This year, I hardly watch YouTube. Today, while waiting for my flight, I opened it to listen to a song. I searched for an Arabic song and found many belly dance videos. I watched one for a while, then skipped ahead and finally closed it. The women, yes, Arab women, looked very attractive (though not for me), and their movements were quite revealing. I felt uneasy, so I decided to change the song. I couldn’t find anything that matched my mood, so I closed the tab and read poetry instead.

I remind myself to lower my gaze and keep practising this for many years. I think I have lost interest in other women.

Maybe I’m just tired or worn out. I’m not sure.

Mumbai, India

20.09.2025