Love…over and over again

I heard a lot of things about love. People always talk about how it makes you smile, makes you cry, makes you laugh, makes you feel good about yourself, and a whole lot of other things but they missed one thing, one most important thing:'

They missed to mention how good it feels to fall in love with the same love over and over and over again, and you still find your love and lover fascinating every second you spend time together. It makes you feel like you would want to keep on falling in love forever and hope it will never ever stops.

by Mrs.Imran

Feb 27,2011

Sweetness

She said :-

"Your love is so sweet and I'm very much addicted to it. I think I'll be a diabetic soon. Thanks to your love. Nothing can beat the sweetness of your love".

I love you.

Much, Much Love

It’s time to do chemotherapy again. The chemotherapy programme began with the anti-cancer drug gemcitabine. There are a few other regimes available consisting of two, three, or even four, chemotherapy agents. The side effects - lethargy, occasional low blood counts - were tolerable and self- limiting.

At first when doctor diagnosis that I have cancer, my wife got panic. She always asks over me about my medical treatment, medicine, CT scan. Every single minute she keeps remind me to eat pills sharp on time, eat a lot, don’t do this, don’t do that.

She even wants to be my doctor - formal doctor. I say no. I can’t have someone relate to me to be my doctor. She’s get angry when I didn't tell her the result of CT scan or what I have discussed with my doctor. She’s mad.

Long after that, her actions change. If I said I need to do chemotherapy or radiotherapy, she won’t let me do that. Ironically isn't? From that time, I know I was made mistake. I keep saying that I can go through this pain. I even don’t need her support.

I was wrong. I realize that every time she’s babbling because she loves me. There is no reason - just love. I hate when she starts asking all about my pain. Unhealthy people abhor when you ask them about their tenderness. If you think that question would help them to feel easy, you are totally wrong.

Sayang, you should know why I refuse to talk about my pain all this time. It is because I don’t want you have personally affected. Let say if I’m your patient and you failed to safe my life, would you blame on yourself? I believe yes because I am somebody to you. Doctors are human too. We cannot escape the fact. They are, often, fallible. They become slaves to their minds and sentiments. They feel. They emote.

When you are finally graduated and gain the title of “Dr” in front of your name, you are expected to conduct yourself professionally. Honey, you can't treat me with your medical understanding. You only can treat me with your love and tender. I can’t wait to see you in white coat as a formal doctor - that is my wish, my last wish.

You are Dr [soon]!

Much, Much Love.

Sometimes, all we have to change is our perspective

People seem concern to people like me. I think so. They used to ask whether I am happy with my life. Do I happy? Yeah, I am happy. But most of the times, I’m not really happy - unhappy. I am still learning to adapt, to accept what have been happened in my life. I’m copying.

Maybe I just need to be more open - heated. My big brother said “It’s your fate and you must accept with smiling on your face. We cannot change what God had planned for us. He’s our Creator. All you need is learning how to cope with your new “life style”. I know it’s hard but you have no choice”

I still go to meet psychiatrist. Once, he said that “If you don’t feel happy with the way your life is going, you are able to change it. Sometimes, all you need is to change your perspective.” Maybe the times is coming for me to accept that I am disable person now who always need helping hand even though I refuse to. People said - its ego.

Be grateful with what we have.

Honey, I miss you.

You are always gonna be the one

I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one


Good morning love.