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10 Julai 2021, 7.51 malam

Rusa masak kicap

"Sayang masak apa?"

"Rusa masak kicap"

"Esok pergi fencing nak?"

"Nak!"

"Lusa kita pergi shooting range. Lama tak menembak"

"Eleh"

"Apa?"

"Tak ada apa"

"Ara fikir apa?"

"Abang fikir apa?"

"Eh abang pulak"

"Haa haa abang fikir apa"

"Pandai. Dia cetus spekulasi, dia tuduh kita"

"Takkk"

Nak manja

"Abang..."

"Hmm..."

"Bangun la"

"Kenapa? Baby menangis ke?"

"Tak"

"Habis tu?"

"Kita nak manja"

.

"Abanggggg"

"Ye"

"Bangun la"

"Ngantuk"

"Kita nak manjaaaaaa"

"Esok la"

"Tak nak"

"Tidur"

"Abang bangun la"

"Abang nak tidur. Banyak hari dah tak tidur"

"Mengadap kerja oleh. Mengadap kita tak oleh"

"Yang Ara tak tidur ni kenapa?"

"Tak oleh tidur"

"Kenapa?"

"Tak oleh laaaa"

"Habis nak apa?"

"Rimau tak lapar ke?"

"Tak"

"Rimau makan rusa lain erk?"

"Mana ada"

"Bistu?"

"Apa masalah rusa sebenarnya?"

"Rimau tengok rusa, memang borak je eh tak payah terkam"

"Borak pun best apa. Suai kenal"

"Nak tidurlah. Night"

"Pulak"

.

"Bangun la. Rimau lapar"

"Kita ngantuk"

"Tapi rimau mana boleh tahan lapar"

"Bukan masalah kita"

.

"Kenapa marah-marah?"

"Balik outstation cari anak dulu tak cari kita pun"

"Punca"

"Tak puji pun kita cantik"

"Lupa. Tadi kan baby nangis"

"Kita pun perlukan perhatian"

"Hehehe patut monyok je. Lawa Ara hari ni. Cantik baju purple tu"

"Eee abang ni. Bukan purple, violet"

"Purple kan"

"Violet"

"Okey, okey violet. Warna lembut, cantik bila Ara pakai. Nampak umph. Sesuai sangat"

"Hihihi thanks. Jom tidur"

"Kata suruh terkam?"

"Takkkkkk"

"Penat abang bangun"

"Tak ikhlas ke puji kita?"

"Ikhlassss"

"Hihihi risau abang tak perasan kita pakai apa"

"Mesti kena perasan"

"Abang tidur eh. Sian abang penat"

"Tadi kata nak manja"

"Dah dapat"

"Dapat apa?"

"Pujian la. Abang ni"

"Tadi goda ni suruh tidur"

"Eh siapa goda. Kita nak dengar abang puji kita je hihihi"

The season of trials

"There are times in life where we have awakenings. A series of horrible things happen that make us question everything and re-prioritize life. It puts us in such an other-worldly mode, that we end up doing such amounts of dua and dhikr that we never before thought possible.

Imam al-Haddad talks about this. He calls this al-baa'ith (that which sends, since the tests send us up to higher levels of detachment from dunya and awareness of Allah). He says that when Allah wishes to improve a believer, they are sent a season of tests. Test after test. Trial after trial. Tribulation after tribulation. Whatever could go wrong, does go wrong, and you're just amazed at how this perfect storm has suddenly consumed you from every angle. You then dig deeper and deeper from within and without knowing it, begin transforming. You begin leaving off old pleasures and past-times simply because they have become distasteful, or you're just not in the mood.

When this happens, Imam al-Haddad continues, the person should not make the mistake of thinking that life will always be like this and that they must keep up that regimen of worship and dhikr forever. Rather, when the desired effect of that season of trials has become complete, then the hardships will go away one by one, and ease and prosperity will return. When that happens, Imam al-Haddad tells us, the person can just keep up half of what they were doing before, while remembering the lessons learned and reminding themselves of how they were able to detach.

Most likely, everyone has experienced this cycle. (Sometimes things are so good for so long that you get this gnawing voice in the back of your head telling you you're due. It's like your car being due for a car wash.) But where have you seen this concept so beautifully and accurately explained like this? And most of all, the Imam gives us practical guidance, so that we know what to do during and after such seasons of trials. This is the value of the science of tasawwuf when it is taught by an experienced scholar. The book is in Arabic and entitled Adaab Suluk al-Murid.

May Allah let us all understand and benefit from these seasons and trials, and never forget the lessons we learned. Ameen."

[Dr. Shadee Elmasry]

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"O Allah, I surrender myself to you because I believe that you are the best planner. I will remain calm and pray hard while waiting for good news."

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You will always have problems. Learn to enjoy life while solving them. (Unknown)

Prague, Czech Republic

23.05.2023, 9:58 malam

Penulis

"Semua penulis akan mati, hanya karyanya yang akan terus abadi. Maka tulislah sesuatu yang dapat membahagiakan dirimu di akhirat"

[Saidina Ali bin Abi Talib]

Qadar

Sometimes you meet someone, and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you're in love or you're partners in cr!me. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don't know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind qadar, but it definitely makes me believe in something about Qadar.

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Islam, Arabs and Intelligent World of the Jinn

by Amira El-Zein

Book Summary:

“According to the Qur’an, God created two parallel species, man and the jinn, the former from clay and the latter from fire. Beliefs regarding the jinn are deeply integrated into Muslim culture and religion, and have a constant presence in legends, myths, poetry, and literature. In Islam, Arabs, and the Intelligent World of the Jinn, Amira El-Zein explores the integral role these mythological figures play, revealing that the concept of jinn is fundamental to understanding Muslim culture and tradition. Examining closely a wide range of sources, from the fields of law, theology, and folklore, El-Zein clearly places the status of the jinn in the metaphysical and cosmological economy of Islam.

The author also illuminates the Islamic concept of the jinn by comparing it to other similar concepts in different religions and mythologies. She probes the complex relationships between the jinn and humans, as well as the jinn and animals, providing critical insights into the function of the jinn in the process of poetic and cultural creation. The author’s access to Arabic sources and her ability to contextualize them make this a compelling and thorough account, enriching our knowledge of Islamic religion and tradition.”

You may find the author’s PhD dissertation Here

Sepagi bersama Ara

"Ara, kayuh jom. Bawa buku sekali"

"Okey"

.

"Orang suruh bawa buku. Dia bawa fail kes"

"Kita bawa 2 buku eh and ni bukan fail kes. Notebook je"

"Kenapa Ara minat sangat dengan kes tu?"

"Bilik tidur terbakar. Tilam, badan dan handphone si mati ada kesan petrol. Laporan post-mortem menyatakan tiada kesan asap pada paru-paru si mati. Hujah pihak pembelaan, kematian akibat terhantuk pada bucu katil. Terdapat 16 kecederaan pada badan si mati. Luka menembus berukuran 5x4 sentimeter di bahagian parietal kiri, luka menembus berukuran 2x1 sentimeter di sebelah kanan dahi dan luka menembus berukuran 2x1.5 sentimeter di bahagian atas bahagian depan leher. Kecederaan luka tembus akibat anak panah"

"Anak panah tu siapa punya?"

"Anak tiri si mati"

"Okey"

"Si mati di temui hanya memakai seluar dalam. Waktu kematian tidak dapat di pastikan. Pakar anggarkan antara jam 11.30 malam pada 13 Jun 2018 hingga jam 4 pagi hari berikutnya. Terdapat 2 orang pakar. Salah seorang pakar menyatakan anggaran waktu kematian ialah kurang dari 24 jam sebelum proses bedah siasat dijalankan. Bedah siasat dimulakan pada jam 5 petang pada 14 June 2018. Waktu kematian dalam kertas pertuduhan ialah antara 11.30 malam pada 13 Jun dan 4 pagi 14 Jun 2018"

"Okey, faham"

"Tapi pelik, kalau dia masih hidup pada waktu pagi, kenapa PA dia call, mesej, dia tak jawab. Kawasan rumah dia ada guard, kena ada kad akses kalau nak masuk"

"Motif pembunuhan?"

"Tak pasti"

"Duit, dendam, cemburu?"

"Duit maybe tapi dendam tak pasti. Penama penerima EPF bekas isteri dia"

"Eh?"

"Pelik kan?"

"Pelik juga la kenapa dia tak tukar nama isteri baru"

"Tak mungkin dia lupa tukar. Betul tak?"

"Sengaja tak nak tukar?"

"Maybe but why?"

"Hara rasa ada orang tolong cover up?. Saja bakar nak sembunyikan motif sebenar"

"Katanya ada letupan tapi semasa prosiding, letupan tak wujud. Berita tentang letupan keluar sebelum pakar autopsi keluarkan kenyataan rasmi"

"Kerja orang dalam?"

"OKT di lepas dan di bebaskan. Tak ada direct evidence OKT adalah pembunuh"

"Dia ada masalah dengan abang dia yang hidup mewah tapi suka berhutang. Abang dia buat pinjaman tapi letak nama dia. Dia kena bayar sebab tak nak nama sangkut dekat bank"

"Mana abang tahu ni?"

"Abang selalu baca blog dia. Dia tulis dah hilang hormat pada abang dia sebab sikap suka susahkan keluarga"

"Salah satu hujah pihak pembelaan tentang krisis keluarga. Tapi di luar mahkamah, kakak dia kata dah berbaik"

"Luka yang spesifik biasanya orang dalam bidang perubatan yang pakar. Kebetulan abang si mati yang kaki hutang tu doktor kalau tak salah. Tapi takkan dia nak masuk bilik tidur nak membunuh"

"Tak ada kesan gumpilan atau tanda kediaman di ceroboh. Tentu orang yang dia kenal"

"Rasanya"

"Hal yang menarik lagi, pintu terkunci dari dalam"

"Patutlah Ara minat sangat. Abang ada baca bekas laywer dia tulis yang motif adalah dendam di sebabkan duit dan hutang tapi bukan melibatkan abang si mati"

"Yang ni Ara tak tahu. Ceritalah. Nak catat"

"Nak catat eh"

"Haah"

"In the midst of my chaos, I found solace in you”

"Jual ayat ehhh"

"Ye"

"Sempattt"

"Mesti!"

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Mengayuh basikal bersama Hara di Parque La Sabana. Kemudian mencari tempat redup di tepi tasik lalu duduk bersama membaca buku. Berbual hampir sejam mengenai sebuah kes jenayah yang masih banyak tanda tanya.

Parque Metropolitano La Sabana, San José, Costa Rica

18 Mei 2023, 9.30 pagi

Happiness

What is happiness to Rumi?

Rumi said that there is an inherent sadness in the spirit of everyone. This sadness is caused by our separation from the source. We are deeply unhappy about being separated from the source. We cannot reach true happiness if we cannot connect with the source ( whole, Universal intelligence).

One of the core philosophies of Rumi or Sufism is the desire to return to the source. This separation of loneliness creates fear, anxiety, and insecurity. The true sense of happiness and wisdom is in joining with the source.

[Copyright to the author]

Perspective-taking

 

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Love is not Enough

Love is not enough.

You need someone to trust,

who will never give up

on you,

who will always be there

by your side,

even through the darkest

and most difficult times.

Love is not enough.

You need someone to care for you,

to cherish you,

to wipe away your tears,

and to hold your hand

when you are afraid.

Love is not enough.

You need someone to understand you,

to support you,

to encourage you,

and to believe in you,

even when everyone else

has given up.

Love is not enough.

But if you find someone

who loves you,

who cares for you,

who understands you,

who supports you,

and who believes in you,

then hold onto them

and never let them go,

for they are truly rare

and precious treasures

in this world.

[Copyright to the author]

Thinking of someone

"Thinking of someone is sometimes Allah's way of reminding you to pray for them. It could be that they need your prayers at that specific time."

[Jinan Yousef]

Beware of sadness (احذروا الحزن) - Imam Ibn Al Qayyim's advice

Happy days and sad days are all part of life. Allah tells us that this life is nothing but a test. Even our blessings are a test to see if we will remain grateful and grounded or become heedless in our party mode. And so are our trials and sorrows, to see how patient and loyal we remain to Allah. From an early age, we are taught how to handle setbacks and sorrows yet we fail to compose ourselves in the thick of it, Subhan Allah.

Ibn Al Qayyim may Allah have mercy on him said the word (الحزن) – (sadness) does not appear in the Quran only in the form of forbidding it (ولا تهنو ولاتحزنوا) or in the form of negating it (فلاخوف عليهم ولا هم يحزنون).

And the reason for this is that there is no benefit to having sadness in the heart. The most beloved thing to the shaitan is to make the believing slave sad by taking him off track.

The Prophet (ﷺ) sought refuge in Allah (SWT) from sadness:

(اللهم إني أعوذ بك من الهم والحزن)

Ibn Al Qayyim said: Sadness weakens the heart and diminishes determination and wanting to go forward. And there is nothing more beloved to the shaitan than the sadness of a believer.

For this reason, be happy, optimistic, and think good about Allah. Have trust in what Allah is able to do and depend on Him. You will find happiness and pleasure in all situations.

Ibn Al Qayyim said: Don’t ruin your happiness with worry and don’t ruin your mind with pessimism. Don’t ruin your success with deception and don’t ruin the optimism of others by destroying it. Don’t ruin your day by looking back at yesterday.

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Bidadariku

Isteriku yang mulia,

Terima kasih atas budi baikmu berkorban hampir segalanya untuk hidup di sampingku. Meninggalkan kerjaya yang kau sayangi, gaji yang lumayan dan tentunya kedua orang tuamu. Episod pengembaraan kita bermula di kota yang makmur dengan rempah iaitu India. Pengembaraan hidup yang menyentuh jiwa dan hati nurani kita. Manis untuk di kenang dan di ambil iktibar.

Kiranya kau tahu betapa aku bersyukur memiliki seorang isteri yang taat dan mengikut suaminya ke mana sahaja tanpa banyak bicara. Mengurus hal ehwal rumah tangga dengan teratur tanpa merungut dan berkeluh-kesah. Sungguh duhai isteriku yang mulia, aku sangat bersyukur. Terima kasih untuk setiap keringat yang kau berikan demi membahagiakan keluarga kecil kita.

Abang tak mahu menyusahkan Hara menapak ke sana sini atau membuat carian di internet untuk mencari premis yang menjual barangan halal. Penganut Islam di sini sangat kecil jumlahnya. Kedai dan restoran yang menyediakan makanan halal sangat terhad. Barang masak sudah ada. Kita hanya perlu membeli bahan mentah sahaja — makanan laut, ikan, dan sayuran segar.

Atenas, Alajuela, Costa Rica

12 Mei 2023, 12.35 malam

Woooha!

"Woooha!"

"Barang apa abang beli sampai satu kontena ni?

"Stok makanan kita sampai tahun depan. Segala barang dapur termasuk jajan, ais krim, coklat semua ada. Panadol, ubat demam, sakit perut, cirit-birit, muntah, selesema, batuk, pening. Pakej vitamin siap supplement"

"Sabun?"

"Sabun jugak dia tanya"

"Mesti la. Penting. Nak membasuh"

"Semua jenis sabun abang beli dari Norwex. Nanti check tuala lap dapur, mop, berus semua cukup tak"

"Bila masa abang ada akaun Norwex?

"Abang minta Bonda tolong order"

"Tak cakap pun"

"Lupa"

"Pad?"

"Ada"

"Kelengkapan baby?"

"Dah"

"Semua?"

"Insha Allah lengkap. Bonda tolong senaraikan"

"Confuse kejab. Siapa anak siapa menantu"

"Hahaha jealous ke?"

"Ho la"

Nyamuk

"Larat ke nak maintain Neverland abang ni?"

"Larat"

"Kolam tu semua?"

"Ye"

"Tak, sekarang masalahnya banyak pokok, dekat dengan gunung, nyamuk banyak tak?"

"Abang dah tanya ejen. Dia kata bebas nyamuk"

"Kalau ada macam mana?"

"Tak ada"

"Kalau ada?"

"Kalau ada I nak buat macam mana hehehe"

"Gelenyar sungguh la"

"Hehehe"

Rajuk sayang

"Mana abang tahu Ara dekat sini?"

"Mana lagi Hara nak pergi?"

"Kenapa cari Ara?"

"Sebab abang tahu Hara sayang abang"

"Siapa cakap?"

"Ikut abang balik San Jose. Kalau Hara tak nak stay pun tak apa. Nanti abang hantar balik KL"

"Kenapa nak hantar Ara balik KL pulak?"

"Kan abang cakap kalau nak balik KL, abang hantar"

"Tak nak"

"Kalau Hara tak suka abang baca buku tu, Hara boleh buang"

"Tak pun"

"Hara tak lapar? Satu hari tak makan. Kita pergi makan dulu nak?"

"Tak nak"

"Habis tu Hara nak apa?"

"Abang tak reti ke nak ajak Ara balik rumah"

"Kan tadi dah ajak"

"Tak dengar pun"

"Jom balik. Kita selesaikan dekat rumah"

"Nak selesaikan macam mana tu?"

"Nanti abang fikir. Sekarang tak terfikir lagi"

"Mmmmm"

"Kita balik eh?"

"Okey"

"Alhamdulillah" *sujud syukur*

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Abud-Dardā said to Umm-ud-Dardā,

“If I get angry then seek to please me and if you get angry then I will seek to please you. Because if we don’t do that then how quick will we separate.”

[Tārīkh Dimashq, 151/70]

Shaykh Muqbil said:

“Happiness cannot exist between a husband and wife except by their combined efforts; remaining patient with each other; working closely towards goodness and displaying teamwork whilst nurturing their children.”

[Anāqeed al-Karāmah | Page 7]

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Ya Rabb

"Ara rasa abang pegang buku ni lagi banyak dari abang pegang tangan Ara"

"Pandai je"

"Mengaku please"

"Tak pun"

"Bacakan apa yang khusyuk sangat abang mengadap tu"

"*Once a beloved asked her lover: "Friend, You have seen many places in the world! Now which of all these cities was the best?" He said, "The city where my sweetheart lives.""

"So, where? Putrajaya? Cyberjaya? Kajang? Melaka? Sabah? Switzerland? Tell me where?"

"Amboi petik semua"

"Kita memang fasih pasal kekasih laki kita mmmmmm"

"Kita suka Hartamas"

"Eleh. Sembangggg"

"Tak percaya sudah"

"Tak pernah percaya pun"

"Hara tak percaya abang?"

"Sorry, forget what I said"

"Kenapa cakap macam tu?"

"Nothing"

"Ni kan puisi je"

"Yes, it is"

"Apa yang tak kena?"

"Semua"

"Apa?"

"Semua. Semuanya. Pasal abang, pasal hati abang, Ara abang letak dekat mana?"

"Kan kita dah selesaikan benda ni?"

"No and never"

*Jalāl al-Dīn Muḥammad Balkhī

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Sudah sampai di Dubai International Airport tapi Hara ambil penerbangan lain pulang semula ke Kuala Lumpur.

Late night thoughts

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Doa Nabi Nuh

Umar: Durian kita dah berbunga ke daddy?

Daddy: Kalau musim panas biasanya menjadi

Adam: Daddy nak tengok macam mana?

Daddy: Tengok pokok tu. Nampak tak?

Huda: Didn't see anything daddy

Umar: Guna binokular

Adam: Adam bawa dron

Huda: Good idea!

Daddy: La Ilaha Illallah. Nak tengok bunga durian je. Tak payahlah dron. Kita pergi tengok dekat sikit. Baca doa Nabi Nuh

Adam: Reptilia apa ada dekat sini daddy?

Umar: Ular

Daddy: Doa ni untuk semua jenis haiwan berbisa. Elok baca sebelum masuk hutan. Ikut daddy baca *'Salamun 'ala nuhin fil 'alamin. Innaka hamidun majid'

*As-Saaffaat 37:79

Yang paling sukar

Kuda tua

"Apa ni?"

"Buka cepat"

"Cincin?"

"Ye la. Takkan ikan"

"Cantik. Siap ukir nama"

"Mesti la. Takut orang sondol laki kita. Zaman sondol-menyondol kan"

"Tak jadi bermadu dah eh hahaha"

"Tak. Pakai la nak tengok"

"Kena letak inai 3 jari baru cun hahaha"

"Gatal eh gatal. Tak pasal tidur luar malam ni"

"Sarungkan. Debar rasa hahaha"

"Mengada!"

"Sakitlah. Hara ni"

"Kejar kalau dapat!"

"Mentang runner sekolah dulu"

"Bukan macam awak main rempuh-rempuh orang hihihi"

"Nak kena rempuh ke?"

"Kejar kita pun tak larat. Kuda tua hihihihihi"

"Hey! Meh sini. Kemain mulut"

"Hihihi kuda tua hihihihi"

Jiwaku

“Aku tidak pernah berurusan dengan sesuatu yang lebih sulit daripada jiwaku sendiri, yang terkadang membantuku, dan terkadang menentangku.”

Sufyān ath-Thawrī, 

Siyar Aʿlām al-Nubalāʾ 7/258

[Kredit: Sumber asal]