I woke up from a dream again. You were on vacation in a village, and I was staying at a resort nearby. A little girl came to me and hugged me. She looked like Marissa, so I went to the car park to look for your car, but I didn’t see it. Just days before, I dreamt about Pinky. In the dream, I opened my eyes and she was right in front of me. I jumped back to reality, but I still smiled. Lately, my chest hurts and my head aches on and off. My wife says I need rest, but I know it’s not sleep I need. It’s something deeper – it’s you. I keep myself busy with work so I don’t think about you. I count the days to your birthday but stay silent, afraid to cross lines that should not be crossed again.
May 2, 2025