I still remember these words you said to me many, many years ago: 'Tak suka Ryanair. Gegar teruk.' You lamented about Ryanair. I think that was the first time you used Ryanair. I can't remember your destination—maybe Dublin?
I've just set foot in Wales. Yesterday, or maybe the other day, I listened to the song you shared with me a long time ago—High by Lighthouse Family. I still remember that song. It brings back sweet memories that I don't want to forget. I don't want to forget you.
Time is fleeting, and once it passes, it cannot be reclaimed. In Japanese, they say, 今日は二度と戻ってこない (kyō to iu hi wa nidoto modotte konai) — it means 'today will never come again.' The best "today" was when you were with me. A moment frozen in time.
I guess I need to learn to move on once again. I won’t hope for another phone call, but I still find myself hoping for one. I need to let you live as you are, just like before we started contacting each other again. But I guess moving on from you isn’t what I really want.
The posterity—a boy, isn’t it?
Cardiff, Wales
Dec 9, 2024