Utopia

"What would life look like if we could have a life together?

Utopia (pinjam jawapan abang semalam)"

"Ada awak ada utopia. Tak ada awak, lagu Utopia je ada"

"Tapi utopia tu, tak ada pun...kan bang?"

"The utopian world does not exist, but in my utopia, it only consists of you and me. That's my ideal world"

"Its more than enough...kan bang?"

Sepi

"Merindu setengah mati" 

"Sayang sepenuh nyawa"

"Tak cukup menyeksakan. Yang paling menyeksakan adalah sepi walaupun ada yang menemani"

"Hmm...Kan...Selalu je tercari cari. Rasa kehilangan.."

"Sebab kita tak nak orang lain teman kita "

"Nampak lengkap...tapi tidak..."

Log out

"Can I log out from your heart now?"

"No"

You still choose to love me

I don't really care how many times you hurt me back then because hurt is always a part of love. You were good to me, so I chose to forget what hurt me. I will always remember the good times and overlook the bad because I know that I sometimes hurt you, yet you still choose to love me despite the tears.

Get back on your feet soon. I can't stand seeing you under the weather.

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Bebinca

"Hi baby kita"

"Dah makan?"

"Belum. Abang buat apa?"

"Dekat site. Nak letup macam kuari tapi Alam Sekitar mesti datang"

"Marah sangat"

"Tak"

"It's all good, abang. If he didn't like your work, he'll figure it out soon. Let go of that anger. Stay cool, alright?"

"Hmm…okey"

"Abang makan apa?"

"Secy order bebinca dengan kokum juice"

"Ala sedapnya kek"

"Kalau Ara ada lagi sedap"

"Kita saja call nak make sure abang available 9 am"

"Tak habis lagi pasal 9 pagi"

"Belum. Kita ada kerja. Bye abang"

"Kerja apa?"

"Sedang mencari kerja hihi"

Panggilan telefon

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Perang belum habis

"Abang dekat bilik. Tadi nak terkencing. Check dalam beg tisu, kain, seluar dalam extra tak ada. Balik je la"

"Apasal tak bawa, bang? Tertinggal?"

"Haah. Kang kalau lepas kencing tak kering melecet pulak. Lembab-lembab tu. Kulit dah sensitif"

"Tumbuh kulat macam novel YB hihihi"

"Ara jangan ingatkan. Geli la"

"Hihihi"

"Abang beria jaga Ara cakap bukan-bukan"

"Beria eh mmm"

"Hehe Ara jangan usik abang. Abang puasa ni"

"Astu kalau puasa kenapa, bang?"

"Mengada"

"Mmm mmm"

"Jom tidur lepas ni nak keluar jogging"

"Jogging dengan kita je la hihihi"

"Perang dah habis?"

"Belum ehhh"

"Hahaha"

Panggilan telefon

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Jangan sedih

"Abanggg"

"Ceria suara"

"Nak tidur dah"

"Ha okey"

"Abang buat apa? Cari ular ke tu?"

"Tengok orang roboh"

"Mmm mmm"

"Sayang je. Penat buat. Rugi masa, tenaga hmm"

"Owner cakap apa, bang?"

"Dia suruh teruskan"

"Astu kenapa abang roboh?"

"Biar dia bina baru nanti dia tshu sama tak dengan yang lama"

"Tak sama, bang. Takkan sama…"

"Tadi dia datang"

"Dia marah abang ke?"

"Tak termaki kot. Senyap je tengok abang atas bawah"

"Astu dia cakap apa?"

"Abang profesional cakap kita refund ikut terma dalam kontrak"

"Astu 10% abang cakap tu?"

"Tak bagi pun. Dalam kontrak tak ada. Ihsan je tu. Tak jadi bagi"

"Abang…jangan sedih, okey?"

"Tak…"

Panggilan telefon

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Hadiah pahala

"Birthday Ocio hari ni. Order makan"

"Sama hari tu?"

"Hari tu bila?"

"8/2"

"Birthday orang ke 8/2?"

"Kita tanya abang tak jawab"

"Birthday siapa eh?"

"Skandal abang"

"Bukan la. Hmm tak kisah la. Order lauk sama"

"Kita beli hadiah. Nak tak?"

"Tak payah. Kita bagi pahala je. Kalau kita jamu orang makan sesuap dapat pahala sebesar gunung. Kita sedekah atas nama dia"

"Astu dia tak tahu"

"Tak payah tahu"

"Ala kita beli hadiah laaa"

"Apa?"

"Kemeja ke"

"Orang kata kalau bagi baju nanti gaduh besar sampai putus haa"

"Abang ni kan ada aje"

"Ye la. Ramai cakap macam tu"

"Astu hadiah apa?"

"Pahala je dah. Dia dah tua pun hahaha"

Panggilan telefon

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Menangis simpati

"Abang…"

"Ara…kenapa nangis ni?"

"Rindu abang…"

"Laa"

"Abang marah kita ke?"

"Tak…"

"Hihi tak nangis dahhh"

"Pulak"

"Nangis simpati. Kita takut la abang mara-mara kita"

"Tak marah"

"Abang dah makan?"

"Dah. Kari ikan. Ara makan apa hari ni?"

"Nasi tumpang"

"Sedap"

"Abang…kita teruk, kan?"

"Tak. Okey je"

"Tapi kita rasa kita teruk mmm"

"Taklah"

"Abang…kita minta maaf mmm mmm"

"Tak apa"

"Abang marah, kan?"

"Tak"

"Kenapa tak marah?"

"Tak perlu marah"

"Marah la kita. Kita salah"

"Tak apa"

"Mmm mmm"

"Kita dah okey?"

"Belum"

"Gencatan sekejab?"

"Ha'a"

"Okey"

"Madanon melampau tau bang"

"Dia buat apa?"

"If your electricity bill is more than RM220 a month, prepare for a 8pc service tax from March 1"

"Cukai lagi"

"I've already figured out who I'm voting for in the next election"

"Eh Ara pangkah dia ke?"

"No way okayyyy. Kita bukan WalaNon"

"Hahaha ingat walauntit je ada, walaNon pun ada"

"Eee geram la. Can they just stop taxing us for more taxes? Basic needs shouldn't be taxed like luxuries"

"Call sebab nak bebel pasal ni, kan?"

"Ha'a"

"Asalkan Ara call, abang dah cukup lega. Boleh fokus kerja"

"Sekejab aje tau"

"Ular tedung 3.7m ada dekat site. Hari ni cari sarang. Ada banyak siap ada telur. Telur tu nak pecah nanti dia mengamuk. Tak buang nanti dia ulang datang. Tapi tadi abang dah cakap pindahkan anak dia nanti orang bunuh"

"Kenapa tak ketuk dia, bang?"

"Mana boleh bunuh. Nanti dia balas dendam"

"Abang ni kan"

"Ye la. Makcik pesan jangan bunuh. Halau guna buluh. Dia takut buluh. Kalau bunuh nanti sentiasa ada ular datang. Banyak kes sampai kena pindah"

"Ooo kita tak tahu hihi"

Panggilan telefon

Goa, India

29 Feb 2024

Sorry, Zaza

I told Zaza I can't text her every day and don't like making people wait for my replies. She seemed sad and didn't answer my text. I think she might have been crying. I should have asked her what she was doing first. Now, I'm worried because she was driving from Saskatoon to Calgary. Did she get to Calgary safely?

5.50 am

I fell asleep at 10 minutes to 6 a.m. (Malaysian time) on the couch while waiting for Ara to call or reply to my text. When I woke up, there was still no response from her.

My sweet little girl

Ocio asked if he could give my number to Hana. I said no. I don't want to entertain other women. I have what I want, and that's enough. I lost her almost ten years ago, and I just want to talk to her, no one else. My attention is only for her. I don't have any feelings for Hana, so I think it's better to leave it that way. You are beautiful and smart, but you didn't capture my heart. The woman who captured my heart is drop-dead gorgeous and brilliant. She loves books as well, knows how to cook, and handle household chores. She will always be my dream girl, my sweet little girl.

Give me a call

It's okay if we argue for a fortnight (if that's what you want), but don't be silent and ignore me. We used to fight, but we still talk. Please don't block my number. What if I become confused and can't reach you?

It's 1:15 AM in Goa. I got back from work early today. I ate biryani but couldn't finish the food, so I ended up eating bread. What did you do today? I'm still trying to call you, but you haven't unblocked my number yet.

Give me a call if you miss me. I will wait all night for your call.

Baga Beach, Goa, India

28 Feb 2024, 2.01 am

I'll patiently wait

What to eat when you are in India?

Eat like a Goan: Biryani, chicken xacuti, and mango juice.

_

Ara didn't reply to my text, nor did she return my call. When I tried to contact her, I found that she had blocked my phone number. I will patiently wait for her to cool down  

Hey quadruplets! Did you catch any butterflies today? Ibu didn't pick up my call, so I won't be able to hear your voices or find out what you are up to. I miss all of you. Take care, okay?

Jom gaduh

Ara tak nak angkat call tak apa. Nanti abang call lagi. Sekarang kerja dulu.

Ara nak gaduh? Okey, kita gaduh. Kita tak payah bercakap dua minggu. 

Puas hati?

Sedih

"Tak nak cakap dengan abang?"

"Tak nak"

"Abang buat salah apa? Kan Ara dah check jadual abang"

"Tak nak kawan abang"

"Semalam elok je kawan. Hari ni tak nak"

"Mmm mmm"

"Okey, tak nak tak apa"

_

"Abang nak pergi kerja. Jauh. Cakap la dengan abang"

"Tak nak"

"Hmm"

_

"Ara…tak baik masam muka. Abang nak pergi kerja dah. Takkan abang nak keluar ingat muka masam Ara?"

"………"

"Okey…"

_

"Ara jaga diri, okey? Jangan buat kerja nanti letih"

"………"

"Hmm tak nak peluk abang?"

"………"

"Sinilah, bagi abang peluk kejab"

"Tak nak"

"Sekejab je"

"………"

"Tak nak tak apa la. Abang pergi dulu"

_

"Ara, hmm abang dah half way sampai airport tapi abang patah balik. Bagi abang peluk Ara sekejab, boleh?"

"………"

"Tak nak peluk…hmm salam abang, boleh?"

"………"

"Bagi abang cium dahi, boleh?"

"………"

"Okey…tak apalah hmm"

"………"

"Ara…hmm. Tak ada apa. Abang pergi dulu. Jaga diri baik-baik abang tak ada"

"………"

"Abang selalu ingat Ara sebagai isteri yang baik"

"………"

"Kerasnyalah hati hmm"

"………"

"Bye sayang…"

"………"

"Tak nak bagi abang bekal? Abang boleh makan sahur. Selalu Ara bagi bekal"

"………"

"Hmm"

Feb 25, 2024

To be near

Tonight, she was crying as I hurried to end the call because my wife came to check on me, ensuring I was ready to go out in Tegucigalpa. I asked my wife to wait a few minutes as I hadn't decided on my outfit yet - whether to wear white slacks with a red shirt and loafers, or just simple jeans with a white shirt and 6" brown ankle boots.

I called her back a few minutes later and heard her crying, which made me sad. I was worried because she had just finished work, and I thought she might have fallen asleep while driving. I wanted to make sure she got home safely. I comforted her, and she seemed to be okay. It was then that I realized she always wants to be near me.

Bulan

Bulan telah mengelilingi dunia

sepanjang aku menunggu

matamu tiba.

(Khoo Phau Liang)

Kalbu

Semoga namaku tercatat di dalam kalbumu selama-lamanya.

Feb 2, 2024

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Kekasih, tidakkah kau tahu, telah skian lama namamu terpahat di dalam kalbuku...

9 am

Today, we officially had a fight because she found an excuse to start a war. She asked me to have my secretary provide her with my schedule for cross-checking as she really wants to know what I did at 9 am.

Happy weekend

I strive to ensure Ara feels valued and loved, matching her efforts in our relationship. When she cooks, I appreciate her meals, even when our tastes diverge, and I've never voiced dissatisfaction. I'm there to listen when she needs to talk, and I'm responsive to her need for physical affection. I prioritize spending quality time with her, actively keeping my focus on our relationship rather than letting my thoughts drift to other women. This past weekend was a testament to our bond, as we enjoyed a serene getaway filled with beach activities, kayaking, and watching the sunset. Our evenings were spent savoring BBQ and stargazing on a cruise, embodying our shared moments of joy.

However, Ara recently inquired about a change in my schedule, questioning why I'm unavailable at 9 am on a specific day. She found my altered timetable peculiar and sought clarity on my activities during that time.

I wish for nothing more than to avoid conflicts with Ara over misunderstandings or suspicions.

Kekah

"Soalan FB. I have never  enjoyed my marriage from day one. My husband does not last up to 30 minutes on bed. What should I do?"

"Jumpa Ary hahaha. Dia kan sex coaching"

"Abang ni kan tak baik la"

"Tak tahu apa jadi tu. Abang dah bagi resipi. Dia kekah bini dia kaw-kaw kot hahaha"

"Eee jangan la guna perkataan tu. Ekstrem je"

"Benda betul. Malu apa. Ocio dah minum. Selang sehari. Dia rajin buat senaman"

"Hihi good, good"

"Senaman burung dia la hahaha"

"Eee abang ni. Tak nak tahu"

"Tak apa nanti Zara bagitahu hahaha"

Uli

"Taklah bang, netizen cakap dia main-main je"

"Dahsyat main-main sampai bagi suami kawin lain"

"Dia biar je bini nombor dua. Kesian jugak la kalau betul"

"Kenapa buat macam tu? Tak baik la"

"Jual produk, bang. Tengok la video terbaru dia"

"SS"

"Tengok sini je"

"Haha badan kena uli"

"Perancang la bang"

"Bukan la. Laki selalu pakai ni. Tengok la breast dia naik"

"Abang ni kan"

"Ye. Kalau perancang badan macam keras sikit"

"Semalam kekah, hari ni uli. Ingat perempuan ni apa mmm"

"Hahaha ala hahaha"

"Tak ada ayat bela diri?"

"Tak haha"

"Gerey sungguh la"

"Ala laki pun kalau dia tak pakai bini nampak jugak"

"Nampak ke?"

"Nampak"

"Macam mana?"

"Kejab. Buat kerja"

"Cerita la, cerita la"

"Cerita pun bukan Ara faham"

Tak nak gaduh

"Ara tak nak tidur?"

"Tak nak"

"Mata merah dah tu"

"Kesian abang"

"Okey sikit dah. Esok abang cari garam"

"Jangan puasa tau"

"Ye"

"Kita tak nak gaduh"

"Okey, good girl"

"Abang…"

"Hmm"

"Ara nak gaduh kenapa abang tak nak?"

"Sebab abang dah tua. Letih gaduh. Dari muda dah gaduh"

"Abang gaduh dengan siapa? Kajang sana ek"

"Datang balik Kajang dia. Lama hilang"

"Rindu hihihihi"

"Laa boleh pulak"

Topik tak panas

"Kita bosan. Abang tak nak gaduh mmm"

"Abang sakit perut. Ulang tandas je"

"Astu kita nak simen siapa?"

"Simen Haff"

"Tak nak"

"Ku Ariff ke?"

"Tak nak la dia. Bajet je"

"Hmm siapa lagi eh. Siapa eh nama mamat tu hmm ala lupa pulak"

"Mmm mmm"

"Hmm siapa eh?"

"Apasal abang tak suka Hana? Dia cantik"

"Entah. Topik lain"

"Apasal anak abang panggil dia kakak? Kita aunty. Kita tua ke?"

"Eh takk"

"Astu? Mmm topik tak panas mmm mmm"

"Hahahaha"

Beautiful piece

You are a beautiful piece of heaven.

Cakit cangat cangat

"Cakit cakit peyot ke?"

"Sakit"

"Cakit cangat?"

"Haah"

"Cakit cangat cangat?"

"Ye"

"Cian dia"

"Ha"

Nak gaduh pasal apa?

"Kita tak nak pergi Honduras"

"Kenapa?"

"Malasss"

"Kesian anak nak pergi"

"Tapi abang tak nak gaduh"

"Yela. Abang kan dah tua. Mana larat gaduh"

"Tapi kita suka gaduh"

"Tapi Bonda cakap jangan gaduh kan"

"Mmm tak suka la tak gaduh"

"Okey, cepat. Nak gaduh pasal apa?"

"Abang nak gaduh pasal apa?"

"Abang nak bernafas pun susah. Mana nak gaduh"

"Kesiannya abang"

"Kan, tak payah gaduh"

"Mmm mmm"

"Kemas beg. Kita pergi Honduras, okey?"

"Cakap kita cantik"

"Ye"

"Cakap la"

"Ara cantik"

"Kita tahu kita cantik. Thank you"

A lovely morning

"Ara, bawa abang keluar"

"Sekarang?"

"Ye"

"Tapi dah malam. Esok eh"

"Tak nak. Sekarang"

"Balas dendam ek"

"Lama dah duduk je"

_

"Motor la"

"Pinggang abang tu"

"Baru berangan nak peluk"

"Mengada eh"

"Yela Ara bawa mesti sedap peluk"

_

"You good, Tiger?"

"Tak tiger dah. Tumpas"

"Bila tumpas?"

"Hmm"

"Malim yang handal mmm"

"Tak handal dah"

"Sedih kenapa? Sebab pinggang sakit?"

"………"

"You are full of self-doubt and overthinking. All that's gonna wreck you"

"Hmm"

"Ooohhh ni mesti pasal abang frozen kan"

"Tak la"

"Bistu?"

"Apa duduk lain seat. Pindah sini"

"Malasss"

"Abang sakit pinggang. Kalau tak, dah lama pindah seat sebelah"

"Abang ni kan"

"Haa sini"

"Sempit jugak dia suka"

_

"Abang…jom la balik"

"Subuh kita balik"

"Sejuk"

"Angin laut…"

"Ombak…mmm kuatnya"

_

"Ara duduk diam la"

"Mesti mood tak baik, kan?"

"Okey je"

"Eleh. Selalu tiga butang bukak tiba je butang semua"

"Malam sejuk"

_

"Araaaa…buat apa"

"Unbutton your shirt"

"Laju je tangan tu"

"Sejuk, bang"

_

"Abang…"

"Hmm"

"Mmm"

"Tidur…"

"Mmm"

_

"Abang…jom balik"

"Dah Subuh?"

"Ha'a"

"Kita solat dulu"

"Tak bawak air"

"Air laut boleh"

"Sah ke bang?"

"Sah. Mandi wajib pun sah"

"Ri ni tak payah kan hihi"

"Hahaha"

"Malas la nak bangun"

"Eyy cepat"

_

"Tak nak mandi?"

"Sejukkkkk"

"Tunggu sini. Jangan pergi mana"

"Bukak la baju"

"Buat apa?"

"Bukan ada orang…kita je"

"Tak payah la"

"Abang tu pemalu sangat. Dengan bini malu dengan orang lain lari kot hihihi"

"Eyyy"

_

"You were a good man. Throw away your self-doubt"

"Abang dah jadi anti-sosial kan?"

"You used to mingle around? I see you as a cold fish"

"Dulu…lama dulu"

"What made you change?"

"Lost myself in the pain. Grief turned me into someone I barely recognize. I'm not the same after all that hurt, but it is what it is"

"Ara tak tahu pun abang suka bersosial"

"Dulu sayang…dulu. Sepuluh tahun dulu…"

_

"Siapa mesej, bang?"

"Zaza"

"Rajin abang reply"

"Mesej semalam. Lupa nak bukak. Dia tak hantar pun submission tu"

"Kata dah"

"Dia kata stres. Tak dapat complete"

"Sana sini rindu dia. Amboi!"

"Eh tak. Mana ada"

_

"It's such a lovely morning, abang. Strolling on the beach hand in hand, gazing at the sunrise, collecting seashells. You make me happier"

"Ara, main satu lagu"

"Lagu apa?"

"Video masak"

"Aaa tak nakkkk. Kita nak lariii"

"Aip! Cepat"

_

"Abang…mmm nak turun"

"Tak payah?"

"Pinggang abang tak sakit ke?"

"Jom balik. Hmm…check in hotel dulu boleh? Hehe"

"Anak tunggu, bang"

"Alaa kejab pun tak boleh?"

"Malam, sayang"

_

"Mula dah dia tak butang baju"

"Terliur cakap hahaha"

*pap pap pap*

21 Feb 2024

Mudahkan urusan anak

"Betul hari tu Ara cakap ada mak ayah toksik. Conversation tu hilang. Ingat nak baca balik"

"Kenapa abang?"

"Banyak mak bapak toksik buat anak rasa nak jauhkan diri. Ara cakap bukan semua salah anak. Kadang-kadang punca mak ayah. Baru faham"

"Bonda selalu ingatkan Ara, bila jadi ibu mudahkan urusan anak-anak mentaati kita. Jangan kita penyebab anak-anak jadi derhaka, penghuni tetap neraka"

"Faham dah sekarang"

"Bonda cakap jangan salah guna kuasa ibu. Kesian anak-anak tersepit"

"Betul tu"

"Kalau Hans tak balik raya pertama, Bonda tak pernah tanya. Dia balik raya kedua, ketiga, keempat Bonda terima aje tapi tak pernah la dia balik raya ketiga"

"Ada nenek puji cucu sini putih, sana gelap sikit. Dia tanya kenapa tak sama cerah haha gila betul"

"Eee jahatnya. Mesti parents terasa hati kan? Mengata anak dia. Abang suruh aje dia cilikan makcik jahat tu. Biasa dia"

"Anak dia nak keluar bawak bini dengan anak-anak pergi suruh angkat peti ais. Malam pun boleh"

"Kalau kita kan, kita tak balik da rumah mentua acam tu. Sakit tau hati kita. Bab tu Bonda tahu dia suruh kita pilih abang. Bonda cakap hak mutlak kita je hihi"

"Tapi dalam Islam, kalau isteri tak nak balik rumah mentua sebab sakit hati, suami tak boleh paksa balik. Contoh macam balik raya, isteri tak nak ikut suami tak boleh paksa ikut"

"Ye ke bang?"

"Ye"

Fun and fund

"Of course la bang. He had the fun, she had the fund. Million dollar"

"Dia tak geli ke dapat batang kayu lembik nak reput?"

"Abang ni kan"

"Betul la. Nak rasa apa? Kecut hahaha"

"Duit bang, duit"

"Abang yang laki pun geli"

"Tutup aje mata, bang. Settle"

Esok kita gaduh

"Rugi tak abang rasa?"

"Entah"

"Rugi tak, bang?"

"Cantik, kan"

"Rugi ke tak?"

"Rugi kot bini tak masak. Cantik boleh tengok tapi tak kenyang perut"

"Rugi la ek"

"Laki dia memang nak yang cantik. Dapat la cantik"

"Abang nak yang apa?"

"Apa adanya"

"Abang malas layan kita ek"

"Takkk"

"Nak gaduh ek"

"Takkk"

"Astu?"

"Ara kan cantik, rajin masak, semua okey"

"Okey kan, bang?"

"Terbaik!"

"Kita cantik perut abang kenyang hihi"

"Haah"

"Good night, abang"

"Night princess"

"I love you"

"Sayang sampai syurga"

"Tak sampai siap abang!"

"Tidur, tidur"

"Esok kita gaduh tau"

"Ha"

"Janji"

"Gaduh pun nak janji"

"Janji laaa"

"Tidur, tidur"

"Janjiiii"

"Ara cakap nak bangun awal kan? Haaa tidur"

Tangguh

"Tak boleh gaduh. Abang tak larat. Semalam bangun terkejut"

"Bila?"

"Malam"

"Kenapa tak panggil?"

"Ara tidur lena"

"Astu sakit dada?"

"Haah"

"Astu puasa tak cakap"

"Tak plan pun"

"Astu buat kita geram"

"Hmm tak"

"Astu macam mana gaduh?"

"Tangguh, boleh?"

"Mmm mmm"

First date

Ketuk pintu

"Belum cukup sejam. 30 minit lagi"

"Abang, kita first dating dekat mana?"

"Kejab. Nak terkencing la"

"Abang jangan lari"

"Kang terkencing dalam seluar"

"Abang tak ingat kannn"

Simpan sebagai kenangan

"Abang, soalan dari FB. How to stop thinking about an ex?"

"Keep busy always"

"Noooo. Get a brand new one hihihi"

"Melupakan tanpa melibatkan orang baru"

"Boleh lupa tak masalahnya"

"Tak"

"Bistu?"

"Kita simpan sebagai masa lalu yang penuh kenangan"

Min

“Teruk batuk you tu”

“Dah makan ubat tadi”

“I dengar you muntah kot”

“Okey je ni”

“What’s wrong dearest?”

“Tak ada apa. Tak sedap hati je”

“You tak sedap hati sampai muntah?”

“Rasanya la”

“You tak sedap hati pasal apa?”

“Tak ada apa pun”

“Your ex?”

“Hmm...”

“You risau apa for real?”

“Sibuk je kan”

“You takut dia kawin ea”

“Hmm...”

“You takut dia jadi milik orang lain”

“Hmm....”

“You risau pasal ni je sampai muntah gila”

“Jangan la kutuk”

“Serius dear you risau sampai muntah-muntah?”

“Dah la Min. Ish”

“If dia kawin apa bezanya. Still bukan hak you”

“Hmm...”

“Apa bezanya dearest?”

“Mesti la ada”

“Apa?”

“Fikir la sendiri”

“You memang. Asyik paksa suruh I fikir”

“Habis dah tanya je. Fikir la sendiri”

20 Disember 2015

_

I just finished my work and attended a couple of meetings. Working from home isn't my preferred type of work nowadays, unlike in previous years. I prefer going to the office and then back home to relax and spend time with my kids. I haven't received any news from you. No news is news too, isn't it? But what does it mean? Are you dead? I miss you being around. I don't like contacting Zaza to get any news about you. And who is Farid? I don't know him. Ramadan is around the corner. Your mom must be waiting for you for Hari Raya. Please come home soon. I tried calling your mom's home, but no one picked up. Hmm…

Take care, Min, wherever you are.

Min

“Hai Min”

“Hi hero. You rindu I eh?”

“Buat apa tu?”

“Apa hal bunyi bising. You dekat mana?”

“Atas bot. Pakai satelit. Biasa la”

“I thought you at offshore”

“Tak la. Hujung bulan depan baru pergi sana”

“Are you okay handsome?”

“Okey kot”

“Time will heal everything. Sabarlah”

“Farid al-Atrash sihat ke?”

“Entah. Mana I tahu”

“Kata boyfriend”

“You yang cakap bukan”

“Jangan jual mahal. Nanti dia blah baru tau”

“You okey ke tak ni? Batuk you macam teruk je”

“Cuba tukar you tu jadi awak. Baru mendaulatkan bahasa Malaysia”

“E geli okey”

“Hahaha. Teruk betul city girl ni”

“You suka tukar tajuk. Sakit you datang ke?”

“Entah”

“You skip your medical check again?”

“Ha’ah”

“Life moves on. You lost her, but you get your life back. Be thankful”

“Hmm...”

“Cakaplah”

“Never mind”

“You cured. Not all people get that chance. You’re the chosen one”

“Membebel je kan”

“The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places”

“Siapa cakap tu?”

“Itu pun you nak tanya ke?”

“Saja la nak tau”

“Ernest Hemingway”

“Sejak bila baca Ernest Hemingway ni?”

“Gotta go”

“Ala takkan nak blah dah”

“I nak siap”

“Pergi mana?”

“Date la sayang”

“Hee dengan mamat mana?”

“Nanti I story”

“Okey”

“Red or black?”

“Apa?”

“Dress”

“Black”

“Bye love”

“Jangan pakai seksi-seksi sangat Min”

“You jealous ea”

“Tak ada maknanya”

December 13, 2015

_

Are you still alive, Min? If yes, where were you? You never go anywhere without telling me. You never leave me this way, even when I have someone else, even when I broke your heart. Where were you, Min?"

(Undated notes)

Midnight beach

At midnight, I visited the beach with Ara to share some quiet time together. We settled in on the front car seat, and as she rested against me, the gentle breeze played around us. She slowly unbuttoned my shirt, and after a while, drifted off into a peaceful sleep in my embrace.

My thoughts drifted far from the beach as I gazed at the moon. My mind was consumed by someone dear to my heart, filling every corner until I was breathless. She had captivated my thoughts so completely that there was no room for anything else; I couldn't shake her from my mind.

Baju raya

"Lajunya cakap Siam. Borak apa dengan Hans?"

"Baju raya hihihi. Dia nak sama"

"Laa ingat sembang apa"

"Nok samo blako, bea"

Hero

"Eyy kamera on tak?"

"Takkk. Masuk la. Sorry tau sepah sikit hihi"

"Masuk kereta ke, masuk bilik ke, semua sepah"

"Busy la"

"Tea? Coffee? Hot chocolate?"

"Hot chocolate"

"Bahu lenguh? Nak urut?"

"Ha'a. Abang tak clock in?"

"Belum. Ara tengok kes apa?"

"Kanak-kanak hilang"

"Nak cerita?"

"Tak"

"Okey"

"Bang, hihi tolong kemas. Acam cepah cikit. Cikit jee"

"Boleh"

"Maceh tau"

_

"Nota-nota ni nak buang ke simpan?"

"Simpan"

"Letak satu tempat"

"Atas meja je"

"Semua atas meja"

"Ha'a"

*baca nota*

"Abangggg"

"Haa kejab"

"Banggg"

"*You are only one great hero in my own destiny.

And you always be there with me

From sunrise till sunset"

"Heee jangan baca"

"Sunset kena ada"

"Abang…mmm"

"Hmm?"

*kucing lompat atas sofa*

"Awak ni, kita nak manja dengan laki je awak datang. Apa masalah awak?"

"Sini satu kali"

"Alaa nak pergi mana?"

"Kucing lapar"

"Asyik dia je menang. Nak kena goreng tepung ek"

"Hahaha"

*Nafisa Anwer

After ten long years

"Rindu sangat....taktau nak buat macamana....macam sasau....abang ngaku cepatttt...abang mandram kan? Kuat sangat rasa hati untuk abang....even after 10 long years..."

_

I think she has recently come to realize that her love for me is so deep that she can hardly believe the extent of her feelings.

Territory

"I m marking my territory...i wanna be possesive of you..."

_

After taking my bath, I look in the mirror and touch my chest as if there is a mark on it.

Love hormone

Who says our body doesn't react when we fall in love?

When we are in love, the brain releases higher levels of dopamine, the "feel-good" neurotransmitter associated with pleasure, as well as oxytocin, often referred to as the "love hormone" due to its role in bonding and social connection.

_

"Found my peace in your arms. In the same arms that makes me tremble..."

Failure

I feel embarrassed when I talk to her.

Reputation

My reputation is completely tarnished. There is no performance, no results. I am sorry, sayang. I should have treated you much better than I did. Poor you.

:(

I'm sorry

I failed to touch her, and I know I disappointed her. I'm sorry that I'm feeling frozen, and it's clear that every move I want to make doesn't seem enough. I know that you yearn for my touch, and I let you down. I apologize. I'll do better next time. I will strive to regain my confidence as I once had.

I want you

I feel like my heart is racing too fast. I lose focus, trying to get myself back on track, distracted from having such thoughts. I can't erase them; they dance in my mind all day long. She thought that I wouldn't want her, but she was wrong. I want her as much as she wants me. I want her badly.

Lost control

"Do you crave for more?"

"(Yes, I do, but) I'm afraid that I've lost control over you. I don't want to lose control (because I worry that when your overthinking kicks in, you might leave me. I don't want you to leave)"

Gagah perkasa

"Dekat masjid tadi abang solat guna kerusi. Sakit nak diri tegak"

"Dah berapa hari sakit, bang?"

"Dua, tiga hari"

"Punca?"

"Tak tahu. Tiba-tiba sakit"

"Itu la asyik tua aje da sakit pinggang. Tanda penuaan"

"Susah la serigala nak mengamuk"

"Kombat bang, kombat hihi"

"Lagi lenguh pinggang"

"Bea, char nok kere dok?"

"Tauge jangan letak. Tak pasal bengkak. Kejar malam Jumaat ni hahahaha"

"Gerey la. Tok kiro pinggey sakik dok mikir Jumaat sokmo"

"Ha la. Laki, nak fikir apa lagi"

"Sakik tak dok male Jumaat deh"

"Kuasa di tangan abang"

"Kuasa gapo diri tok buleh. Supo pok tuo hihihi"

"Gagah perkasa tau ni"

"Gagoh mari depe adik truh kejung supo mayak hihihi"

"Eyyy bukan main lagi"

12.30 pm

 Dada sakit. 

Sumbang

Huda: (Menyanyi) Kekasih, tulis namaku

Di dalam diari hatimu

Kekasih, setiap senyummu

Pengubat rindu di hatiku

Puisikan segala janji-janji kita

Bakar semua kepalsuan

Gelora rindu buat ku merasa tersiksa

Jauh darinya

Andai ku punya sayap

Kau di bulan akan ku jelang

Daddy: Amboi! Sekolah pun belum habis

Huda: I love this song

Umar: Ribut petir dan hujan lebat di jangka melanda bandar San Jose berikutan seorang penyanyi bersuara sumbang hahahaha

Huda: You!!!!!!!

Frozen

"Nampak, bukan tak nampak. Sebelah lagi okey"

"Isteri mana yang tak risau"

"Boleh. Dah biasa masa sakit dulu"

"Bila prosedur?"

"Nantilah. Sekarang malas. Nak berkepit dengan bini je"

"Bini tak ke mana, bang"

"Tapi setiap detik umpama emas"

"Abang…who did you take care of in Busra? A man or a woman?"

"A family. A happy family"

"Do you know them?"

"One of them"

"Are they hurt?"

"No. No one recognized them"

"Then why did you get on the flight?"

"Teringin makan char"

"Nak ke?"

"Nak"

"Lagi?"

"Tak ada lagi. Tu je"

"Good boy sangat"

"Haah"

"Why are you being so well-behaved?"

"Hmm abang freeze"

"Can an attractive, seductive man like you freeze in front of a woman?"

"Jangan kutuk abang"

"Kenapa freeze?"

"Bukan freeze. Frozen dah ni"

In safe hands

"Abang, tolong ambil air"

"Kejab"

"Abang…"

"Hmm?"

"Ke kanan sikit"

"Apa?"

"Tangan abang ke kanan sikit"

"Ha"

"Why you always keep things hidden from me?"Mata kenapa, sayang?"

"Kanta jatuh. Kanta dekat dengan kanta malam"

"Jatuh dekat mana?"

"Busra"

"I saw your wound but didn't ask. Ara tak nak kacau mood abang"

"Tahu"

"May I see your wound?"

"Sure"

"Luka sebab apa?"

"Gaduh"

"Dengan siapa?"

"Orang"

"Orang mana?"

"Orang biasa"

"Berapa orang?"

"Ramai jugak"

"Sama tinggi abang?"

"Tak, rendah sikit"

"Luka kena apa, abang?"

"Meja…"

"Meja jenis apa? Stainless steel? Dining table?"

"Hmm"

"Bentuk apa? Round? Square, Oval?"

"Hmm…semua tak"

"Abang kena pisau, kan?"

"Hmm"

"Short blade? Long blade?"

"Short blade. Close combat"

"Gaduh sebab apa? Di mana? Dalam atau luar bangunan?"

"Dalam"

"It's a parcel or a person?"

"Parcel"

"Is it safe now?"

"Yes, it's in safe hands"

"Why don't you take care of it?"

"It's not mine"

"If it's not yours, why did you care so much?"

Tengah malam

"Abang, lapar"

"Lapar apa? Abang eh?"

"Lapar laaa"

"Nak makan?"

"Ha'a"

"Nak makan apa?"

"Bihun sup"

"Okey, jom turun"

"Dukung"

"Tak boleh. Pinggang sakit"

"Alaaa"

"Jom cepat"

"Alaaa"

"Jatuh kang haa"

"Tangga sama je"

"Kalau abang jatuh, Ara pun jatuh. Abang jatuh tak apa. Ara tu"

"Alaaa"

Cinta pertama Nabi

Daddy: Apa nama penuh nabi kita?

Adam: Muhammad bin Abdullah

Huda: Muhammad bin Abdullah

Umar: Abul Qaasim Muhammad bin Abdullah

Daddy: Pandai Umar. Siapa nama isteri nabi?

Adam: Khadijah binti Khuwailid, Aisyah binti Abu Bakar, Hafsah binti Umar. Lupa daddy

Daddy: Cuba ingat

Umar: Zainab, Safiyah, Raihana, Mariah, Ummu Salamah, Ummu Habibah, Juwairiyah, Saudah, Aisyah, Hafsah, Khadijah, Maimunah

Huda: Sekali nafas!

Daddy: Apa nama anak nabi?

Huda: Fatimah Az-Zahra, Ibrahim, umm Husin?

Daddy: Tu cucu nabi

Kakak:: Ibu! Siapa nama anak nabi?

Daddy: Dah guna talian hayat pulak

Ibu: Al-Qasim, Zainab, Ruqayyah, Ummu Kalsom, Fatimah Az-Zahra, Abdullah, Ibrahim

Daddy: Siapa nama cinta pertama nabi?

Huda: Siti Khadijah

Daddy: Tu isteri pertama nabi

Adam: Adam tak tahu

Daddy: Umar?

Umar: Tak tahu

Daddy: Faqidha binti Abu Talib. Dia cinta pertama nabi tapi nabi tak dapat kawin dengan dia sebab dia reject nabi. Dua kali dia reject nabi. Sekali masa nabi belum terima wahyu. Kedua selepas dia bercerai

Huda: Kenapa dia reject nabi?

Daddy: Google

Umar: Nabi yang hebat kena cancel. Kita macam mana Adam?

Adam: Friendzone hehehe

Daddy: Ramai yang tak dapat hidup dengan cinta pertama tapi selalunya cinta pertamalah yang menghidupkan hati kita. Jangan sedih kalau kita kena tolak sebab nabi pun pernah rasa benda yang sama. Apa yang kita rasa, nabi dah lama rasa

Umar: Nabi ada cinta pertama

Daddy: Kakak pergi baca balik buku Martin Lings. Menyanyi bukan main lagi. Pasal nabi tak ingat. Adam pun sama. Baca buku tu

CCTV

"Good boy ri ni. Selalu tak reti duduk diam"

"Puasa"

"Eleh. Boleh je sendeng cuit-cuit"

"Haa tu la"

"Abang kenapa?"

"Tak ada apa"

"Okey tak?"

"Okey"

"Fikir apa?"

"Perut tadi okey ni rasa berangin balik"

"Abang kerap sakit sehari dua. Serabut apa? Dah lemas duduk rumah pergi la kerja"

"Jangan halau"

"Kalau lemas"

"Duduk sini"

"Anak ada"

"Mana?"

"Huda memerhatikan kita hihi"

"Laa jadi CCTV pulak"

Ais krim sana sini

"Macam mana kawan abang? Tidur bilik mana?"

"Laki dia bagi je dia tidur dengan anak sebab anak kecik lagi. Abang tak tahu pasal tu. Kalau tahu abang pun tak bagi nasihat"

"A good friend always corrects their friend's mistakes"

"Hari tu dia cuti. Abang suruh la dia ajak laki dia jalan-jalan taman makan ais krim. Dia cakap semalam dah makan ais krim. Habis makan, patah balik bilik anak. Sabar je la"

"Abang cakap ais krim maksud ais krim ke?"

"Ye la ais krim makan tu"

"Abang cakap ais krim lain ke haa sudah"

"Tak la"

"Astu dia excited cerita"

"Tak excited. Penjelasan je"

"Astu?"

"Tak cakap dah pasal tu. Bukan nasihat pun. Saling mengingatkan je"

"Bahaya tau ais krim sana sini hihi"

Kereta

"Masa kenal, kita tanya abang kerja apa. Abang cakap kerja biasa je. Jumpa kita parking jauh astu abang cakap jumpa tempat makan astu kita offer nak hantar abang dekat kereta abang tak nak. Kita nak tengok abang drive kereta apa astu kita follow abang. Kita frust abang bawa kereta lama. Tak boleh ke abang drive Porshe ke, Bentley ke, Aston Martin ke impress kan kita? At least Range Rover ke mmm mmm"

"Kena ke?"

"Astu mimpi aje la abang nak ajak naik kereta abang. Date kereta asing. Panas tau hati kita"

"Senang nak balik hahaha"

"Astu abang follow belakang kita habis kelas malam sampai rumah tapi abang tak turun pun. Kita parking, abang hon terus balik aje. Geram tahu tak?"

"Dah selamat sampai rumah. Abang kena balik, anak tunggu"

"Apasal abang tak nak bawa kita naik kereta abang? Takut skandal nampak ek?"

"Tak. Memang tak bawa perempuan naik sama"

"Ye la kenapa?"

"Kereta asing senang. Kalau kecemasan boleh pecut terus"

"Gedik la abang"

"Betul la. Takkan nak angkut sama. Suruh balik naik teksi kesian pulak. Kereta asing senang"

"Kenapa ek kita pilih abang? Bukan kita. Baba and Bonda"

"Alaa Ara tak nak abang ke? Kesian abang"

"Tak nak"

"Tapi Tuesdate ada je dekat Kino"

"Tolong sikit. Kita beli buku. Siapa tengok awak"

"Ye la. Awak tengok punggung kita kan hahaha"

*pap pap pap*

Diskaun

"Dont get use to this bang....hahaha hari ni je diskaun ni....lupa daratan, nakal melebih lebih jap....esok esok takde dah ni..."

_

Well, my dear, every man likes to pursue things that are hard to obtain. We don't need a discount, we just need a little patience.

Happy moment

I didn't go to Honduras, not because I had work to do or my back hurt, but because I wanted to be with you during your night shift. Why? No particular reason. I will adjust my schedule when needed. I feel happy spending time with you.

Lamborghini

Bengkak

"Dari pinggang ke peha sampai dekat adik kesayangan. Situ bengkak. Urat timbul"

"Teruk ke?"

"Sakit bila gerak"

"Tak, sekarang ni bengkak dekat mana?"

"Situ la"

"Sini nak tengok"

"Eh tak boleh"

"Mengada la abang ni"

"Apa eh bahasa sains. Lupa la. Haa scrotum tapi benda tu tak bengkak. Urat nak situ je. Tak tshu pulak nama urat tu"

"Beria explain. Tunjuk je la. Pakai brief. Apa yang susah"

"Ara cakap nak tengok sunrise. Jom"

"Awak asal planet mana ek? Eee geram aje"

Mana ntah

Daddy: Bandar mula huruf M

Adam: Mexico City

Umar: Marrakech

Kakak: Mana ntah hihihi

6-12-2023

Pemburu tumpas

"Pasang khemah, pasang khemah"

"Perut tu?"

"Okey dah. Cuti dukung Ara 2 minggu. Pinggang sakit"

"Malas la nak jalan pergi mandi"

"Eleh tadi pagi tak nak"

"Alaa"

"Tak boleh. Tak dapat memburu. Sedih"

"Serigala dah tewas ke hihihi?"

"Kita buru 10 malam 5 pagi kang nak?"

"Eleh pinggang sakik hihihi"

"Eyy sini. Nak kejar sakit pinggang pulak"

"Pemburu tumpas hihihi"

"Nak kena ni"

Jajan

"Sakit pinggang la"

"Siapa suruh dukung kita. Kita berat"

"Tolong sapu minyak"

"Tak nak. Nak gaduh"

"Esok. Hari ni sakit perut. Nanti tv melayang"

"Panas tau hati kita"

"Minyak pun panas"

"Geram laaa"

"Ambil wuduk"

"Mmm mmm lama tak kena simen kan?"

"Jangan simen abang. Abang kan dah tua. Selalu buat silap"

"Mmm mmm tak puas hati"

"Abang lanje jajan, okey?"

"Mmm mmm eeeee!"

Nasihat

"Ara cakap je la abang tak nak sebab abang tak qualified nak bagi nasihat. Jawab satu soalan, tak jawab semua, orang marah nanti. Kena komitmen pulak nak menjawab. Malas abang. Abang kalau kerja, orang minta tunjuk ajar kena bayar. Tak ada percuma"

"Orang tanya lama tak nampak sunset conversation. Kita cakap abang berehat astu orang suruh abang buat TT account or YouTube chanel"

"Hahaha tak nak abang jadi pakar cinta dengar masalah orang"

"Astu orang suruh kita bukukan sunset conversation. Kita cakap tanya abang. Kita tahu aje abang tak nak"

"Memang tak nak pun"

Ketak

Keluar dari bilik air pakai tuala sambil keringkan rambut

"Kenapa bukak kamera? Habis la nampak"

"Bilik Ara. Abang masuk kenapa?"

"Mana tahu kamera on"

"Kita cakap dengan Tila. Dia tanya abang lari sebab apa"

"Ehh dia. Nasib sempat lari"

"Kita cakap abang tak suka orang tengok badan. Eksklusif untuk bini aje"

"Ye la. Cakap dia aurat lelaki memang dari pusat sampai lutut tapi bila dekat luar rumah wajib pakai baju. Haram luar rumah tak berbaju. Badan lelaki boleh menaikkan syahwat perempuan. Perempuan tengok laki tak berbaju pun dapat dosa"

"Dia suka laki ketak-ketak bang, ada urat tangan"

"Cari la laki. Laki ni Ara punya"

"Aaaa mulut manis"

Bazir air

"Alaa sorry. Tak sedar"

"Abang dah sahur"

"Mmm sorry"

"Tak apa, sayang. Kenyang dah"

"Bad mood kita"

"Laa"

"Nak gaduh la"

"Kenapa?"

"Salah abang tak panggil kita"

"Abang kesian Ara penat"

"Ara kesian abang lapar. Nak gaduhhh"

"Masak je nasi dagang buat buka, okey? Tak payah gaduh"

"Mmm mmm"

"Ayam percik sekali"

"Mmm mmm"

"Udang bakar haa sedap"

"Mmm mmm"

"Abang cari kelapa muda. Potong-potong macam dekat pantai"

"Mmm mmm"

"Okey? Kita tak payah gaduh"

"Okeyyy"

"Okey"

"Benci laaa. Benci laaa Kenapa abang tak gerak? Kita nak gaduh. Salah abang"

"………"

"Abanggg! Abanggg! Tak nak! Tak nak! Lepas laaa abanggg!"

"Mandi, mandi"

"Tak nak. Nak gaduhhh"

"Shhh"

"Benci la abang ni"

"Apa pagi dah bising"

"Kita nak mandi sendiri"

"Bazir air"

Nasi minyak

"Abang, abang"

"Hmm"

"Abang nak makan apa esok?"

"Kuetiau thng"

"Lagi, bang?"

"Paru masak kicap"

"Lagi?"

"Nasi kenduri"

"Asyik kenduri je. Lain la"

"Nasi ayam?"

"Hainan?"

"Tak berapa berkenan"

"Nasi hujan panas?"

"Nasi minyak"

"Sama la kenduri dengan minyak"

"Habis tu?"

"Nasi dagang?"

"Sahur okey. Berbuka nak nasi kenduri"

"Kenduri sokmo"

"Sedap"

"Nasi ayam penyet?"

"Okey, boleh"

"Okey hihi"

"Pagi nasi dagang, buka ayam penyet penat nanti"

"Tak"

"Terima kasih masak. Sedap semua macam orangnya"

"Tok soh buru, bea. Pinggey sakik"

"Ye"

Tak ada H

"Teh bungs longan? Mana nak cari longan?"

"Alaa cari la"

"Ara bancuh dulu teh o halia ke, teh o serai, teh o kunyit, teh o kayu manis, teh o cengkih. teh o lemon, teh o kasturi. Apa lagi eh?"

"Kita tak panggil teh o. Teh serai je"

"Teh serai letak susu. Kalau letak gula, o. Kalau tak letak apa, kosong"

"Sama je"

"Lain. Sedap jugak teh halia. Lama tak minum. Buat teh massalah esok"

"Masala. Tak ada H"

"Tak ada H, tak ada Hara"

"Hara acam masalah dalam hidup abang ye"

"Ha? Tak"

"Hihi"

Gmail

"Awak ada gmail tak? Google acc?"

"Tolong buatkan satu hehe"

"Come on abaangggg.....why are you doing thisss...... -_- . Dah send invite author kt emel ni. Grrrrr. Awak memang mengada sangat kan"

_

I skimmed through all the posts but still didn't read them all. I noticed she deleted one or two entries. I don't know what she's writing as I haven't read it. I choose not to read it. Why? I don't want to get hurt. I believe I've had my fill, and I don't want any fresh wounds.

Pasang khemah

Daddy: Kita pergi minggu depan. Daddy ada kerja

Huda: Kakak dah packing

Daddy: Next week, okay?

Umar: No prob, daddy

Daddy: Kita pasang khemah sini. Siap unggun api siap panggang ayam. Next week kita terbang

Huda: I wanna go to Honduras

Daddy: Daddy sakit pinggang. Nak pergi macam mana

Huda: But last week when your back hurt, we stilll hit up Canada

Umar: The angels say we're not going to Honduras

Dia bukan milikku

Ya Allah, aku tahu dia bukan milikku namun ketika dia tidak ada khabar aku tidak mampu mendustakan rindu. 

Sungguh atas namaMu aku mencintainya. Bagaimana mungkin aku melupakannya sedangkan Engkau berikan hati ini selalu ingat padanya. Mengapa Engkau berikan hati ini terus merindukannya sedangkan untuk bersamanya sangat sulit untukku. Ya Allah, aku titipkan dia agar Kau menjaganya seperti mana Engkau menjaga diriku.

(Penulis asal)

Catatan 7 Januari 2024

Without You

 

"Ara, pasang satu lagu best"

"Best untuk kita ke abang?"

"Lagu Ara suka"

Nasi kerabu

"Abe, mari make nasik kerabu"

"Biru ke kuning ke hijau tu? Ke merah?"

"Meroh daroh hihi"

"Garang. Eh sama baju abang"

"Hihi lawo deh meroh supo satria"

"Satria hmm?"

"Mmm…mmm…hau"

"Ye ke tak tahu?"

"Bea, meta deh"

"Mana pulak nak lari?"

"Ike mmm aye mmm mmm"

"Apa ikan apa ayam?"

"Adik raso debor. Abe jange la"

"Hmm"

"Bea hihi"

"Kata jangan puasa"

"Adik tok kato jange poso"

"Ye ke?"

"Jange mari rapak"

"Hmm"

"Mmm"

.

..

...

"Sedap nasi kerabu"

*muka merah*

"Kenapa tu?"

"Abe jahak"

"Sayang Ara"

*peluk*

Mamat bajet

"Orang laki tak reti ke bual benda lain?"

"Reti"

"Astu?"

"Dengan dia memang tak ada topik lain dia nak sembang. Tu je dia suka"

"Abang pun layankan aje"

"Abang dekat luar mana ada sembang benda macam ni. Sembang duit je. Semua orang cakap susah nak dengar abang buka mulut. Abang suka dengar. Kalau perlu, baru bercakap"

"The most powerful man in a group is the one who is the quietest"

"Taklah. Abang tak suka banyak bercakap. Islam galakkan kita banyak diam. Jangan suka bercakap benda tak bermanfaat"

"Kita pun tak suka laki banyak cakap. Kita suka dia banyak cakap dengan kita je. Kita tak suka laki bajet bagus perasan pandai semua. Semua benda dia bagi pendapat - Mr. Know-Everything. Semualah dia nak into scene"

"Mesti ada kutuk sesiapa ni"

"Mamat bini dia kerja doktor tu. Stres kita tengok Facebook dia, bang. Dia aje betul. Narsistik. Kagum dengan diri sendiri. Perasan ilmu tinggi. Macamlah dia aje baca buku berat dekat Malaysia sana. Bila orang tegur aje marah. Suka merendahkan orang. Meluat kita"

"Amboi meluat sangat"

"Bini dia okey je. Dia tu bajet sangat. Dia ingat dia aje baca kitab Arab tebal-tebal, baca buku politik French language. Tak boleh la kita dengan dia"

"Bekas pakwe?"

"Tak laaa"

"Habis tu?"

"Bajet elit kita tak tahan tu hihi"

"Siapa ni? Peminat rahsia?"

"Takkk. Kita tak kenal dia, dia pun tak kenal kita. Kita suka baca dia tulis dekat blog tapi bila follow dekat FB nampak perangai sebenar dia"

"Ooo cakap la"

"Ada lagi satu mamat ni bajet jugak"

"Siapa pulak tu?"

"Dia terpaling Einstein, bang. Lain kali kita cerita"

"Ha okey"

Jangan Kau Menangis, Sayang

"Kalau nampak orang jual tolong beli. Rare ni"

"Eee tak nak la. Malu je"

"Nak belikan tak? Kawin dua kang"

"Kawin, bang. Berbagi jaga suami. Haa gitu konsepnya"

"Baik kawin 4 terus dah alang-alang"

"Kita cari abang tak kawin siap abang!"

"Amboi ganas"

(Gambar: Google)

Now and forever

"I don't want any woman to lay eyes on you. Her gaze is forbidden to even glance in your direction"

"………"

"I don't want them to feel what I feel. I want that exclusively for myself"

"………"

"I want you to belong to me, and only me, now and forever"

"Now and forever"

"Sayang abang…"

"Ara…hmm sakit dada la"

"Abang kenapa?"

"Entah. Tiba sakit dada"

"Ara call ambulans"

"Eh jangan. Kejab je ni"

Feb 15, 2024

Tuala yang di nanti

"Abang! Tolong ambil tuala"

"Selalu tak pernah lupa"

"Tolong la, bang"

"Tuala je? Abang tak nak?"

"Itu tuala yang di nanti"

"Aaaahhh kejab! Laju tuala sampai haha"

"Cepat, bang"

"Iye. Sabar sikit haha"

_

"Betul eh P.Ramlee cakap. Nak tahu jantan betina lepas itik dalam kolam. Penat itik jantan kejar dua jam itik betina semalam"

"Penat ke sayang hihi?"

"Takkk. Rasa nak kejar lagi malam ni hehe"

"Malam ni rehat, bang"

"Nak test jugak ni, kain batik muat dua orang tak hahaha"

"Abanggg! Jangan laaa"

"Kalau muat, nak la cuba hehe"

"Tak dengar la abang cakap apa"

"Hahahaha"

Feb 15, 2024

Serigala memburu

"Abang lambat"

"Tadi nasihat orang jangan tinggal suami dekat tempat tidur"

"Dia tidur mana bang?"

"Bilik anak"

"Ooo"

"Kembar biar dalam bilik dia jangan bawa masuk bilik kita. Abang tak nak tidur sekali dengan anak. Abang nak bini ada tepi. Suami pilih isteri tapi isteri selalu utamakan anak berbanding suami. Tua nanti dengan suami bukan anak"

"Faham, bang"

"Nafsu laki ni buas, liar. Perlu di tenteramkan. Kalau tak di tenangkan lagi mengamuk nanti"

"Ye, bang"

"Laki nak memburu dulu baru nak bagi cinta. Perempuan kena bagi cinta dulu baru nak di buru"

"Faham, bang"

"Jangan goda. Lemah la bang, bang ni"

"Hihi"

"Boleh tak, serigala nak memburu malam ni haha?"

"Serigala dah kena tangkap semalam hihihi"

"Ara buat apa je semalam?"

"Main phone abang. Apasal banyak noti? Ri tu off semua"

"Baru nampak laki busy haha. Ara jugak yang bising abang off cakap nak sorok benda"

"Alaa tu kita mmm mmm bosan"

"Dengar lagu apa?"

"Ada la hihi

"Slow music, dark room and hmm best sex ever hehe"

"Menyampah la abang ni!!!!"

"Eh betul kan"

"Abanggggggg!"

Willy the dolphin

Umar: Kakak got chocolate from her boyfriend

Kakak: Hell no

Adam: Can I have some?

Daddy: Birthday Kakak hari ni?

Umar: It's Valentine's Day, daddy

Daddy: We can't celebrate Valentine's Day. Anyway, who gave you the chocolate?

Kakak: Uh, a friend

Daddy: A special friend?

Kakak: Just a friend

Daddy: What's his name?

Umar: Willy sounds like a name for a dolphin hahaha

Daddy: William?

Kakak: We're just friends

Daddy: Were you dating him?

Kakak: Uh, um...um

Daddy: Yes, I guess

Kakak: Um, I... um

Daddy: May your favorite person never turn into strangers. My free advice

Umar: Willy the dolphin

Kakak: Adik! You suck!

Daddy: .Jangan bagi daddy nampak dia depan pagar rumah. Kalau tak daddy patahkan pinggang dia dengan pinggang Kakak sekali

Bisik

"Abang…"

"Hmm…"

"Shhh…"

"Ara…"

_

"Ara buat apa semalam?"

"Hihi"

"Ada la tu"

"Abang tak sedar eh"

"Sedar tapi mengantuk sangat"

"Ooo"

"Ha buat apa?"

*bisik*

"Amboi dia"

"Abang jangan cakapppp"

"Hahaha tak"

"Jangannnnnn"

"Muat eh dua orang dalam kain pelikat hahaha"

"Abangggggg! Eee!"

"Puas dah godek abang hahaha?"

"Menyampah la!. Abanggg!"

This is what she feels

Be thankful

"Mana lampu merah?"

"Tak pakai"

"Kenapa? Bateri habis?"

"Off record"

"Pelik. Tiber berenggang dengan couple. Selalu ke mana aje berdua"

"Haah"

_

"Pakai la. Ara suka dengar. Comel. Orang lain record video. Abang suka audio recording. Gaduh pun record hihi"

"Masak apa?"

"Ikan pirana"

"Eh takut la"

"Hihi"

_

"Why can't we always have what we want?"

"We should be thankful for what we have"

"Hmm"

"Rindu?"

"Tak"