If you want to heal, you must heal yourself. Don't try to find someone else to replace the person you lost. You won't feel better by replacing the person you lost with a new person.
Ninoy Aquino International Airport
1-11-2023, 5.00 am
Tuesday, October 31, 2023
Tidur
"Dah makan 4 biji.Tak mengantuk pun"
"You might overdose, sayang"
"Nak tidur tapi tak boleh"
"Maybe you just miss me"
"I miss snuggling with you all night"
"Everything's gonna be okay. Just hold on for a sec"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
1-11-2023, 3.15 am
Letih
"Abang sakit perut. Makan pedas. Tak tahan la, keluar masuk toilet"
"Makan apa, bang?"
"Nasi ayam, sedap tapi sos pedas. Kalau kerja dekat biasa Ara siap bekal"
"Mesti abang lapar"
"Haah"
"Suara macam letih je"
"Letih sangat"
"Beg dah kemas?"
"Dah"
"Rest up, sayang"
"Ara, abang tak okey"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
31-10-2023, 10.40 pm
Fire in your heart
Abang...
Perhaps contacting you is not wise of me...am I triggering your depression? Saya minta maaf...
Perhaps I should stay away from you...I feel like I'm causing you more harm and hurt...
I cant help myself, I do miss you, miss us...but that is all there is...a bitter sweet memory...
I am sorry again for the agony you went through...
Oct 30, 2023
…
I heard a lot of things about love. People always talk about how it makes you smile, makes you cry, makes you laugh, makes you feel good about yourself, and a whole lot of other things but they missed one thing, one most important thing:
They missed to mention how good it feels to fall in love with the same love over and over and over again, and you still find your love and lover fascinating every second you spend time together. It makes you feel like you would want to keep on falling in love forever and hope it will never ever stops.
by Mrs.Imran
Feb 27, 2011
Hantu
"Mana nak tidur dah dia ikut sampai bilik. Tenung je kita macam kita buat salah dengan dia. Lagi sejam nak Subuh, abang mandi terus pergi masjid"
"Is she still there?"
"Ha. Ikut je mana abang pergi"
"Did you not sleep at all, sayang?"
"Tak. Nasib Ara paksa abang tidur malam bila tu"
"Ore oyak doh tok soh kelik male. Degil sungguh la"
"Lupa, tak ingat ada hantu"
"Ingat gedio?"
"Ingat Ara, ingat apa lagi"
"Hantu gano tu?"
"Malam nanti jumpa orang. Dia boleh buang"
"Gi tidur. Make dok, tidur dok. Gapo la nak jadi"
"Jom la tidur. Bebel je. Cium kang baru tahu"
"Hihihi"
"Hahaha"
Panggilan telefon
Marina Bay, Luzon
31-10-2023
Ubi rebus
"Hai sayang abang. Bangun, dah Subuh"
"Abang…mmm"
"Bangun, mandi, solat, ngaji"
"Tak nak"
"Okey, kejab lagi abang gerak"
"Ara tidur pakai sweater abang. Ara spray perfume abang tapi tak sama. Abang pakai bau lain"
"Ala sian dia rindu"
"Rindu la. Abang pergi lama…"
"Lusa abang balik"
"Balik tau. Kita rindu"
"Ye. Kita makan ubi rebus dengan kopi o"
"Abang nak kek batik?"
"Lain?"
"Laksa Johor?"
"Haa boleh. Sedap"
"Abang balik tau"
"Ye"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
30-10-2023
Monday, October 30, 2023
Ghost
I returned from the office at 1:30 am and was followed by a ghost. She is now in my room, and I don't know what to do. I feel a bit scared but still remain calm.
Our time together
Whenever we talk about your job in the medical field, it reminds me of things that happened 15 years ago and makes me feel nostalgic. I see you as someone with bright eyes and a caring heart, who is very passionate and dedicated.
Even as time has passed and we've gotten older, it feels like not much has really changed. Now it's your turn to grow and go after what you want. I love seeing your excitement and energy—it brings back nice memories.
There are times when I reminisce about the feeling of you missing me. It brings me happiness when you call me 'abang,' just like you used to during our time together. You are still beautiful and alluring, just like in the old days.
Marina Bay, Luzon
29-10-2023, 4.32 am
Janji
"Sayang dah makan?"
"Belum. Abang makan apa hari ni?"
"Puasa. Kenapa belum makan?"
"Tak lapar"
"Hari ni site dah buka. 4 orang dah kena buang. Rasanya semua dah okey"
"Alhamdulillah"
"Penat je suara"
"Tak. Okey je"
"Terima kasih untuk semua pengorbanan Ara. Tak mampu abang bayar"
"Abang…"
"Makan sikit lepas tu tidur. Hari Rabu abang balik"
"It's okay, abang kan banyak kerja"
"Tunggu abang balik eh"
"Okey"
"Rehatlah. Penat sangat tu"
"Abang pun penat, kan. Tak makan"
"Sebab abang tak makan, Ara tak makan?"
"Mmm…"
"Laa. Abang janji makan buka nanti. Ara makan dulu, okey?"
"Janji?"
"Janji"
"Hihi okey"
"Makan pun kena janji"
"Tok janji tok sey make"
Panggilan telefon
Metro Manila, Manila
30-10-2023, 12.35 pm
Forgive and forget
I used to really want to hate her, and I was starting to feel that way. But then I remembered that it's a sunnah to forgive people before going to sleep. So, I decided to forgive her and forget about what happened. It's strange because she was still hurting me at that time, but I chose to let go of my anger. After I calmed down, I sent her an email (I can't remember exactly what I wrote) and she apologized for all the sadness she had caused me.
We've been communicating only through email. She told me a lot about her new project, and it sounds really good and exciting. I hope she succeeds, and I truly believe she will.
Masjid Al-Dahab, Manila, Philippines
30-10-2023, 5.05 am
Sunday, October 29, 2023
Kerepot
"Buat gapo tu?"
"Nak tidur dah. Tengah check kerja apa belum buat"
"Sudoh-sudoh la. Tidur, siey tubuh penak"
"Tadi Ara bebel dekat kembar, ni abang pulak kena"
"Ho la. Anok bapok samo kerah palo"
"Kembar buat apa sampai panjang Ibu bebel ni haha"
"Tok habih gerey ko anok, gerey ko pok pulok"
"Apa salah kita"
"Bakpo tok sey tidur?"
"Nak tidur. Selamat malam Ara cantik. Jangan la marah-marah nanti cepat kerepot haha"
"Eee gerey la"
"Hehe abang tidur dulu"
"Ho"
"Garang je"
"Okey bea. Selamat male. Mimpi adik, deh"
"Haa macam tu laa, lembut je hahaha"
"Geli la ho"
"Hahahahahaha"
Panggilan telefon
Marina Bay, Luzon
30-10-2023, 2.40 pagi
My ultimate priority
You have chosen who stays in your life, and I am not among them. As long as you are happy, I am happy for you. Your happiness is my ultimate priority.
Marina Bay, Luzon
29-10-2023
My ocean of love
Ever since you left, I hate going to the hospital or seeing a doctor. It always reminds me of the first time you met him, and it really broke my heart. There are no words to describe how I feel. Accepting things as they are has been difficult, but I'm trying my best.
I have been dealing with depression, even now. When I get a headache or feel pain in my chest, it's all because of my depression (according to my doctor). I've been trying really hard to stay strong, and I've managed to overcome a tough time. It hasn't been easy, but I did it.
I don't really want to talk about this. This pain feels never-ending, and as you mentioned earlier, nothing matters anymore. What's in the past is gone. You have found happiness with your loved ones, and I am genuinely happy for you. Your happiness is my priority.
I take good care of my health by following a strict diet and exercising regularly. When it comes to my mind, I sometimes struggle to control it. It often wanders to the person who once held a special place in my heart, and it causes me to feel depressed.
I wasn't looking for you because you made your choice, and I respect that. I let you go when you said, "Kalau abang sayang sayang, lepaskan sayang" and I set you free forever. I want you to be happy, and you deserve someone who loves you better than I ever did.
"And if a thousand others love you, they will only love you a drop compared to my ocean of love for you." — Mahmoud Darwish
Marina Bay, Luzon
29-10-2023
Ghost
It's 1:21 am, and I've just come back from the office. Ara was right when she warned me not to stay there too late. I got scared by a ghost.
I'm feeling hungry and don't have any food except biscuits and plain water. The last time I ate a proper meal was this morning before I went to work.
Metro Manila
30-10-2023, 1.30 am
Saturday, October 28, 2023
Rindu bertalu-talu
"Kita nak balik"
"Astu?"
"Bini tak bagi balik. Sedih la kita"
"Alolo manjanya"
"Masak sini pedas. Sayur pun letak lada sulah"
"Kerja dah habis balik la sayang. Rugi minyak tanah"
"Alaa hmmm jangan la mandram abang. Kesian abang rindu bertalu-talu"
Panggilan telefon
Manila Bay, Luzon
28-10-2023
Home
"Dah habis?"
"Abang tak tidur?"
"Tak boleh tidur. Dengar tadi Ara membebel"
"Eh. Malu je"
"Seronok dengar Ara bincang. Tak banyak istilah teknikal. Mudah faham"
"Abang ni. Tak cakap dengar"
"Jelas, teratur, lantunan suara bagus. Semua okey"
"Hehe malunya"
"Geneva dah panggil berapa kali tak nak pergi"
"I love staying at home with you"
"Auuuuuuu"
"Nasib jauh"
"Nak pukul kita dengan bantal la tu"
"Ho la"
Panggilan telefon
Marina Bay, Luzon
29-10-2023
Housecall
"I got my first housecall patient last night! Being able to visit patient at home brings a new level of connection and rapport...here to more housecall request soon! "
The act of passionately discussing one's passions can greatly contribute to a person's attractiveness. Passion is an appealing quality that showcases genuine enthusiasm, energy, and a deep connection to something meaningful.
…
If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then will you realize how special you are to me.
(Unknown)
Marina Bay, Luzon
29-10-2023, 3.03 am
Sakit kepala
"Sakit kepala dari malam tadi"
"Dah makan ubat?"
"Dah. Hmm…serabut"
"Kerja ke?"
"Okey"
"Then?"
"I don't know. Sakit sangat kepala. Kalau tak okey, abang nak balik"
Panggilan telefon
Marina Bay, Luzon
28-10-2023, 3.03 pm
Friday, October 27, 2023
Be grateful
Be grateful for the wound that draws you closer to Allah.
Manila Bay, Luzon, Philippines
28-10-2023
Surprise
"Hye baby girl"
"Abang! I got a surprise for you"
"Ara pregnant?"
"Kalau betul, Alhamdulillah hihi"
Panggilan telefon
26-10-2023
Why do I still remember you?
I have decided to stop working and return home to rest. It's already 2:30 am. Why do I still remember you? We don't have any unresolved matters, do we? Please refrain from occupying my thoughts and causing confusion. I have had my fill.
Metro Manila
28-10-2023, 2.43 am
Teringin nak anak
"Abang tak la serius mana pun. Cuma teringat dia nak anak macam Ara cerita tu"
"Abang nak ke tak nak? Cakap betul-betul"
"Entah. Tak pernah terfikir nak kawin dua"
"Kalau niat kerana Allah, tak salah kan?"
"Ada orang ingatkan abang nak anak satu team bola haha"
"Eleh"
"Apaaa"
"Berani ke masuk tempat bersalin?"
"Tu masalahnya haha"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
28-10-2023
Koya
"Hi babe"
"Abangggg"
"Jangan mesej kawan Ara. Abang gurau je"
"Tahu sangat abang tu"
"Mana boleh kawin. Kerja jauh. Seminggu 7 hari. 4 rumah Ara, 3 rumah lain. Sekejab sangat dengan anak. Kesian Ara penat"
"That's why I love you"
"I know haha"
"Koya"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
26-10-2023
Melaram
"Pergi solat Subuh pakai baju Melayu siap sampin. Orang tegur abang handsome haha"
"Melaram sakan eh"
"Dah balik solat Jumaat. Baru sampai kondo. Nak mandi, tukar baju. Hari ni kerja sampai malam"
"Make doh ko?"
"Dah. Salad"
"Situ tak dok hantu ko?"
"Jangan la. Ish"
"Hihihi hati-hati bae"
"Meow!"
"Mandi nu"
"Yeee"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
27-10-2023
Thursday, October 26, 2023
Fajr salah
Alhamdulillah, I was able to attend the Fajr Salah at the mosque. I recited Surah Al-Kahf and performed Fajr sadaqah.
O Allah, I humbly beseech You to bestow Your blessings upon my wife and children.
Masjid Al-Dahab, Manila
27-10-2023, 5.45 am
2.50 am
It's currently 2:33 AM in Manila local time, and I have just left my office. It has been a tiring day, and I haven't had anything to eat since I arrived here from Hanoi.
Hello, my dear. How has your day been? I miss you tremendously.
Metro Manila
27-10-2023, 2.50 am
Wednesday, October 25, 2023
Jual mahal
"Tak mesej. Abang mana ada WhatsApp"
"Abang ni kan"
"Abang kawin, kita pindah"
"Tak nak"
"Habis macam mana?"
"Abang yang nak kawin, tanya kita"
"Ara yang adjust, haa"
"Abang jual mahal, kannnn"
"Alaa tolong la"
"Tak kuasa kita"
"Tolong pun tak nak"
"Nak kawin, mesej sendiri"
"Sampainya hatimu"
"Jangan nyanyi, hujan nanti"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
26-10-2023
Rasa itu
"Aku nak cakap relaks, aku tahu tak boleh relaks tapi cuba relaks"
"……"
"Kau count down janda kau nak nikah ke apa"
"Yeah"
"Aku tahu rasa tu macam mana. Sabar, bro"
"Shit!"
"Dulu janda aku pun bagitahu bila dia nak nikah. Aku pun tak tahu sebab apa"
"I can't get her outta my head"
"I know"
"I remember her every freakin' second. I can't..."
"Sabar, ingat Allah. Kau tak nak tengok dunia, kau tidur sepanjang hari"
"I can't take this. It's... damn it!"
"You know what, she has forgotten my real name. That's how quickly someone forgets you. Take it easy... Ride slowly. You will be fine"
"Really?"
"Takkan aku nak tipu"
"Kau tak rasa apa?"
"Tak tahu nak rasa macam mana. Abaikan je"
"Gila"
"I learned to accept things as they are"
"Hmm"
"Garago. Tengah kerja"
"Thanks for calling"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
25-10-2023
"You always checked up on me when I was feeling down back then. Now it's my turn."
Never forget 3 types of people in your life:
- Who helped you in your difficult times.
- Who left you in your difficult times.
- Who put you in difficult times.
— Unknown
…
"Why are you telling me your wedding date? What exactly is your intention? If you want to hurt me, yes, I was deeply hurt at that time."
Vietnam
Yes, I love Vietnam! Its economy has been growing consistently and is performing much better than Malaysia's. If Malaysia doesn't focus on improving its economy, it risks falling behind Vietnam within the next 10 years. Vietnam has attracted significant investment from foreign investors, who clearly appreciate what the country has to offer. Vietnam also enjoys political stability, with a low cost of living and reasonable minimum wages set for workers. It appears that foreign investors are particularly attracted to Vietnam's favorable economic policies. This country is an energetic and lively place, with stunning landscapes and delectable cuisine. The architecture is awe-inspiring, showcasing a rich colonial heritage influenced by France. Expatariat love staying because the cost of living is low so, It's difficult not to develop a deep affection for this country.
Al Noor Mosque,
Hanoi, Vietnam
25/10/2023
Kahwin dua
"Siapa nama kawan Ara yang Ara adjust tu? Abang bangun pagi terasa nak kawin dua
Macam "Let's begin a new journey" haha"
"Mentang kita cakap pasal kawin, laju dia"
"Open lagi ke hahaha"
"Gelenya sungguh la"
"Orang nak, dia tak nak"
"Doh sent nombor. Mesej oyak suko ko dio"
"Hahaha"
"Bakpo suko?"
"Abang nak mandi. Nak pergi masjid. Lepas ni nak hidupkan sunnah bini dua hahahahahaha"
"Pelik-pelik la dio ni"
"*Senangnya dalam hati, kalau beristri dua. Oh seperti dunia, ana yang punya"
* P.Ramlee, Madu Tiga
Ah sudah
"Can we chill here forever?"
"Ha?"
"Please"
"Tu gambar mana tu?"
"Lot rumah dekat Utiva. Cantik kan?"
"Ah sudah"
"Please"
"Hmm"
"Kita pergi site visit, nak?"
"London nak?"
"Tak nak"
"Spain?"
"Tak nak"
"New York?"
"Tak nak"
"Hong Kong?"
"Rumah mahal, sempit tak nak kita"
"Bulgariaaaa?"
"Abang nak stay sana, abang kawin je lain. Kita nak stay sini"
"Amboi senangnya dia"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
25/10/2023
(Foto: Ejen hartanah)
Tuesday, October 24, 2023
But I love you
He doesn't want you to be real, and to think and to live. He doesn't love you. But I love you. I want you to have your own thoughts and ideas and feelings, even when I hold you in my arms.
— E. M. Forster, A Room With A View
Jun 16, 2017
Rindu rumah
"Abang okey tak?"
"Okey sangat. Jadual penuh tapi otak rasa lapang. Dah terangkat sikit beban"
"Be honest, sayang"
"Betul, okey"
"Nyanyi penuh emosi"
"Lama tak jamming"
"Abang kenapa?"
"La ilaha illallah. Betul la abang okey"
"Pelik je"
"Biar la orang nak layan perasaan. Nak layan bini jauh haha"
"Haip!"
"Araaa"
"Abang dah mandi?"
"Belum"
"Bila nak mandi?"
"Satu lagu, lepas tu mandi. Belum baca Al-Mulk. Dah solat, witir belum"
"Risau Ara"
"Kenapa?"
"Abang tu"
"Kenapa?"
"Pelik. Kerja okey?"
"Okey. Khamis rasa nak balik lepas tu datang balik"
"Kenapa?"
"Rindu Ara, rindu kembar, rindu semua"
"Finish your work and then come home"
"Otak dah ingat rumah"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
25-10-2023
Ibrahim
"Kita ada ke anak sedara nama Ibrahim?"
"Tak ada. Anak siapa tu?"
"Tengah ingat. Anak siapa eh"
"Anak sedara bini muda kot"
"Amboi. Laju"
"Habis anak siapa?"
"Makwe mana dulu drive Volkswagen Beetle? Lupa la"
"Siapa tu?"
"Entah. Tak ingat"
"Keliling dunia makwe kannnnnn"
"Tak. Mana ada"
"Eleh"
"Tak kisah la. Keliru Golf dengan Beetle kot"
"Pasal apa tiba-tiba tanya?"
"*Mengenang kembali, lagu cinta lama… lupa lirik haha"
"Jangan nak kenang-kenang"
"Garang"
"Ho la. Bekeng"
"Ara hehe"
"Tok sey pindoh"
"Mana tahu ni"
"Tahu blako"
"Ah sudah"
"Bakponyo?"
"Ada magik eh"
"Ho la"
"Powerrrr! haha"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
25-10-2023
*Alleycats, Sekuntum Mawar Merah Sebuah Puisi
Time
"Thank you for remembering all the small details..."
Although you may have forgotten my real name and what I do for work, I still retain every single detail about you. Time passes swiftly, causing you to forget everything about me, while it moves slowly for me, allowing me to remember every detail about you. It's perfectly fine for time to be perceived differently by different people.
Hanoi, Vietnam
25-10-2024, 12.42 am
PM
"Abang dah sampai Vietnam. Kepala pening"
"Seronok tak?"
"Ara tak ikut apa yang seronok"
"Alolo dah makan ubat sayang?"
"Dah. Ary la kacau abang. Dah terjaga tak boleh tidur"
"Kenapa tak call Ara?"
"Masa tu profesor kita tengah forum"
"Sejam setengah je"
"Rindu nak masuk mengajar ke hehe?"
"Hihi mengada"
"Kalau tak dah jadi PM sekarang. Abang tempah nama dekat pintu Hara Jelita hahaha"
"Malu la abang ni"
"Jom pindah Hanoi"
"Tak nak"
"Oman?"
"Tak nak"
"Tanzaniaaaa"
"Tok sey"
"Jom la"
"Abang pindah mana sama je, kerja jauh. Duduk India kerja Europe. Duduk Dubai kerja Swiss. Sama je"
"New Zealand?"
"Tak nak"
"Haa KL"
"Mampu ke abang stay KL masalahnya"
"Boleh kot haha"
"Eleh baru dua hari sampai dah gelisah nak balik kannnnn"
"Takkk"
Panggilan telefon
Hanoi, Vietnam
24-10-2023
Monday, October 23, 2023
Former partner
We will be back to our old selves when we are with our former partner.
Mumbai, India
22-10-2023, 2.08 am
Biji
"Aku nak tidur dah"
"Rindu bini ke?"
"Orang ada bini. Kau mana tahu"
"Rindu bini ke rindu biji wakakakaka"
"Bongok la. #@%&#%*#"
"Wakakakakaka"
Benih
"Baba tanya apa sal abang tak beli sate?"
"Dah janji tak pergi Kajang"
"Ara gurau je"
"Memang dah nekad tak nak pergi"
"Kenapa?"
"Tak nak buat benda yang sakitkan hati Ara. Ara tak suka, kan?"
"Kenapa kita asyik gaduh pasal sate? hihi"
"Entah. Nanti abang cari tempat lain yang sedap macam Ara haha"
"Hey!"
"Ara risau abang dekat sini, kan?"
"Ha'a"
"Abang tak pergi sebab abang tak nak Ara rasa Ara nombor dua dalam hati abang"
"Abang…"
"Ara jangan risau. Abang tak cari dia. Abang tahu sakitnya hati di duakan. Abang takkan buat dekat Ara. Abang doa Allah tak uji abang dengan cinta yang lain. Abang sayang Ara. Sayang sangat"
"Ada benda jadi, tapi abang tak cerita. Betul tak?"
"Tak ada apa jadi"
"Eleh"
"Benih kita tanam jadi dah?"
"Benih apa abang?"
"Hahahahahahahaha"
"Abanggggg! Benci la"
"Hahahahaha"
"Abangggg!"
Panggilan telefon
Hartamas, KL
24-10-2023, 1:05 pagi
The grace in letting go
My greatest lesson learnt,
you were mine until you weren’t.
It was you who taught me so,
the grace in letting go.
The time we had was all—
there was not a moment more.
— Lang Leav
Oct 9, 2015
Nak kena gigit
"Tak payah tulis artikel. Kita baring-baring"
"Abangggg"
"Orang buat kerja lain waktu hujan"
"Eeeee! Geram je"
"Geram dekat mana tu? Body katang kita kan hahaha"
"Abangggg"
"Ye la, ye la. Tak kacau dah. Abang diam hehe"
"Tengok tu"
"Ara, Araaaa, sayanggg"
"Abangggggg"
"Okey, okey. Hahahahaha"
"Abanggggg eee geram la"
"*Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you?
Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand
Take my whole life, too
For I can't help falling in love with you"
"Tak mau tulis dah"
"Laa. Abang tak kacau. Sorry, sorry"
"Rindu abang…"
"Rindu Ara"
"Abang mmm jangan pergi Kajang"
"Tak"
"Janji?"
"Janji"
"Kenapa mudah sangat berjanji?"
"Ha?"
"Hihi kita gurau je la"
"Tak nak janji, tanya. Dah janji, tak puas hati pulak. Ish!"
"Jange maroh"
"Nak kena gigit eh"
"Nakkkkkk"
"Haha jangan goda. Kang petang ni abang balik sana"
Panggilan telefon
23-10-2023
*Can't Help Falling in Love song by Elvis Presley
Wound
There is always a wound that cannot be healed, no matter what you do.
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
23-10-2023
Sunday, October 22, 2023
Kajang
"Abang dah sampai KL"
"Abang pergi Kajang, kannnn"
"Tak. Nak buat apa"
"Sate Kajang"
"Dah makan hari tu"
"Cakoi"
"Tak rasa nak makan"
"Eleh"
"Betul la. Tak pergi"
"Okay, good boy hihi"
"Sini hujan lebat"
"Alaa…rindu Hartamas"
"Ingat rindu abang hahaha"
.
"Bonda masak asam pedas. Sedappp"
"Alaaaaaa"
"Jealous tak haha"
"Bondaaa. Tengok Abang An"
"Hahahaha"
.
"Abang nak tidur"
"Betul ke tidur? Tak pergi Kajang?"
"Karang haa"
"Kita tanya je"
"Jangan off call"
"Hihi okey"
"……"
"Abang, abang"
"Araaaaa. Abang nak tidur"
"Hihi tapaya tidur"
"Esok abang ada mesyuarat penting"
"Night abang"
"Ha"
"Night la"
"Ye"
"Night cepat"
"Ha night"
"Love you"
"Ha"
"Love laa"
"Araaaa"
"Hihi"
Panggilan telefon
Hartamas, KL
23-10-2023, 3.40 pagi
Saturday, October 21, 2023
Lynas
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia (AP) — Australian miner Lynas Rare Earths said Friday that it will temporarily shut down most of its operations in Malaysia for upgrading as it deals with a legal battle with the Malaysian government over its operating license.
Lynas said in a report to investors that a Malaysian court is set to hear in November its application for a stay to allow it keep operating while other administrative and legal appeals are being heard. It didn’t give an exact date.
The Lynas refinery in Malaysia, its first outside China producing minerals that are crucial to high-tech manufacturing, has been operating in central Pahang state since 2012. But it has been locked in a battle over concerns about radiation from waste accumulating at its plant.
Earlier this year, the government approved the renewal of Lynas’ license for three years until March 2026. But it said Lynas must move its cracking and leaching processes — which produce the radioactive waste from Australian ore — out of Malaysia. It also is not allowed to import raw material with radioactive elements into the country.
Lynas has produced approximately more than a million metric tons of radioactive waste since 2012.
Lynas insists its operations are safe and has sought to remove the conditions that it said marked a “significant variation” from the conditions under which it made the initial decision to invest in Malaysia. It has taken its dispute with the government to the Malaysian court and says it is prepared for any outcome.
Most operations at the Malaysian refinery will shut down for the next two months while Lynas prepares to ramp up its downstream operations, the company said.
It said the upgrade is essential if its license is updated to allow the company to continue to import and process raw materials from Jan. 1. Lynas said it plans to also undertake further maintenance work on the cracking and leaching facility, if operation are allowed to resume as normal.
If the license is not extended, Lynas said the additional downstream capacity can be used for a new facility in Kalgoorlie, Australia. Demand for heavy rare earths remain high, largely driven by the global development of electric vehicles.
“Lynas continues to manage operations to optimize outcomes within various scenarios. Key variables include include the operating license conditions in Malaysia and the start-up and commissioning process in Kalgoorlie,” it said.
Rare earths are 17 minerals used to make products such as electric or hybrid vehicles, weapons, flat-screen TVs, mobile phones, mercury-vapor lights and camera lenses. China has about a third of the world’s rare earth reserves but a near monopoly on supplies. Lynas has said its refinery could meet nearly a third of world demand for rare earths, excluding China.
Environmental groups have long campaigned against Lynas’ operations and demanded that the company export its radioactive waste. They contend that the radioactive elements, which include thorium and uranium among others, are not in their natural forms but have been made more dangerous through mechanical and chemical processes.
The only other rare earth refinery in Malaysia — operated by Japan’s Mitsubishi Group in northern Perak state — closed in 1992 following protests and claims that it caused birth defects and leukemia among residents. It is one of Asia’s largest radioactive waste cleanup sites.
Surprise pizza delivery
I ordered 50 boxes of pizza from the best pizza restaurant in Mumbai, along with masala tea, and sent them to my staff. I personally delivered the pizzas, starting from the security guard and janitor, all the way up to the top management, and nobody noticed my presence. I saw their happy faces when they read a sticker on the box that read, "This pizza was sent as an appreciation for your hard work. You will receive a 2-month bonus and 2 days off. Take a rest and enjoy with your loved ones."
I don't usually meet and greet the people who work for me. Most of them don't even know me. But they don't seem to mind as long as I pay them fairly for their hard work.
Mumbai, India
21-10-2023
She Touches My Soul
She touches my soul
with light ~ colors so bright
she caresses me
comforts me
heals me
restores my soul
this much i know
raining down from
heaven above
with endless
warmth
and love
"She Touches My Soul" by Michael Traveler
Oct 9, 2015
Where We Belong
This is our time
this is our place
it's not a dream
this love is real
i can feel it in
my heart can feel
it in my soul
this is where
we both belong.
"Where We Belong" by Michael Traveler
Sep 26, 2015
Kindness
Forget someone's mistakes but always remember the good things they have done because you, too, want to be remembered for your kindness.
21.08.2017
9.54 pm
A man has two significant mirrors in his life: One is his work, the other is his wife.
Feb 8, 2020
Ary
"Kau call Pet je, setan?"
"Siapa entah hantar mesej cakap dia nak bunuh diri. Aku call la tanda ambil berat"
"Aku ni kau tak nak ambil berat?"
"Suruh bini je la ambil berat haha"
"Nak cerai"
"Bini muda pun nak cerai? Apa pulak masalah kali ni?"
"She's not my cup of tea as a partner"
"Ye la tu. Kawin pandai"
"Clingy. Rimas der"
"Even if you were to get the best version of her, she still wouldn't be enough for you"
"Fuck youuu"
"Benda boleh bincang, kan? Slow talk. Tak suka cakap la. Budak lagi tu. Kesian dia. Kalau tak nak komitmen, jangan kawin"
"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck youuu"
.
"Aku dekat Mumbai. Datang la"
"Jauh"
"Kau mana?"
"Di lubuk hati kau wakakakakaka"
"Harey"
.
"Aku dengar janda kau kerja 80 jam. Asal ek?"
"Dia memang suka kerja. Kalau boleh nak berumah tangga dekat hospital"
"Ek"
"Ye"
"Ek ek"
"Bodoh la Ary ni. Nak tersembur air aku minum"
Panggilan telefon
21-10-2023
Friday, October 20, 2023
Thursday, October 19, 2023
The burden of remembering you
I haven't discussed the specific incident that prompted my immediate return home. Ara has been trying to encourage me to talk about it, but I have chosen to remain silent. I believe the best course of action for me now is to forgive, forget, and move on. I have decided to stop exerting so much energy trying to analyze what happened, as it does not provide me with any benefits. My mind is now calm, free from racing thoughts, and I am prepared to resume my work.
I still have occasional recollections of her, although they are less frequent than before. However, I have actively chosen to divert my attention by focusing on other activities. Eventually, I believe my mind will be liberated from the burden of remembering her.
Los Angeles International Airport, California
18-10-2023
Jaga diri abang besar
"Jangan la sampai nak bunuh diri. Aku tahu aku pernah rasa tapi jangan buat"
"Dia nak kawin…"
"Bila?"
"1.11"
"Biarlah dia kawin. Kalau dia bahagia tanpa kita, kita kena terima hakikat walaupun pedih. Aku dah pernah rasa, memang sakit. Orang boleh sembang, boleh gelak. Tak pernah rasa tak tahu"
"It hurts, man."
"Yeah. It cuts deep, but you need to rise up. Work hard, hit the gym, pray a lot, find a new hobby. Sedih tak apa tapi jangan hanyut. Jangan jadi macam aku dulu. Sikit lagi nak jahanam hidup"
"Hidup aku dah jahanam"
"Hari ni ada sejuta, esok lebur semua. Hari ni orang sembang sayang kau, esok dia jatuh cinta. Celaka betul, tapi tu la hidup. Semua benda macam tu. Nothing is permanent; everything is temporary"
"I'm fucked up"
"Semua akan okey. Sabar. Redha. Ni ujian"
"Berat gila babi"
"Ujian berat untuk orang yang hebat. You are not the first, you won't be the last. Feel what you need to feel and let it go"
"Kenapa Tuhan uji aku macam ni?"
"Kita tak tahu apa yang Allah rancang untuk kita. He doesn't burden us with something we cannot bear. There must be a hikmah. Percayalah"
"Hmmm"
"Move to a new city. Start a new life. What's done is done. Dah tak boleh buat apa. Kau melutut merayu tak guna. Orang dah tak nak"
"Aku rasa lega dengar apa kau cakap"
"Aku nak tanya, tapi jangan kecik hati"
"Benda?"
"Kau ambil barang?"
"Siapa cakap?"
"Ada ke tak?"
"Nope"
"Come back stronger, bro. Merangkak janda kau datang balik. Pergi gym buat badan lawa-lawa, earn more money, buy a Lamborghini, go on vacations here and there, dress well. Esok lusa hidup dia tak best, pandai la dia cari kau"
"Janda kau tak datang balik pun haha"
"Hidup aku tak cukup best haha"
"How's she going?"
"Entah. Kata dah berhenti kerja. Sekarang part time dekat klinik. Kerja 80 jam seminggu.
"80 jam? Gila babi"
"Kesian pun ada. Macam mana laki dia boleh bagi bini kerja lama macam tu. Balik nak kemas rumah, masak, jaga anak. Dengar pun letih"
"Laki dia kerja apa?"
"Entah. Business katanya"
"Business apa?"
"Mana la aku tahu. Tak tanya. Tak minat nak tahu"
"Fuh! 80 jam. Tabik gua"
"Aku tengok Ara terkejar jaga anak, masak pun dah tak sampai hati. Ini kan kerja lama macam tu. WFH dah sah orang kata tak kerja makan duit bini. Sedih jugak la bila dia bagitahu jual sandwich, cari kerja dekat Telegram"
"Kenapa dia berhenti?"
"Jaga anak"
"Asal tak hantar taska?"
"Mana la aku tahu. Aku pun pelik jugak. Masa dengan aku kemain beria gaduh tak nak berhenti kerja. Sekarang boleh je. Tu orang kata, kita hanya akan berkorban untuk orang yang kita paling sayang. Bukan untuk semua orang"
"100% correct"
"Jiwa kena kental. Hadap semua. Kau kejar perempuan, kau hilang duit. Kau kejar duit, kau tak hilang apa-apa. Struggle macam mana pun, jangan sesekali cakap kau tak boleh move on. Never. Kau cakap jugak, orang pandang kau macam maroon je la. Ingat tu"
"Thanks bro!"
"Ara call, nanti aku call balik"
"Sayang bini woooo"
"Siapa tak sayang bini hahaha"
"Kirim salam Ara"
"Jaga diri abang besar"
"Alright"
"Tak ada perempuan, kita tak mati. Dia bukan oksigen hahaha"
"Hanat hahaha"
"Baca Quran selalu. Hidup ni panjang lagi. Jangan give up. Ada apa-apa roger. Aku ada untukmu hahahahaha"
"Geli babi"
"Hahahaha"
Panggilan telefon
Mumbai, India
20-10-2023
Tuesday, October 17, 2023
Wonderful things
"Hati-hati pegang. Banyak getah"
"Ada getah ke?"
"Ye la. Bukan Ara je yang bergetah hahahahahaha"
"Mengada tau"
…
"Besarnya ubi"
"Tak habis makan satu ni"
"Seronok menanam. Tanah subur"
"Memang la subur dah rajin membajak"
"Bila abang bajak? Tak tahu pun"
"Hahahahahahahaha"
"Eee geram kita!" *pap pap pap*
_
"Abang! Hujan!"
"Berapa malam dah kena hujan kan hahahahaha"
"Eeee! Abanggggg" *pap pap pap"
_
The wonderful things in life are the things you do, not the things you have.
— Reinhold Messner
Berkepit
"Kejab je"
"Ye la abang kena kerja"
"Kata nak pencen"
"Berkepit dengan Ara je eh"
"Ha'a"
"Habis kerja abang balik cepat, okey?"
"Okey"
"Dah, tak nak nangis"
"Rindu dah"
"I miss you too"
"I miss you more"
Monday, October 16, 2023
Comel
"Kenapa Ara letak semua warna merah?"
"In case ada lagi perempuan claim dia tidur dengan abang, Ara just tanya seluar dalam abang warna apa masa dia buka hihihi"
"Ada ke macam tu"
"Senang nak trace kalau dia tipu"
"Abang beli lain, mana Ara tahu. Haa"
"Abang je dalam dunia ni tak suka pakai boxer kannnnnn"
"Entah haha"
"The expert advises wearing boxers. They provide more freedom, comfort, health benefits, and can improve fertility"
"Dulu dah ada orang nasihat suruh tukar"
"Kenapa tak ikut?"
"Perangai haha"
"Tahu pun. Ara beli boxers, boxer briefs and trunks. Tak pernah abang pakai and bagi feedback or say thanks"
"Ye la nanti abang pakai"
"Muat lagi ke masalahnya"
"Mana tahu. Kena cuba dulu"
"Anyway, you look so stunning in red. Seksi you hihi"
"Ehh hahaha"
"Hihi usik sikit merah muka. Pakai kuning la. Comel hihihi"
"Apa yang comel?"
"Seluar la. Abang ni"
"Ingat apa hahahahaha"
*pap pap pap*
I can’t be without you
"Sejuk"
"Ye la. Dah hujan sepanjang hari. Pakai sweater"
"Tak nak"
"Pakai la"
"Tak nak"
"Nah. Pakai abang punya"
"Tak nak"
"Sini, duduk atas riba abang"
"Abang…"
"Hmm"
"Tengok la kita. Jangan baca buku"
"Kenapa ni?"
"Abang tu"
"Kenapa?"
"Abang la"
"Ara nak kopi? Teh ke?"
"Tak nak"
"Coklat panas?"
"Tak nakkk"
"Okey, okey. Jangan marah"
"Mmm…"
"Rindu ke?"
"Rindu…"
"Banyak mana?"
"Banyak-banyak"
"Banyak mana tu?"
"Banyak laaa. Abanggg"
"Ye la, ye la. Abang tanya je"
"Abang…"
"Kenapa? Nak ajak tidur dah?"
"Ha'a"
"Jom mandi"
"Hehe dukung"
and the night falls to an end...
_
I can be without anyone
but not without you.
You twist my heart, dwell in my mind
and fill my eyes, you are my joy.
I can’t be without you.
You are my sleep, my rest,
the water I drink.
You are my clarity, my dignity, my world.
(Rumi)
Sunday, October 15, 2023
Mihun kari
"Abang nak makan apa?"
"Ara nak masak apa?
"Kuetiau kungfu nak?"
"Tak nak. Lain? Mihun kari ke?"
"Kenapa tak nak?"
"Boring asyik makan kungfu je. Tukar pulak. Soto rasa macam mana?"
"Nak cuba?"
"Boleh jugak. Tak payah masak kungfu dah lepas ni. Abang nak cuba benda lain. Ara kan suka masak macam-macam"
"Laksam sedap"
"Masaklah apa pun. Sejak kawin, apa je yang Ara tak suruh abang makan"
"Kenapa abang ubah selera?"
"Tekak nak rasa benda lain"
"Tiba-tiba?"
"Haah"
Mere memento
"Why did you get rid of it?"
"Tak guna dah. Nak beli lain"
"Cantik je Ara tengok"
"Mana ada sampah kita kutip balik. Once trash, always trash"
"Sayang la. Lama abang simpan. Banyak kenangan"
"Tak semua kenangan perlu di simpan. Ada baiknya kita hapuskan untuk kebaikan diri sendiri"
_
Whenever I think of you, I promised to put $1 into a savings jar. Once the jar is full, I will count the money and use it to help random strangers who are in need. I'm doing this as a gift because it's the only meaningful thing I can do for you besides praying and giving to charity. It may not mean much to you, but it brings me a little happiness.
But now, I've decided to stop doing it, so the jar is just a memory.
Res pendet
"If you remember someone, is it because they remembered you first?"
"Not exactly. If they remember us, it has nothing to do with us"
"It is true that remembering someone doesn't necessarily mean you miss them?"
"Not really. It depends on the situation, but if you had a past relationship with them, then maybe yes"
Unforgettable night
The night is peaceful and alluring. It's raining heavily outside, creating a romantic atmosphere as we enjoy our private space. We embrace each other warmly, discovering the depths of our souls in a timeless dance. The bed beneath us silently holds the memory of our profound connection, reminding us of an unforgettable night of intimacy.
A little longer
"Abang dengar apa?"
"Subuh tadi"
"Nak dengar"
"Sayang, bangun"
"5 minit"
"Abang, bangun sayang"
"Shhh... let me hug you for a little longer."
"Sure"
"Abangggg kenapa rekoddd"
"Dah off"
"Kalau off mesti tak ada"
"Mana abang tahu"
"Alaaaaaa"
"Ni je ada. Part lain tak ada"
"Betul?"
"Ye. Kalau ada apa salahnya haha"
"Abanggg"
"Tak ada. Check la tengok"
_
Every lover
chooses a beloved
but I never looked at
anyone but you.
— Rumi
Bintang popular
"Dia orang tanya abang, bila nak tanam padi. Beras dah mahal hihi"
"Eh haha"
"Kita tulis sikit pasal abang je ramai la datang komen"
"Biasa la bintang popular haha"
Heaven
"Are you happy with our current life?"
"Yes, I am. Why would I not like it? I feel like I'm living in heaven"
Saturday, October 14, 2023
I miss you more
"Ara yang jelita, masak apa banyak sangat"
"Masak biasa je"
"Nampak sedap, bau sedap. Ehem Ara pun sedap haha"
"Aip!"
"Nasi minyak, ayam percik, tom yam, som tam, kerabu, tiram panggang dengan cendawan, coco milk shake. Huish puding caramel pun ada. Betik mana? Ke dah habis semua jadi som tam?"
"Takkk"
"Manis tak betik tu?"
"Manis macam abang. Tegap pun macam abang hihi"
"Semua macam abang hmm"
"Tak. Daun dia macam daun la hihi"
"Macam mana?"
"Abang mmm belakang sikit. Kita nak jalan"
"Nak pergi mana?"
"Err ambil tisu. Lap peluh"
"Mana peluh?"
"Hihi abang"
"Rindu…"
"I miss you too…"
"I miss you more…"
_
When I am sad, your love comes to me with a thousand smiles.
— Unknown
Jerk
Daddy: Amboi, penawar hanya dari wajah kekasih. Kemain lagi
Kakak: It's just a song, daddy.
Daddy: But you're smiling all the time while you're singing
Kakak: Does that mean anything?
Daddy: I don't know. You tell me
Kakak: I'm single
Daddy: Good. Kalau tak, daddy patahkan pinggang budak laki tu
Umar: HAHAHAHA
Kakak: You jerk!
To forget each other
We are both stuck in a phase where we want to forget each other, but our minds refuse.
San Jose, Costa Rica
14.10.2023, 11.01 am
A rainy day
It's heavy rain in Costa Rica. I had planned to swim along with my kids, but it lasted only for 40 minutes until I heard a storm.
A rainy day at home feels so peaceful when you're around your loved ones.
"A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others."— L. Frank Baum
Sign of maturity.
Knowing how to appreciate people's feelings is a sign of maturity.
Metro Manila, The Philippines
11/10/2023
Stay safe, Min
May Allah protect Yasmin wherever she may be, as Mexico faces the impact of Hurricane Lidia and widespread flooding. The situation is quite severe.
Stay safe, Min.
Work can wait
"Tak cakap nak balik"
"Bini lawa. Tak tahan duduk jauh lama-lama haha"
"Kenapa mata tu?"
"Tak tidur dalam flight. Settle kerja dulu. Balik rumah ada kerja lain ngee"
“Berapa hari abang tak tidur?"
"Tidur, tapi tak lena"
"Betul ke?"
"Ye"
"Lebam lain je"
"Jangan la nak forensik abang pulak"
"Hihi tak. Rindu kita keee?"
"Yee"
"Pelik jawapan"
"Rindu pun pelik"
"Abang menangis eh?"
"Mana ada"
"Ye ke?"
"Ye la. Orang balik jauh dia soal siasat"
"Tanya je. Abang kan tak pernah tinggal kerja"
"Work can wait"
"Abang nak makan apa? Ara nak masak"
"Tak kisah. Abang nak berenang kejab. Nanti Ara tolong reneh akar kayu"
"Abang kenapa? Lain je Ara tengok"
"Letih kot. Kerja banyak. Ara tolong urut abang boleh? Lepas mandi"
"Sure"
"Abang nak bawa kembar mandi kolam. Letak tepi telur 15 biji"
"Nak didihkan tak?"
"Makan mentah"
"Bakpo tok make sepapey teruh"
"Mengata abang"
"Dok. Pelik jah bakpo tok make habih sepapey"
"Hehehehe comel hahahahaha"
"Comel gapo?"
"Comel la"
"Gapo dio?"
"I really miss you, babe. You make my day.. Bebel lagi. Nak dengar hehe"
"Abe bakpo pelik?"
"Hehehehehe hai senangnya dalam hati"
"Pelik la koho. Gi mandi nu"
Friday, October 13, 2023
Never
Reciting Surah Ar-Rahman and Surah Ad-Dhuha makes me feel calm and relieved. After performing an 11-rakah Tahajjud prayer, I start crying uncontrollably to the point where I get a headache. Feeling really down, I decide to fly back home without much thought. I quickly pack my bags and head to the airport.
It's okay if you don't feel the same way as I do. I understand that I don't mean anything to you, and I've never had the thought of wanting you back. Never. I have a good life and I'm content with that. If you remember me, it's not my fault. I want to forget about you completely. I really do.
Why should I remember someone who never remembers me?
Manila
13 Oct 2023
Thursday, October 12, 2023
Damn it!
When you are suffering alone, they are enjoying someone else's company.
Why did you even contact me? Damn it!
Voila
I received some exciting news today. Voila! There's a massive project coming up next year. Surprisingly, I didn't participate in bidding for the contract, nor was I aware of this major project. It was actually recommended to me by one of my satisfied clients. Having a good network opens up many opportunities for you. When you work hard with passion, others will acknowledge your excellent work. Congratulations to everyone! May Allah grant us smooth progress in completing this project. As I've said before, Allah will provide us with something even better as a replacement.
Metro Manila, The Philippines
11-10-2023
Rebus hidup-hidup
"Semalam angin kencang"
"Pokok abang macam mana?"
"Steady macam abang hihi"
"Tak patah?"
"Tak. Semua selamat. Abang kan sayang pokok tu"
"Ara dah check semua?"
"Dah"
"Ha lega"
"Masa hujan lebat Ara keluar. Risau patah"
"Laa. Demam nanti"
"Ara tak nak pokok tu rosak. Penat abang jaga"
"Hmm...abang tanam untuk Ara. Semua tu bunga Ara"
"Ara tanya, abang tak mengaku"
"Biasalah abang"
"Abang kenapa?"
"Tak ada apa. Sorry kalau abang kurang puji Ara. Abang hmm"
"Abang tahu tak? Semua perempuan jealous tau kalau suami tanam bunga untuk isteri siap ada buaian"
"Tak sabar nak balik"
"Rindu kita kan"
"Tak. Rindu nak tengok itik berenang haha"
"Nak je kita rebus itik awak masak halia"
"Hey! Jangan"
"Tahu takut"
"Ada ke nak rebus itik orang"
"Siapa rampas kasih sayang laki kita, kita rebus hidup-hidup"
"Amboi. Ganas"
Panggilan telefon
Singapura
Kehilangan
Kehilangan itu kata orang nanti dengan berjalannya waktu akan sembuh. Itu bagi orang yang tidak merasa kehilangan. Sebenarnya, sembuh itu tidak pernah ada bagi orang yang kehilangan tapi Allah akan menganti dengan sesuatu yang lain.
(Ustaz Abdul Somad)
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Sekadar catatan lama…
Tidak ada yang bisa mengambilnya…
"Jika engkau mati-matian ingin melupakan seseorang yang engkau cintai kerana engkau merasa dia bukanlah milikmu dan engkau merasa dia tidak pantas untukmu, ingatlah cinta yang telah di letakkan di dalam hatimu tidak ada yang bisa mengambilnya kecuali Allah, kerana yang meletakkannya adalah Allah. Jika seseorang terus berada di dalam hatimu, maka teruslah berdoa dengan doa yang baik untuknya, kerana Allah menanam dia di dalam hatimu bukan tanpa alasan. Ini bukan tentang melupakan, tetapi ini tentang bagaimana kita bisa bersikap lebih bijak dalam menyikapi cinta tersebut. Biarkan cintamu selalu bersemi untuknya. Asalkan cintamu untuknya tidak melebihi cintamu kepada Allah dan pastikan cintamu untuknya harus di dasari kerana Allah."
(Kredit: Penulis asal)
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Sekadar catatan lama yang tidak lagi bermakna…
12.09 am
I got back to my hotel room at around 2:00 pm. Then I took a nap for one and a half hours. When I woke up, I did some light exercise for 45 minutes. After that, I cleaned myself up and got ready to go to the mosque for prayer and to break my fast.
I have a lot of work to do, so I'll need to stay here longer than I originally planned. I already miss my wife and kids.
I am starting to hate you
The deeper the love,
the deeper the hate.
.
I couldn't lie. I am starting to hate you. I am sad for myself"
Merindu dari jauh
"Tadi call tak angkat"
"Workout baby"
"Badan dah lawa. Nak lawa mana lagi haha"
"Ehh dia workout kita tak sibuk"
"Kita angkat simen hari ni. Sekali angkat 2 bundle naik turun tangga sejam"
"Tak berat ke?"
"Tak. Abang kena stay sini lama lagi. Baju mesti dah bertimbun ke Ara dah basuh?"
"Setiap hari kita cuci tau"
"Good girl"
"Berkulat baju kalau tunggu abang"
"Semua barang cukup? Abang kena audit akaun. Nak kena buat inspection dekat site ni. Sepatutnya guna besi tebal, beli yang nipis. Simen guna paling murah. Pergi beli pasir lombong padahal kena guna pasir sungai. Duit diesel pun sebat"
"Risau runtuh"
"Tu la. Nak check akaun lepas tu nak hantar audit. Nak tunggu result inspection ambil masa. Kena betulkan banyak benda. Sia-sia duit kena keluar"
"Kesian abang"
"Nyawa orang. Tak buat tak boleh tidur malam nanti"
"Lama kena tinggal"
"Merindu dari jauh"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
Mempersonakan
"Abang bangun pagi terus teringat". Mempersonakan"
"Nasib ngat!"
"Hari tu puji tak cukup. Sorry la, terlupa"
"Jangan lupa dah tau"
"Tak haha"
"I really like how you say it"
"Nak abang nyanyi satu lagu?"
"Mesti la nak"
"Suara abang tak sesedap suara Ara tapi bolehlah nak beli jiwa isteri tercinta hahaha"
"Mengada"
Panggilan telefon
Manila, Filipina
Heartless
"You're overspending"
"Ara beli je abang dah bagi link"
"Lebih baik abang derma tabung Palestin"
"Nanti la"
"Kak Zara reached out to me. She needs some money"
"Jangan bagi sesen pun. Dulu orang nak tolong, sombong. Dia ingat duit laki dia banyak sangat"
"Tak baik la abang. Kesian dia"
"Biar dia. Nak kesian apa, Poci merempat pun abang tak ambil tahu"
"Why do you seem cold-hearted?"
"Ara beli je. Abang nak benda tu"
"I feel you, but they're fam. Everyone messes up, including us. You've got a big heart. Show them some love and lend a hand. They need your help. Allah blesses us abundantly, and we have the means to support them"
"Tak nak ah"
"Anything juicy goin' down that's flyin' under my radar?"
"Tak"
Panggilan telefon
Metro Manila, Filipina
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