau umur saya panjang tentu saya dapat lihat awak ambil MA pula. Perempuan yang bercita-cita  tinggi sayang sekali jika tempatnya hanya  di dapur dan bersolek untuk suami."

 

2013, Jun 21

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11 years, 3 months, and 1 day ago, she was considering doing an internship in Finland or Qatar. I felt sad because we would be apart for a while. I stood by her side, encouraging and supporting her dreams. I always wanted to see her career thrive. Her success meant my success too. That was an old story. A year later, she left me permanently.

"What can change in a year?" 

"Everything"

"Even a person you love?" "Especially the person you love"

(Closer: 2004)

It's okay

It's okay to feel how you feel and to take the time you need to heal.

July 20, 2024

YouTube Alternatives

If you’re after some YouTube alternatives, here are a few popular ones to check out:

1. Vimeo

2. Dailymotion

3. Twitch

4. PeerTube

5. BitChute

Rosak

"Abang tak bad mood?"

"Tak"

"Langsung?"

"Haah"

"Abang demam ke?"

"Tak"

"Tak pukul orang?"

"Tak"

"Tak tengok YouTube?"

"Tak"

"Tak tengok perempuan?"

"Tak"

""Laki kita dah rosak ke? Alaaaa"

Panggilan telefon

21-09-2024

Puji ada makna

"Biasanya orang bercerai lepas 6/7 tahun kahwin. Orang kata lepas 7 tahun, kalau bertahan akan kekal. Orang cakap lagi, umur 36 tahun waktu paling sukar dalam hidup. Masalah dengan pasangan, kewangan, kerjaya, kesihatan, anak, ibu bapa perlukan perhatian, masalah kesihatan ibu bapa. Ramai orang bercerai umur-umur macam ni"

"Acam tu la laki kita. Semua dia tahu acam Bixby"

"Apa tu?"

"Penat tau kita beli S23 tak di hargai"

"Laa abang bawa yang mini. Comel, cantik. Masuk poket ringan nak lari. Yang biasa tak bawa. Kalau jatuh sayang"

"Beli baru"

"Mahal la. Rugi duit"

"Kakak angkat kita ajak tukar Z Fold 6"

"Kata tak ada duit"

"Astu la dia"

"Bila nak beli?"

"Phone kita masih handsome macam abang hihihi"

"Puji ada makna tu"

Panggilan telefon

21-09-2024

Mengata orang

"Mufti Menk kata bercerai lebih susah tapi bertahan demi anak-anak tak mudah. Kita tak boleh hidup dengan pasangan yang membebankan kita. Sepatutnya kita mudahkan hidup pasangan kita bukan tambah beban. Semua orang dah ada beban sebelum kawin"

"A life partner is like having your ride-or-die, always making things smoother and backing you up when stuff gets tough, right?"

"Yup"

"Acam sedih baca dia tulis 'WhatsApp suami seperti angin lalu, tak bererti'" 

"Mesej tak reply?"

"Wife tagged dekat FB tak pernah balas. Apasal ramai suami acam tu?"

"Ara pun tak balas mesej abang. Asyik okey je"

"Alaaa mengata orang air terpercik muka sendiri"

"Hahahaha"

Panggilan telefon

21-09-2024

You are my moon

Hi sayang,

Did you stare at the moon tonight? It looks a bit larger and brighter because of the supermoon and the partial eclipse phenomena. On August 21, I received your email. You said, "Are we gazing at the same moon tonight...? The moon will always be our thing, kan, abang?" How did you know? Do you notice me being around you? Maybe your heart knows my heart is near you.

How are you, sayang? Did you sleep well? I dreamt about you for two days in a row while taking a nap. You were asking why I didn’t call you. You said you were expecting my call. I replied that I didn’t want to cause you trouble. We were spending time together, you holding my hands and resting your head on my chest. I woke up at 10:53 PM and checked my inbox, but there was no email from you.

I miss you, sayang. I miss your voice, I miss calling you sayang. I miss hearing your deep breath. It drives me insane being far from you, but I know being near you might cause catastrophe. I long for you. What should I do to miss you less? I want to be close to you, to take care of you. I want to spend my life with you. It will always be my dream. It has never faded. You’re the apple of my eye.

The Qur'an mentions the word love (ḥubb) and its derivatives 83 times. Love is expressed in Arabic with three characteristics: appreciative (taʿẓīm), full of attention (ihtimāman), and love (maḥabbah). Your love makes me see all the beauty in the world. I feel calm when you are near. I am not only your inner peace; you are mine too. Together, we find balance and complete each other.

Have you felt exhausted from our fights and arguments? We don’t feel exhausted, do we? We just feel drained from longing for each other. F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote in his letters to Zelda Sayre in 1919, "There's nothing in all the world I want but you -- and your precious love -- All the material things are nothing. I'd just hate to live a sordid, colorless existence." What matters most is love.

Derek Parfit, a philosopher, believed that we should be less concerned with ourselves and more with the common good. Do you remember the days you wanted to join Mercy Malaysia? You wanted to follow Dr. Jamilah’s footsteps, and I smile every time I recall that memory. You are the unselfish person I always admire. You wanted to give more to your community and country.

National Geographic columnist Liz Kruesi notes that "the moon’s true color is an off-white brown-gray when sunlit, but Earth's atmosphere alters our perception of it." In this context, Italian photographer Marcella Giulia Pace has spent 10 years capturing 48 stunning lunar images. Her work invites viewers to explore the deep connection between the moon and our emotions.

I am always gazing at the moon. The moon, in all its phases, is magnificent. It reminds me of you—my lover. I wish to tell you what Dede Hawkins said: "I adore you like the moon in all of your majestic phases." How wonderful life would be if I could hold you in my arms while we gazed at the moon, enjoying our quiet night together. You are the moon; you illuminate my life with your love.

We are living in an era where people value material things. Morality, ethics, and integrity have become uncommon. A lack of respect is normalized in our society. I think people nowadays lack empathy. The world has shifted toward dataism, where the flow of data and algorithms is deemed more crucial than human experience. This concept has been introduced by Yuval Noah Harari.

I will excuse myself for now, but I will always write to you, my dear.

"Do I love you to the moon and back? No, I love you more than that. I love you to the desert sun, the mountains, the stars, the planets, and to the deepest sea, and deeper still through history. Before and beyond, I loved you then, and I love you now. I'll love you when the sun has gone out, the moon has gone home, and all the stars are fully grown. When I can no longer say these words, I'll give them to the winds and the birds so that they will still be heard: 'I love you.'" — James Carter

(September, 2024) 

Usaha tangga kejayaan

"Serius la gaji construction site engineer RM 2500 aje?"

"Gaji engineer memang murah. Dulu lagi murah RM 1800. Tak naik-naik"

"Sedihnya"

"Bunyi gah engineer. Gaji sikit. Panas betul bila orang cakap bos tak kerja teruk. Pekerja 8 jam sehari. Bos kerja 14-16 jam sehari tak ada cuti. Ahad pun kerja. Apa punya mangkuk la. Cashier tu memang mana-mana pun sama duit short kena ganti. Kerja pam minyak kalau duit sangkut, semua orang punya gaji kena potong"

"Abang pernah kerja pam minyak?"

"Pernah. Isi minyak, lap cermin kereta, susun barang, baca minyak masa lori sampai"

"Ooo"

"Nak kaya mana boleh kerja dengan orang. Simpan duit buat modal, pergi kemahiran ambil lesen. Perbanyak skill. Tak boleh malu. Kalau kerja kedai runcit angkat barang berat macam guni tepung. Kalau kerja pasar, 4 pagi dah mula. Angkat barang berat jugak bakul-bakul sayur"

"Sekarang kita faham kenapa abang suka pergi pasar ngan kedai runcit…"

"Itu pun sebab abang masuk asrama. Kalau sekolah harian, malam dengan weekend mesti nak kerja. Ummi tahu. Dia asramakan abang"

"Abang tu mana reti duduk diam"

"Jadi nelayan pun pernah. Ikut orang. Tak dapat upah, dapat ikan"

"Astu la kenal semua ikan"

"Yela Ara tu ikan sardin pun tak kenal"

"Heee kita keliru ajeee"

"Abang tak duduk rumah masa cuti sekolah. Keluar sebelum Subuh, balik malam. Macam-macam kerja abang buat. Ada setengah tu tak ingat dah"

"I'm so proud of you, sayang. Semua rajin. Rajin kerja, rajin tolong kita. Kerja keras"

"Yela. Kena keras dulu baru boleh kerja hahahahaha"

"Eeee! Siap la abang!"

"Dah panggil. Sampai abang call"

"I love you"

"Hush! Hush!

"Abangggg"

Panggilan telefon

JFK, NY

12-09-2024

When you are poor

When you are poor

You live poor die poor

You do nothing but think

You think and think.

Your pocket is like an empty jar

Nothing in it but exists.

If you die no one weeps

No one cries and no one feels.

It hurts being poor

A poor man is a burden on society.

(Unknown)

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I have seen many people suffering in this world, especially from poverty. No one likes you, no one cares for you, and everyone runs away from you. You receive no respect, and being poor often means you endure all the vile words people throw at you.

Hi Min

Hi Min,

I have safely arrived home and reunited with Umar, Huda, and Adam. They are okay. I could see their relief when they saw my wife. Adam was especially close to my wife, as she pampers him a lot. She even brought a gift for them from a store at Changi Airport. They are all happy, and Adam keeps saying, "Thank you, Ibu. I love you." Umar is quite shy and recites duas whenever he receives something, while Huda thanked her mom with a hug.

We prayed together, ate together, and shared many stories (and some complaints too). I told them they need to pack their things because we are moving to a new city, and they are excited. I have written a notice to the landlord to inform him that this December will be my last month renting his house. I will surely miss this city. Costa Rica has given me rich experiences through its diversity and culture. I love its warm, friendly people.

It's time to move to another city, explore new experience, and connect with new people. There are many opportunities to seize if we are wise enough to find them. As usual, I am always on the hunt for money. A real man makes a lot of money. Money is crucial to sustain a marriage. Without money, a marriage can suffer. Costa Rica's cost of living is not high, but residents say it's higher compared to other Central American countries. 

In a new place, I’ll need to be prepared to spend a lot. This makes sense, since in Costa Rica, I grew my own vegetables and fruit trees and even tried fish farming to cut costs. In Costa Rica, tomatoes cost between ₡1,000 and ₡2,264 per kilogram. I saved a lot by planting them myself. With the different weather in the new place, I’m not sure I can do the same. I also saved money by not taking my family out to eat due to the lack of halal cafes.

I always prioritize money above all else. One key to making a million a week is having at least seven businesses. Mukesh Ambani, the chairman and biggest shareholder of Reliance Industries, exemplifies this with over 20 companies across various industries. He's a major player in energy, particularly in oil refining and petrochemicals, and he also owns Reliance Jio, a top telecom provider in India. As of 2023, his net worth is $92 billion.

Elon Musk kicked off SpaceX with $100 million and now owns several companies, including Tesla, Starlink, Neuralink, xAI, SolarCity, The Boring Company, X, PayPal, and Zip2. His current project under Neuralink, called Blindsight, aims to enable people who have lost both eyes and their optic nerve, or those who are blind from birth, to see. He has also founded an alternative school similar to Sal Khan's called Ad Astra. With money, anything's possible.

I'll write to you again, Jules. Take care and stay safe.

Sep 6, 2024

Maksud nama

"Tak tengok drama?"

"Takkk"

"Apa hal pulak"

"Tak suka Hana, Hana, Hana"

"Trivia - Lima nama bayi perempuan yang Nabi suka tapi tak pasti betul ke tak. Hana, Lina, Laila, Naila. Satu lagi lupa. Sarah kot. Maksud nama Hana - keindahan, kelembutan"

"Dah habis?"

"Dah"

"Mmmm"

"Gurau pun marah. Cepat kedut suka marah"

"Biar la"

"Nama Ara apa maksud eh?"

"Apa maksud nama abang?"

"Handsome hehehe"

"Bila abang balik?"

"Kenapa?"

"Kena berubat la. Kronik sangat"

"Dah memang handsome, tinggi. Gantangnya pacarku aww hahahaha"

Panggilan telefon

20-09-2024

Robot soldiers

A photo from 2023 shows hundreds of humanoid prototypes used in the military industry.

Mr. Wiki

"Benda yang abang panggil gajet tu"

"Alaa yang mana?"

"Google 'pager'"

"Malas"

"Motorola banyak keluarkan pager. Bravo, Advisor, Tango, Mototrbo, 

Minitor. Nokia pun ada. Unication. Banyak brand. Guna untuk mesej dengan alert je. Call tak boleh. Ada jenis huruf, nombor, dua hala pun ada. Terima dan hantar mesej. Yang penting kalis air, tahan lasak"

"Semua tahu acam Mr.Wiki"

"Dulu famous. Sekarang orang tak guna dah"

Panggilan telefon

18-09-2024

Wakil nikah

"Sendiri nak kawin, sendiri jabat tangan. Tak nak aku jadi wakil"

"Tambang wa support"

"Buat salah sebut, mampus aku"

"Tolong arr. Lu calon terpilih"

"Nak berapa orang langsung urut telor? Bini muda, getah belum loose. Cukup la tu. Kita ni dah tua. Tua buat cara tua. Tak payah cari bala. Lu anak berderet. Dahlah tak jaga, nafkah tak bagi. Gila nak menjawab dekat sana nanti. Tak payah kawin. Tak cukup-cukup lagi ke syurga dunia? Orang sini solat 6 kali, lu sebat 5 kali sehari. Bini baik, kesian bini tu. Lu ada anak, tapi anak lu macam anak yatim tak ada bapak. Tak ingat ke kita dulu susah macam mana tak ada ayah? Pandai buat anak, anak tak nak jaga. Tak nak anak, pakai sarung"

"Syarah benda babi. Tak nak tolong, blah"

"Sebaik-baik lelaki, yang baik terhadap isteri dan anak-anaknya"

"Lu curang cakap banyak"

Panggilan telefon

19.09.2024

I love you

"Abang tak insecure. Ara mana ada orang lain. Abang satu-satunya. Bangga ni hehe"

"Confident aje"

"Yela. Ara tak suka Ariff. Haff dah kena palau. Siapa lagi ada?"

"Then don’t take me for granted"

"Tak"

"Kalau dah okey, abang mesti tak perlukan Ara. Betul tak?"

"Kalau ributmu sudah pergi, jangan lupa payung yang setia denganmu"

"Tapi…mmm…"

"Abang tak bad mood bermaksud abang ada orang lain?"

"Selalu abang bad mood  dekat sana"

"Tak ada yang lain selain Ara"

"Tapi…abang dah lama tau tak cakap 'Abang kan setia orangnya'. Mmm"

"Nak dengar trivia? 'Fix a heartbroken man, and he will love you forever' "

"Say 'I love you'"

"Don’t trick me"

"Say it"

"Lelaki tak cakap 'I love you'. Dia reti basuh baju dekat rumah je. I love you jugak tu"

"Cakap I love you pun susah mmm"

"…………"

"See"

"Tak cakap makna tak cinta?"

"Ha'a"

"Dah tahu laki kayu, suruh cakap I love you"

"You figure it out. If you love me, just say it. If not, it’s okay"

"Hmm…Ara…"

"Abang tak sayang Ara…"

Panggilan telefon

18.09.2024

Untuk Hana

Matamu bersinar bak mutiara terang,

Senyummu menenangkan seperti embun pagi yang segar.

Setiap kali kau bermain dengan riang,

Dunia ini jadi indah, berwarna  pelangi. 

(Januari 11, 2024)

Kemas kini 20 September 2024 

Hi little one

Hi little one,

It's 8:35 p.m., and I'm off to work. I just finished a big meal: beef stew with potatoes and carrots, a bowl of oats, two kiwis, and two glasses of barley. How is your mom? Did she have her meal properly? I hope she didn't feel lethargic. On September 10, 2024, she said, "I've been waiting to hear from you... And then this... yet there was nothing." I didn't say goodbye; I just walked away.

I gaze at the sky. Everyone in the astronomy field is eagerly waiting for the Partial Lunar Eclipse from September 17-18. It didn’t happen in Kuala Lumpur but only in certain regions like North and South America, Africa, and some Asian countries. The moon always reminds me of her. Margaret Atwood says, "In the daylight, we know what’s gone is gone, but at night it’s different."

I can’t recall having just one good time with her because every moment felt great. A wise man says, "The best moments of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you." Another wise man says, "There is no life until you’ve loved and been loved." Dostoevsky wrote in Notes from Underground, "Where there is no love, there is no reason."

I didn’t talk much about myself to her. I rarely opened up to her. I reserved her only for my happy side. I don’t know how to talk about my feelings, my fears, my insecurities with her. It’s not because she is unreliable or lacks the capacity to soothe me; it’s just the way I am with her. Can you understand me? We spoke in different love languages, but in the end, we felt deeply connected.

In Modern Man in Search of a Soul, Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist, says, "The shoe that fits one person pinches another; there is no recipe for living that suits all cases." The more you learn, the more you discover new things. In life, don’t let anyone who hasn’t been in your shoes tell you how to tie your laces. Your life is yours. Trust the process of life at your own pace.

I'll see you in the next letter. Toodle-oo!

Sep 17, 2024

Drama TV3

"Cerita lain tak ada? Tak best. Malas abang tengok"

"Alaa tak best ke?"

"Tak. Dari tengok TV3 baik tengok RTM. Abang dulu tengok RTM - Teman Setia Anda hahaha"

"Acam bosan aje"

"Tak la RTM best"

"Kenapa abang tak suka cerita tu?"

"Yelah dah kawin duduk la asing. Kata kerja CEO. Kalau cerita orang miskin, elok je duduk lain rumah"

"Ha'a kan"

"Dalam Islam, ada 5 nafkah suami wajib sediakan untuk isteri - Tempat tinggal, ubat-ubatan, mandian, pakaian dan makan sekurang-kurangnya dua kali sehari"

"Tahu"

"Kalau isteri berasa sakit hati atau di sakitkan hati tak kisahlah oleh siapa pun dalam rumah yang dia tinggal bersama, suami wajib sediakan tempat tinggal baru. Itu kan nafkah wajib"

"Abang niii. Kita suruh tengok. Astu la kawin dengan laki tua acam ni la jadinya"

"Benda betul. Duduk asing kan senang"

"Kalau asing drama pun tak wujud. Abang pun"

"Majoriti drama Melayu asal kawin dua tinggal serumah. Asal kawin mak mentua tak berkenan tinggal sekali. Kalau kawin suka sama suka tak nak pulak serumah. Pandai pulak duduk asing"

"Abang, tapaya tengok la. Buat cakit hati seorang isteri aje arghhhh"

"Drama hari tu okey walaupun abang tengok scene sekerat-sekerat tapi skrip bagus. Screen acting tak kayu. Abang tak suka heroin tu. Kayu sangat. Tak pergi kelas acting ke?

"Tiba jadi pengkritik drama acam ni la nasib kita bila kawin laki lanjut usia"

"Apa Ara?"

"Hihihi apa, bang?"

"Ara cakap apa tadi?"

"Hihihi"

"Nak kena goreng eh?"

Panggilan telefon

16-09-2024

Eiland’s Gaza Starvation Plan

Former Israeli General Giora Eiland has proposed a new initiative called 'The General’s Plan,' which urges the Israeli army to clear northern Gaza by implementing a policy of starvation against its remaining inhabitants.

Hingga ke akhirnya…

Berita sedih

People of Jannah

Imām Ibn al-Qayyim said:

“When the people of Jannah will reunite, they will remember all the times they spoke about Jannah in this world. They’ll look back and laugh, at how short life was, and then smile, because beautiful is their final abode.

The people of paradise will have all that they desire. One step into Jannah and they will remember no pain. They will say they never suffered, they will say they never cried.

A dip in Jannah.

Oh how much we long for that moment. The moment where we reunite, we hug our loved ones once again. We forget about all the pain, and thank Allāh for all the tests!

How strange does it seem, that these tests which weigh a ton on our chest today will one day elevate us. Elevate us so high, that we will thank Allāh. We will thank Him for test.

Be patient, oh beautiful slaves of Allāh, for our Lord is more Merciful than a mother is to her child.” — Al-Fawa’īd: 119

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Mata jantan

"Layan Hindi mengaku je la"

"Tak eh"

"Tu video baju kuning buka baju tu"

"Naik sendiri eh"

"Tapi buka haaa"

"Alaaa"

"Asal background music dia macam tu?"

"Entah"

"Rambut perempuan tu lawa"

"Lawa ke?"

"Lawa. Breast macam jatuh je ke memang macam tu?"

"Mata jantan"

"Hahahaha"

Panggilan telefon

14-04-2024

Tolong baiki

"Memang environment dalam tu banyak yang tak sihat. Dulu Kajang pun pernah kena buli dengan pegawai dia - perempuan. Dahlah kena buli, kerja malam dengan budak UPM mana entah suka mengular tak datang kerja"

"Pegawai buat apa?"

"Cari salah. Ada je tak kena. Macam-macam plan dia buat - minta tukar tempat kerja, sambung master's degree. Kelas hari Sabtu petang rasanya. Boleh adjust masa. Dulu dia pernah jadi ketua houseman"

"Ooo"

"Biasalah buli mana-mana pun ada"

"Cerita lagi, please"

"Habis dah. Tu je"

"Alaa cerita laaa"

"Ara tahu tak 'A man shouldn't talk about other women to his partner'"

"Kisah pulak kita. Cepat la ceritaaaa"

"Bila dia balik kerja, dia bad mood. Abang tanya sikit pun melenting"

"Abang jadi punchbag dia eh. Bengang aje marah abang"

"Taklah…"

"Astu?"

"Kali akhir gaduh teruk sebab MO tu. Dia balik kerja, abang tanya nacam biasa tapi dia marah abang teruk. Dia cakap dia tak nak abang dah. Dia pernah cakap kalau mengadu pun abang tak boleh buat apa-apa…"

"Abang…sorry…"

"Pegawai tu macam sentap sikit bila dia sign dokumen apa entah, dia letak "Dato". Dia jarang sangat sign macam tu. Tak sampai setahun pun kerja situ jumpa laki dia sekarang. Kalau dah jodoh kan"

"Abang, can you just forget that memory and toss it out?"

"Trivia for today - A man will open up if he feels that the woman truly understands him"

"I see you've been getting quite aggressive and overprotective because you're feeling a bit down about yourself, right, abang?"

"Part of it is because of cheating"

"You were deeply damaged"

"Tolong baiki"

Panggilan telefon

16-09-2024

Aku Yang Kau Panggil Sayang

Rindu-Rinduan Jadi Kenang-Kenangan

Hai Ummi

Ummi,

Im buat salah. Kalau Ummi ada mesti Ummi malu dengan Im. Im tak ada niat ganggu isteri orang. Lepas putus dulu, Im jauhkan diri. Sekarang Im buat salah dan Im tersalah langkah. Kalau keluarga mentua tahu lagilah malu. Keluarga mentua hormat Im. Manalah nak letak muka bagai tokak sangkut di kening. Ara tak jawab panggilan. Mesej pun tak  di balas. Anak-anak ada dengan Im. Semalam, lembaga pengarah keluarkan data tentang prestasi Im. Prestasi turun mendadak lebih 45%. Sebelum ini prestasi Im naik 270%. Syarikat berkembang baik. Ara ada, Ara selalu jadi tulang belakang yang kuat.

Masa Im dapat anugerah, Im bagi pada Ara. Dalam ucapan pun Im cakap tentang Ara. Tuhan datangkan ujian dan Im rebah. Tak, Ummi. Im tak pernah lupa jasa Ara. Dari gelapnya dunia - dia hadir membawa cahaya tanpa pernah berputus asa. Dia isteri yang memahami. Sekarang Ara jauhkan diri. Im sunyi, sedih, hilang arah walaupun baru seminggu berlalu - lama rasanya. Masa bergerak begitu perlahan. Betul, lelaki di uji di saat kemasyuran memuncak - sewaktu dia memiliki segalanya dan seperti ramai lelaki - Im tewas. Im kalah dengan perasaan. Im rasa bersalah dengan Ara.

Im tak abaikan Ara. Duit belanja cukup tapi sebagai suami, Im gagal jalankan tanggungjawab. Ara tak pernah tanya jauh sekali persoalkan. Dia isteri yang baik. Hari Jumaat malam, Im minta maaf dengan dia sebab dua bulan lebih tanpa hubungan intim. Dia tak cakap apa pun. Dia cuma tanya "Ara dah tak cantik ke abang?". Tak ada kurang apa pun, Ummi. Dia sempurna dari dulu sampai sekarang. Dia impian setiap lelaki. Sanggup korbankan kerjaya yang lumayan, tinggalkan keluarga untuk hidup bersama Im. Ara hidup dalam kemewahan. Im berikan hidup yang Im rasakan terbaik untuk dia.

Im orang berniaga. Ada kala bisnes baik, ada kala tidak. Dia perlu belajar sediakan diri untuk menempuh kesusahan. Im ajar hidup berpada-pada walaupun dia merengek juga kadang-kadang nakkan sesuatu. Dia suka merengek, Ummi - macam budak-budak nakkan ais krim. Dia anak perempuan tunggal. Anak manja ayah. Anak kesayangan keluarga. Ayah dia tak izinkan dia buat kerja rumah dari kecil lagi. Semua pembantu rumah buatkan. Waktu dia belajar dulu pun ayah dia sediakan pembantu rumah. Dia memang tak pandai buat apa-apa kerja rumah. Sidai baju pun tonggang - terbalik.  

Di sebalik semua itu, sikap dia baik. Mudah di lentur. Dengar cakap (ini Im paling suka), boleh terima teguran. Dia tak melawan cuma kuat merajuk - sangat suka merajuk. Im lupa beli ais krim pun dia merajuk 3 hari. Dia manja, selalu senyum, tak banyak songeh. Sempurna, Ummi. Cukup sempurna. Dia sangat sayangkan Im. Dulu, kalau Im pergi kerja, dia menangis "Abang jangan lupa kita tau. Janji". Dia manja - tidur pun awal. Lambat tidur asyik menguap saja. Dia bangun pukul 3 pagi. Waktu inilah dia selalu kacau Im. Im habis solat, dia datang dekat nak baring dekat riba - manja sangat. Penyejuk hati suami. 

Bye Ummi.

(Ogos 9, 2024)

Kembar

Daddy: Tengok matahari. Lawa

Hasha: Cantiknya

Daddy: Kannn

Hasha: Matahari cantik

Daddy: Nak kulit cantik selalu kena matahari, okey?

Hasha: Asha cantik

Daddy: Haah

_

Daddy: Kenapa Luqman nangis tu?

Raysha: Sedih

Daddy: Sedih kenapa pulak?

Raysha: *tak ada respons*

Daddy: Raysha pujuk dia jangan nangis

Raysha: Tak nak

Daddy: Kenapa?

Raysha: Acha nak nyanyi

_

Daddy: Ibu mana?

Raysha: LV

Daddy: Ha? Ye ke?

Raysha: *angguk*

Daddy: Kecik-kecik jangan LV la haish

JFK, NY

04-09-2024

Beautifully heartfelt dua

This is a beautifully heartfelt dua.

"O Allah, I have fallen in love with one of Your servants. Please do not deprive me of their closeness. If they are good for me, then make them mine. And if they are not good for me, then put all that is good in them and make them mine."

Mati putik

"Kita baca pasal kawin 9 tahun tapi tak bersama. Isteri tak ada nafsu"

"Orang panggil mati putik"

"Tak pernah dengar"

"Boleh cuba urut dengan sireh"

"Ooo"

"Apam masam / awang busuk makan nenas kasi hilang bau hanyir haha"

"Ada aje petua dia"

"Kalau gula tinggi, rendam daun pokok sambung nyawa. Yang confirm nak kulit lawa makan nenas, strawberi untuk awet muda. Tembikai untuk kulit berseri sebab boleh kekalkan air dalam badan. Kulit tak kering"

"Pokok apa bang, sambung nyawa?"

"Google"

"Masa mak abang mengandung, siapa dia suka eh sampai abang nak handsome aje"

"Handsome kan, abang?"

"Mmmm semua buah dia makan untuk muka rupanya"

"Lupa. Manggo pun untuk awet muda haha. Avocado, kiwi"

"Buat apa aje tu?"

"Baru lepas sapu cream cleanser"

"Astu?"

"Nak sapu eye cream"

"Astu?"

"Sapu losyen"

"Tu la lelaki"

"Hahahahaha"

Panggilan telefon

16-09-2024

Streaming Alternatives

You don't have a Netflix account? Don't worry. Here are some alternatives:

• hdobox.se
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• freeview.co.uk
• Ohflix
• moviebox.ng/
• Stremio

Konflik Iran-Israel

Konflik antara Iran dan Israel tampaknya semakin tegang berikutan amaran Iran akan serangan balas sebagai respons terhadap serangan udara pada 1 April 2024 yang menyebabkan kematian tujuh pegawai dari Islamic Revolutionary Guards Corps (IRGC) di bangunan kedutaan Iran di Syria. Serangan tersebut telah meragut nyawa dua pegawai atasan ketenteraan Iran iaitu Brigade General Mohammad Reza Zahedi, seorang komander senior dari Quds Force, dan timbalannya, Brigade General Mohammad Hadi Haji-Rahimi. 

Kejadian ini tidak sepenuhnya mengejutkan mengingat status Brigade General Mohammad Reza Zahedi sebagai salah seorang individu yang paling di kehendaki pihak Israel kerana peranan pentingnya sebagai penasihat ketenteraan Iran. Beliau telah melalui beberapa siri percubaan pembunuhan yang menemui kegagalan. Serangan yang berlaku ini dilaporkan terjadi ketika mereka sedang mengadakan pertemuan  sulit dengan pemimpin tertinggi Palestin untuk membincangkan berkaitan konflik yang berterusan di Gaza.

(21 April 2024)

Sumbang mahram

"Abang, doktor locum tu apa?"

"Laa kan boleh tanya Google"

"Makwe lama doktor astu mesti tahu"

"Kerja macam part time. Boleh kerja mana-mana klinik, tak ada kontrak. Doktor residen tetap. Locum tak tetap. Gaji sejam RM55 campur insentif. Kerja ikut waktu klinik buka. Pilih slot mana yang berkenan. 9-10, 11-7, 9-3. Klinik yang bagi macam-macam insentif berebut doktor nak kerja. Waktu kerja fleksibel. Boleh jaga anak, layan laki, ada me time"

"Semangat dia terang hihi"

"Nak gugurkan kandungan kena 2 pakar bagi kelulusan baru boleh gugur. Tak pun cari klinik dekat Bukit Bintang tapi berdosa pulak tolong orang gugurkan kandungan"

"Nampak sangat pakwe doktor"

"Anak doktor, kan? haaa"

"Alaaaa tak masuk perangkap"

Panggilan telefon

15-09-2024

Life starts with love

Hi Min,

Can I rewrite this letter? It would be nice if we could correct all our mistakes or edit our journey, but unfortunately, we can’t undo the past. I’m on an 18-hour and 40-minute flight from Singapore to New York—one of the longest flights in the world. With this long flight time, you usually witness two sunrises and sunsets along the way. Where are you, Min? I’m still waiting for you to come back. Khaled Hosseini said, "Of all the hardships a person has to face, none is more punishing than the simple act of waiting."

After discussing with Ara, we decided to move to another city, even though it's difficult for her to leave Costa Rica. We feel exhausted from the long flights, though this one was comfortable. Singapore Airlines provides a world-class experience for its passengers—the food was delicious, and the cabin crew is among the best in the world. The interior design of the cabin is superb. My twin toddlers like this aircraft, which makes it challenging to get them to sleep. They are very energetic.

I prefer Johannesburg or Durban. They are cities with significant business opportunities, but with Mpox currently spreading globally, I don't want to take any risks. I would love to stay and enjoy Latin American culture, but visiting my in-laws requires another long flight. I'm not keen on staying in Europe, particularly because of concerns about racism and ethnocentrism. You know what I mean. I want to experience new demographics that I haven’t encountered before. I’d only visit Europe for family vacations. 

Let’s skip the topic of rooftops and bird chirping. It will just be a memorable memory in a few months. Bird chirping isn’t extraordinary, but it becomes special when someone you love appreciates that sound. Every time I hear it, it reminds me of my phone calls with her. She is a seatherny, and I follow in her footsteps. We tend to love what our loved ones cherish. Simple things matter the most. She is the story I never want to end, the love story I enjoy writing. Her soul is eternally intertwined with mine.

Maybe the Almighty didn’t intend for our destinies to be together. Perhaps the quote, "Sometimes you have to accept that some people’s part in your story is over," is true, but moving on is even harder. This love is sweet, and I’m addicted to her, just as she is to me. When we appreciate someone's qualities, we admire them. When we accept their flaws, it’s because we love them. She has hurt me, and I’ve hurt her, but our love never faded; it grows more vibrant with each passing day. Life starts with love.

I keep playing and replaying "Thinking Out Loud" by Ed Sheeran. It’s the first song she gave me after our breakup. Honestly, Min, when I hear this song, I enjoy the lyrics. I always believe that when a woman gives a man a song she likes, he should pay attention to the lyrics. I didn’t expect her to miss me, think about me, or remember me until she gave me this song (I was the one who asked what song she was listening to). Then I realized she misses me but is trying to hide her longing.

San Jose, Costa Rica

05-09-2024

Mengintip

"Kan abang dah cakap. Ara je yang tak percaya"

"Faham la orang tech"

"Bukan setakat tu je. Apa kita fikir pun dia tahu. Kita nak taip dah keluar ayat"

"Ha'a la"

"Banyak lagi tapi nanti la. Abang nak tengok akaun kejab"

"Concorde Hotel nak jual RM700 juta"

"Dah ada buyer?"

"Belum kot. Entah"

"4 star ke 5 star?"

"4"

"Kita tak pernah pergi, kan?"

"Tak"

"Hotel mesti ada orang beli. Kalau 5 bintang bulanan dapat berjuta"

"Hotel apa, bang?"

"Entah"

"Eleh"

"Duduk diam. Abang nak buat kerja"

08-09-2024

Ular handsome

"Habis data abang"

"Alaaaa satu video aje"

"Abang tak bukak. Ada masa abang tengok"

"Zam-zam kita bertukar jadi ular. Patuk abang!"

"Rindu ular abang ke hahaha"

"Dia la ular, rimau, serigala, komodo, kokodile. Semualah"

"Nasib ular handsome"

"Tak dengar ehhh"

Panggilan telefon

15-09-2024

Handbag

"1, 2"

"Banyak betul puji mesti nak apa-apa

"Kita tak marah pas ni kalau orang call abang tanya abang acam Wiki"

"Nak handbag ke?"

"Takkk"

"Cakap pasal handbag, ada orang guna singkatan hb untuk handbag. Power betul singkatan dia"

"Siapa, bang?"

"Acik umur 50 haha"

"Tak pernah kita dengar"

"Tu tanda orang power"

Panggilan telefon

15-09-2024

Gebu-gebu

"Mengenang zaman kena reject haha. Sama banyak dengan bear kena reject pun"

"Banyak"

"Ha'a. Sorry tercerita"

"Keras nau girl bear"

"Comel kan girl bear tu? Gebu-gebu"

"You good, Tiger?"

"Okey"

"Jangan nangis"

"Tak"

"Kita dengar"

"Usaha tangga kejayaan, kan?"

"Ha'a"

"Koala comel, quokka comel bear pun comel"

"Sayang sangat, kan…"

"Abang nak share bear tu nangis je"

"It's okay, abang"

"Saidina Ali cakap lebih mudah mengubah gunung menjadi debu daripada menanamkan cinta di hati perempuan"

"Susah ke?"

"Susah sangat"

Panggilan telefon

15-09-2024

The best day

"The day we met was the best day of my life." — Ara

Bangkok, Thailand

31-08-2024

Dua mulut

"Abang dah makan. Tadi tak cakap"

"Alaaa. Kita nak"

"Ambil la dalam mulut abang"

"Tak nak"

"Eleh. Biasa boleh je. Tak complaint pun. Perempuan kan ada dua mulut hahahaha"

"Eeee!" *pap pap pap*

(tt)

Belum kering

"Kejab. Tunggu mask kering"

"Dah laa, bang. Kalah kita tau dengan air berasnya, air sejuk, tomato, ramuan mandian, minuman herba, akar kayu, segala krim. Dah handsome"

"Handsome je?"

"Handsome ngat, ngat"

"Meh sini pakai sama"

"Tak nak eh"

"Pakai la. Sayang nak buang. Abang buat sendiri"

"Astu cepat"

"Ni namanya self-care is equal to self-love. Dekat Jepun abang pergi mandi susu + madu"

"Dulu kan kita pernah kutuk abang dalam hati 'Garang tapi mamat spa' astu kita gelak hihihi"

"Amboi dia"

"Astu masa honeymoon kita nampak abang keluarkan satu beg barang astu kita cakap dalam hati 'Perghh berat beg acam spa bergerak' astu abang tidur kita belek satu-satu astu kan kita gelak"

"Belek barang ingat belek abang"

"Astu cepat mandi"

"Tunggu mask"

"Nampak tak?"

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Little one

Having a male baby can alter the mother’s brain forever. Male fetuses leave traces of their DNA in the mother’s brain, which can persist there for the rest of her life. One study showed that women with higher levels of male DNA in their brains had a lower risk of developing Alzheimer's disease. The researchers suggest that this correlation may indicate a potential protective effect of male fetal DNA against the disease. The persistence of fetal DNA in a mother's body after pregnancy is called fetal microchimerism. Although it has the potential to improve a mother's health by enhancing tissue repair and strengthening her immune system, it can also have negative effects, such as autoimmune reactions. The study was published in the journal PLoS ONE, and it’s entitled “Male Microchimerism in the Human Female Brain”.  

 — Unknown

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Hi ittle one,

A wise man said, "You don't know true pain until you crave a conversation with someone who is no longer with us."  It’s painful not to talk to the person who brought vibrancy to your life. The world, once colorful, has become so dull and quiet.

I gaze at the moon every night and never get bored. The moon has many phases, each with its own beauty. It holds a special place in my heart and always makes me feel that I once tasted great love and had a very charming lover.

I have found my soulmate and true love. She was my love at first sight, too. She gives me someone I can hold forever. I can’t unfeel her. I can’t forget her. I cannot breathe when she is not near. She owns my heart and the air I breathe. She has conquered me.

But I didn’t show up for her in the way she needed. I’m not a man who can move mountains or cross oceans for the woman I love. It’s so shameful that I was too scared to take a risk for her. No mountain is too high, no ocean too deep for a real man.

Ten years ago, your mom said that I was a coward and that I didn’t have the balls. I still remember those words. It is true. A man needs to put in effort and walk his talk, but I didn’t do it. I hope she can hate me and forget me. I don’t deserve her love.

Tell her to drink milk with dates, eat more broccoli and grapes, and also have yogurt. Did she eat half-boiled eggs in the morning? No? I knew it. It must be because she’s busy preparing meals for the family and forgetting to take care of herself.

I came across some information about pregnancy and fetuses and it reminded me of you. You are two months old, right? If you were my child, I would be the happiest person on earth, I wonder how you would look—hopefully, a male version of your mom.

Does your mom work from 9 am to 10 pm, and then continue from 11 pm to 7 am? She has Mondays off and says, "No Monday blues for me."  I hope she doesn't overwork herself. She can be active, but it's important not to overdo it. Take care, little one.

September 1, 2024

9:20 pm

My dearest Nurhara

My dearest Nurhara, my heart,

A survey suggests that on rainy days, people tend to write sad things on Facebook. For me, rainy days are calming. I love listening to the downpour. We often associate love with something we cherish in nature. Nature always reminds us of the people we love. Tthe rain pours heavily outside and you sleep peacefully, I find myself watching over you.

People say love is a life force. For me, however, it isn’t love that drives me—it’s money. I pursue it from the sea (petroleum), from rivers (gold, diamonds), from mountains (crystals, marble, and yes, cement), and from forests (timber like cengal merah). Money has been my drive since childhood. A man is defined by the money he can make.

God doesn’t always give us who we love most. He gives us the person we need. We need good company for growth. Marriage can transform our lives. If we choose the right person, our lives will shine; otherwise, it can become a living hell. As the proverb says, 'A good wife is a crown to her husband.' A good woman is an investment for a man.

Marriage isn’t easy. We prepare for romance but often neglect preparation for hardship. Marriage involves enduring struggle, but the key is who we choose to struggle with. A strong relationship is an ongoing fight through hardships. We stay and don’t leave when things get tough. True love stands firm through the storms.

I am not a romantic man. I don’t know how to melt a girl’s heart. I am still learning to love you the way you want to be loved, but don’t expect too much from me. I can’t give you something I don’t have. Love means accepting our partner’s flaws. We are human, and humans are not perfect. There is no perfection in life. It’s our job to make our lives feel perfect. 

To love someone, we first need to find ourselves; otherwise, we risk making our loved one miserable. When we find ourselves, we can love others better. Loving someone isn’t easy; it can be Byzantine. As a quote says, “Giving your heart to somebody is the scariest, most dangerous, most perplexing thing,” but despite everything, it’s worth it.

I always say that the person we choose reflects who we are. Who we are and who we become are partly influenced by whom we love. Marriage is a long-term commitment that reveals many dark sides of ourselves and our partners. This can make us uncomfortable and unsettled. We must manage these truths delicately and maturely.

Often, after marriage, we discover our partner’s hidden secrets or habits. We begin to see their true colors behind the masks they once wore. Here lies the challenge: we must tolerate their bad habits or behavior. We may question the decision we made. We may think that we married to a wrong person and they are not our home that we can be dependable.

When we discover our partner’s flaws, it can lead to explosive reactions. The problem itself may not break our relationship, but how we react will determine its strength. In relationships, we must understand that we were raised differently, which means we love, see, react, and communicate differently. Every rose has its thorn.

The important part is to respect each other’s differences and understand where one another is coming from. I hope we are the right people for each other. Johnny Depp once said, “The worst prison in the world is a home without peace. Be careful who you marry or fall in love with.” The person we share our life with should be our true home.

Eternally yours, 

Abang

Guatemala City, Guatemala

September 6, 2024

Perempuan kan masalah

Video

"Sekarang kita faham kenapa abang suka mesej kita. Sorryyyyy"

"Ni nak tanya abang dapat berapa jugak ke?"

"Takkk"

"Ara pun mesej dengan client, kan? Apa beza?"

"Kita suka suara abang astu kita suka call"

"Suara abang best, kan?"

"Tak eh"

"Pulak"

"A rich man buys you something doesn't mean much, but when a busy man gives you his time, it means everything. Betul tak, abang?"

"Ara tengah buat apa sebenarnya ni? Lain macam je"

"Kita mmm entah. Kita kan perempuan, perempuan kan masalah mmm entah la"

"Jangan fikir"

"Okey"

Panggilan telefon

14-09-2024

Always

I have always loved you.

(November 13, 2023)

Zionism

Zionism, a political movement originating in the late 19th century, sought to establish a Jewish homeland in Palestine, a region of deep historical and religious significance to the Jewish people. This territory, encompassing present-day Israel, the West Bank, and the Gaza Strip, is venerated in Jewish tradition as the ancestral land of the Israelites and the location of the ancient Temples. The culmination of Zionist aspirations in 1948 led to the establishment of the State of Israel. However, this development resulted in the displacement of a significant number of Palestinians and has been a central factor in the protracted Israeli-Palestinian conflict.

(November 28, 2023)

The New Israeli Map

Nearly a year has passed since the intensification of the Palestine-Israel conflict. Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu has unveiled a new map, referred to as the "New Middle East Map," which excludes Palestine, including the West Bank, East Jerusalem, and Gaza. This revision aligns with the ideology of Eretz Yisrael—Greater Israel, a component of ultra-nationalist Zionism that asserts these territories belong to a Zionist state. The ongoing conflict has resulted in 41,118 fatalities, 95,125 injuries, and 10,000 individuals reported missing.

Crazy banana

Daddy: Cepat turun makan. Ibu masak sedap hari ni

Adam: Ibu masak apa?

Daddy: Nasi minyak + acar buah + ayam masak rose + kerabu ikan sardin + cendawan goreng

Umar: Alhamdulillah

Kakak: Sorry, I’m late

Umar: Perempuan

Kakak: What’s your issue?

Umar: What’s your problem?

Adam: What’s up with you two? Like cats and dogs

Umar: I’m the cat. She’s the dog

Kakak: Fed up!

Umar: Ruff-ruff!

Kakak: Crazy banana

Daddy: Jumpa je gaduh, jumpa je gaduh

Kakak: Dia, daddy

Umar: Spesis kodok

Daddy: Dah. Duduk. Adam baca doa

Adam: Tak hafal

Daddy: Bukak phone, baca

Adam: *Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Allaahumma baarik lanaafeehi wa 'at'imnaa khayranminhu"

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Sesiapa yang diberi rezeki makanan oleh Allah, hendaklah membaca: "Ya Allah, berikanlah kami berkat dengan makanan itu dan berilah makanan yang lebih baik darinya".

(At Temizi 5/506)

11-09-2024

Hati wanita

"Kawan nak pergi Canada cari kerja"

"Mana? Canada besar"

"Ottawa kot"

"Ottawa kena pandai cakap Perancis kalau tak orang tak layan"

"Ha'a kannn"

"Quebec, Manitoba, New Brunswick, Ottawa dalam kawasan Ontario situ semua cakap French. Alberta pun rasanya. British Columbia"

"Jom bang, kita pindah Alberta kesayangan abang eh tiber hihi"

"Hana pandai cakap French sejak duduk Ottawa. Masa duduk UK tak fasih"

"Ada kita tanya? Tak ada kan?"

"Abang cerita je nak kukuhkan fakta"

"Tak payah"

"Kenapa Ara tak suka dia?"

"Hati wanita astu abang tak faham"

Panggilan telefon

14-09-2024

Simpan

 Ara share video.

Tanya pun salah

"Can we go to Swiss?"

"Bila?"

"December"

"Kita pergi Pakistan nak? Sama cantik macam Swiss"

"Tak nak"

"Kenapa nak pergi sana?"

"Saja. Bosan. Acam nak travel"

"Ha pulak"

"Cakap la "Okay, baby. Yes dear. Kita pergi December". Jangan banyak tanya"

"Itali vs Swiss mana cantik?"

"Swiss"

"Swiss vs New Zealand?"

"Swiss"

"Nak shopping ke nak tengok view?"

"Hihihi"

"Nampak"

"Apaaa"

"Kyrgyzstan lawa. Pakistan lawa"

"Abang tu India, Mongolia, Cuba semua lawa. Tak faham kita"

"Cakap je hari ni nak pergi, esok tak jadi"

"Tak eh"

"Berapa hari nak pergi?"

"2"

"Kenapa tak pergi balik sama hari kan senang"

"Kita nak beli barang"

"Barang apa?"

"Ada laaa"

"Kedai tu tak ada online?"

"Malas cakap la abang ni. Acam inspektor polis banyak tanya"

"Laa tanya pun salah"

Panggilan telefon

14-09-2024

Video

"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6"

"Berderet video. Kata cuti medsos"

"Hee kita acam insaf sekejab. Kita minta maaf tau"

"Ha"

"Abang tengok tau semua video. Tak tengok siap abang"

"Ugut pulak"

"Hee"

"Nasihat orang bagi bukan semua sesuai untuk kita. Kita kena pilih-pilih ikut kesesuaian hidup kita, latar belakang kita. Macam-macam faktor lain"

"Kita bosan abang tak ada"

"Nak madu?"

"Tak nak ehhh"

"Hari tu kata nak"

"Office dah tutup tau"

"Ara okey?"

"Macam mana abang tahu?"

"Tahu semua"

Panggilan telefon

13-09-2024

OCD

"Kita acam bersyukur abang tak suruh kita buat. Abang buat sendiri"

"Abang teruk macam tu ke?"

"Takkk. Abang acam okey sikit. Laki dia lagi teruk. Kacau bini tidur acam melampau, kan?"

"Haah"

Panggilan telefon

13092024

Belajar bersama

"Ara pilih course yang Ara suka. Kita belajar sama-sama. Ada yang free ada yang bayar. Kalau free tak dapat sijil. Bayar ada sijil"

"Abang nak ambil course apa?"

"Ancient Israel, Ancient Philosophy, Capitalism, Finance, Cryptocurrency and Blockchain, Geopolitics. Ada lagi tapi setakat ni tu je dulu. Dua bulan sekali kita belajar satu course"

"Law tak ada?"

"Abang tak check semua. Banyak. Nak tak?"

"Acam menarik"

"Kita kan selalu pergi kuliah sama-sama. Abang nak kita sama-sama belajar, sama-sama bangunkan potensi diri. Buat kerja rumah sama-sama. Semua sama-sama. Nak?"

"Terima kasih, abang"

"Course tak sama pun tak apa asslkan kita sama-sama belajar. Tu la gunanya abang ambil maid dengan chef. Bila kita nak buat apa-apa, kita tak payah fikir hal uruskan rumah"

"Ara faham"

"Next year kembar dah boleh masuk sekolah. Abang dah ready kalau Ara nak kerja. Lepas ni kita sapa bahu sebulan 2/3 kali macam dulu tapi abang okey"

"Cepat aje kembar besar, kan?"

"Rumah baru kita 4 jam ke Swiss. Hujung minggu abang boleh bawa anak pergi sana tengok Ara"

"Thanks, abang" *peluk*

"Abang nak Ara capai impian Ara. Anak tak apa, kita buat macam dulu. Dua minggu abang, dua minggu Ara"

02-09-2024