It's impossible for you to fully grasp the depth of my experience and heartbreak since you haven't personally felt what I have. You will never truly understand. Please refrain from attempting to analyze "my syndrome" as I am not your patient. I also desire freedom from your presence.
I am sharing this with you not because I want to revive anything or for any other purpose. I am well aware of the position I hold in your heart, and there's no need for you to reiterate it. I understand that I am perceived as insignificant in your eyes. I didn't anticipate you to comprehend.
I have been diligently undergoing psychiatric treatment and receiving medical care. Do you think I take pleasure in reminiscing about you? No, I don't enjoy it either.
Shanghai, China
06102023