Your Endless Love

I am sorry if I made you worries. I am sorry for not be the real me for two days. I am out of mood. I have eaten my pills; I have taken my dinner just like you asked. I knew you are tired and need rest. Thank you for accompany me and shares short of stories.

Tomorrow you have class at 9am and spend your night at hospital. When you heading home, its half late night and I know you are thinking about bed. Your body extremely exhausted. Don’t be sorry honey. I get used with all this.

I feel your warm breathe. I hear you snoring. And I smile. On morning, when I tell you that you are snoring, I know you will say “No, I don’t”. Believe me honey. Yes, you are snoring but not the whole night.

Thanks for never ending support that you gave me. I really needed. You never fail to hold me up. Your love made me stronger.

Hug you tight.

I have more than left hand

1

My right hand is dysfunctional. I can’t even hold a glass of water. It is hard for me. I am about to lose another gift that HE gave me. HE wants to take back. And my eyes become more blurred. I can’t read for too long. I feel pain when my eyes grasp the light of laptop and lamps. My life becomes rough.

What else that I have? Only my left hand and lucky I am left handed. I know sooner or later I will lose this hand too…

2

I stop taking pills. I refuse to eat any medicine. Eating too many pills can’t make me feel better. I become worse with the side effects. You can say I have given up. That’s half truth.

3

I hate my wife’s college. Why should she have class on Sunday? She supposed be with me. Come on, [future] doctor also need a break both physical and mental.

4

Huda love arts. She likes drawing and painting. And now Huda has new hobbies. She learns how to make origami and miniature. These remind me to my young brother who is so artistic. Yes, I miss you Carl. I hope you live in peace there.

5

Besides playing games, Umar learns tarranum. I think he have opportunity to be next Imam Muda. My neighbours called him bilal kecil. Start from last month, he recites Quran from ustaz muda who volunteer to teach him without taking any fee.

6

I have more than left hand. I have her. I have my kids.