Sunday, October 30, 2016

Something that reminds you of me

I know I probably don’t cross your mind much anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back.

― Unknown

Monday, October 24, 2016

Only once in your life

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. 

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. 

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. 

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

- Bob Marley  

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Belahan Jiwa



I want to see your beautiful smile when I hand this boutique orchid, your favorite flower to you. I miss your calm eyes that never fail to make me fall over and over again with you. You’re not someone to me. You’re my only one. I miss your sexy voice and of course; I miss you.

Live your life, sayang. 



Love you always,
Abang

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Do you still think of me?

“Once there was you and me 
We were lovers 
We were friends 
Before life changed
Before we were strangers
Do you still think of me?” 

― Renee Carlino, Before We Were Strangers

Thursday, October 20, 2016

I still do

“I'm not really sure why. But... do you stop loving someone just because they betray you? I don't think so. That's what makes the betrayal hurt so much - pain, frustration, anger... and I still loved her. I still do.”

― Brandon Sanderson, The Final Empire

Friday, October 14, 2016

Time to say goodbye


Time doesn’t heal you. You heal you. - Unknown

Thursday, October 13, 2016

What I Think


Never let the same flame burn you twice

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

A Time Apart, A Time Together

“I’m glad we had the times together just to laugh and sing a song, seems like we just got started and then before you know it, the times we had together were gone.” ― Dr. Seuss

Sunday, October 09, 2016

Surat cinta yang ganjil

I was discharged from a psychiatric hospital. The first person I want to have chat was you. You are not around and that is okay. 

May I have warm hugs, sayang? I feel very cold here, very lonely…


***


1 “Cintaku yang besar, cintaku yang tulus,
2 telah hilang, menguap, dan kini rasa benciku
3 berkembang setiap hari. Ketika melihatmu,
4 aku tidak ingin lagi melihat wajahmu sedikitpun;
5 satu hal yang sungguh ingin aku lakukan adalah
6 mengalihkan mata ke gadis lain. Aku tak lagi ingin
7 menikahkan aku dan kau. Percakapan terakhir kita
8 sungguh, sungguh sangat membosankan dan tak
9 membuat aku ingin bertemu kau sekali lagi.
10 Selama ini, kau selalu memikirkan dirimu sendiri.
11 Jika kita menikah, aku tahu aku akan menemukan
12 hidupku menjadi sulit, dan aku tidak akan menemukan
13 kebahagiaan hidup bersamamu. Aku punya satu hati
14 untuk kuberikan, tetapi, sungguh, itu bukan sesuatu
15 yang ingin aku berikan untukmu. Tak ada yang lebih
16 bodoh dan egois daripada kamu, dan kamu tak pernah
17 memperhatikan, merawat dan mau mengerti aku.
18 Aku sungguh sangat berharap kamu mau mengerti
19 Aku berkata jujur. Kau akan baik sekali jika
20 kau anggap inilah akhirnya. Tidak usahlah
21 membalas surat ini. Surat-suratmu dipenuhi
22 hal-hal yang tidak menarik bagiku. Kau tak punya
23 cinta yang tulus. Sampai jumpa! Percayalah,
24 aku tak peduli lagi padamu. Jangan pernah berpikir
25 aku masih dan akan terus menjadi kekasihmu.

— Surat ini sengaja diberi angka di setiap barisnya, agar kamu bisa membedakan mana baris ganjil, mana baris genap. Bacalah baris-baris ganjil saja dan hapuslah baris-baris genapnya. Ini memang sebuah surat cinta yang ganjil.

- M Aan Mansyur

Sunday, October 02, 2016

Little things

When you really miss someone, you miss the little things the most, such as just laughing together.

It's a lie to say you've let go of the past, nobody let go of memories cause really, there's no such thing as forgetting only acceptance. - Unknown


Whitby, North Yorkshire, England 

Rutin

“Mana?”
“Ada sini”
“Ada sini tang mana?”
“North Yorkshire. Kenapa?”
“Sejak bila aku tak boleh tanya adik aku ada tang mana”
“Orang tak ada mood ni. Lain kali borak”
“Pasaipa?”
“Tak ada apa”
“Awatnya?”
“Tak ada”
“Hang murung ni pasai apa. Aku tanya hang jawablah”
“Tak ada apa. Tadi dengar lagu dekat radio”
Dengaq lagu ja teruih hilang mood. Parah dah hang ni”
“Hmm Kak Ain jangan macam-macamlah”
Pasaipa yang hang update status wassap tak teruih pi wassap bini hang ja”
“Sakit kepala. Bye-bye. Between pandai cakap Kedah. Nak pindah Kedah ke?
“Kepala b**** hang”
“Okey. Pure utara hahaha”
Hang pi rehat. Aku nak pi hangat badan. Nak wrestling sat gi ni”
“Kak Ain ni memang kan. Dah macam rutin”
Awatnya?”
“Tak ada apalah”
“Apa”
“Yela. Asyik nak letak phone mesti ada ‘kerja’”
“Dah aku kongkek dengan laki sendiri salah ka
“Malas la layan Kak Ain. Bye!”
“Bye setan”