It has been almost 3 years. I’m not sure whether you still remember or not when we fighting you took a decision to come over here at Perhentian Island without telling me any single word. I was very sad at that time thinking that I will lose you forever. What I had been afraid of comes true - we broke up. We tried to save our relationship but God’s plan was otherwise.
From that time until now I always make excuses when Huda asked me to go diving on this island. You know, I hate this island so much. Every time I heard someone pronounce Perhentian Island, all in my mind is you and our hard arguing. I felt so bad. I want to change that. So, I make the decision to come here and build new memories, full of fun and happiness.
I come here to think how blessed I am to have a girl named Nurhara in my life, to try new ride of love, to feel loved again. This planet that we lived is so wonderful if we can see what we had after we had been struggling for so long. I always wanted to let it go. I don’t want to keep any bitter memories. I want to free myself from the past. I really wanted to have a good life.
Like other people out there, I think life has so much to offer to all of us. We need to search our own path. We need to figure out what we really want in our life. We still have the chance to choose our own journey of life. While I’m writing this, I play all of our favorite songs. I downloaded it again. Yes, that’s your favorite song. Your favorite song is my favorite song too.
It comes with thoughts why would I delete all that song when I always enjoy listening to it? I enjoy every line of lyrics. I enjoy the melody. I enjoy the rhythm of the song. I enjoy the music you introduce to me as much as I enjoy having you as my company. You and I are one and we can’t be separate. We are like salt in the ocean. We fell in love, we broke up and we move on together.
You have found your soul mate, I have found mine. We enjoy our new company. We keep our deep love in our hearts. We know that we always have each other. We never truly separate. There is no separation in our love story. Sometimes we still missed each other and what we once had when we still together. We can’t undo our life, neither we can’t reverse our heart. We can only rewind all those sweet, loving memories.
How’s life after marriage? It is still like a fairy tale? Is he treating you like a princess in a castle of love? I hope so. All I can do is pray that you will always have a happy life. Do make lots of cute babies. You always adore kids. Your happiness is my happiness. People say if we wish someone happy, that is pure love. You’re my pure love and all I ever want is you to be happy.
Did you go to Switzerland for honeymoon? I bring kids to once in the life time Swiss journey from Interlaken to Jungfraujoch by train. The journey was so amazing. I wish you were there with me ride on the train. How was your experience there? I’m sure everything place in order. You’re good at making holiday trip. I hope you enjoy time waste at your most favorite place in the world with your loved ones.
You need to know I still missed you every single day. I believe you missed me too, sometimes, or maybe most of the time. I always like to spell your name and you know it, but your name no longer belongs to me. No matter what you do, know that you’re always on my mind. You are so dear to me. There is a place in my heart where nobody can replace you. You are always special.
I will always love you. Be kind to your husband. He is the one for you. As for me, I will just slip in your heart and live there forever. There is no one like you in this world. You are one and only, my love at first sight, my forever love. Who knows, if God is willing we will meet again someday on the busy side road and say hello to each other. Maybe we will meet at the park carrying our first newborn baby. Nobody knows God's plan.
Until we meet again.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
(Goodbye my lover - James Blunt )
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PS: Kids always asked for your wedding photos. Send your photo if you feel wanted to share your happy moment with me and the kids. We love to see it.
PSS: I still enjoy writing to you. There is no such pleasure like writing letters to you.
Perhentian Island, Terengganu
4.00 pagi, 19 Ogos 2017