Alhamdulillah, I am grateful for the good health that Allah has blessed me with. I am thankful for every provision and sustenance that Allah has provided me. I am grateful for the gift of a righteous and pious wife that Allah has bestowed upon me. I am thankful for the children that Allah has blessed me with. I am grateful for the experience of a broken heart, as I trust that Allah has a perfect plan for me. Alhamdulillah, over the past three days, I have noticed that my memories of her have faded.
I want to stop praying for her. I don't want to do any acts of saqadah wakaf, or qurban for her anymore. The love I once had for her is gone. I don't think she deserves to be remembered or receive any good deeds. It hurts me a lot to feel like a beggar in her eyes. It has broken my heart, and this pain is even worse than what I've experienced before.
Masjid Al-Dahab, Manila
12102023, 5.01 am