I opened the chat app and found almost 30 new messages. I want to read them, but I'm afraid that if I do, I'll feel weak and want to reply. I can't reply to your text. We need to distance ourselves from each other. I don't want to make things difficult for you. I said I want to leave, so I must go. I miss you dearly, sayang. It's 4:34 am, and I'm still awake, thinking about you. I want to sleep, but my eyes won't close.