"Kenapa abang tak pernah wish birthday saya? Abang ingat tak birthday saya?"
"Sebab abang tak nak ganggu hubungan orang"
Panggilan telefon
01-02-2024
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Sebenarnya…sebab awak buang abang dari hidup awak. Awak mungkin lupa… tapi abang ingat…sebab itu abang jauhkan diri.
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Sejak semalam beberapa kali abang cuba hubungi awak tapi abang padamkan saja hasrat di hati. Abang tak mahu berbalah. Kalau abang hubungi awak tentu awak akan kata abang mahukan awak semula. Tak, abang tak mahukan awak. Abang tahu letak duduk diri abang. Abang tahu awak telah buang abang jauh dari hidup awak. Abang sedar yang awak tak akan mungkin jadi milik abang sampai bila-bila. Abang tak pernah lupa saat awak buat abang gembira, abang tak pernah lupa saat kita sama-sama terluka. Luka yang ada, parut yang tak mungkin hilang seperti kata Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy “It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone”.
You had my heart and I had yours
You said it was love and so I stayed
Maybe it was too much
Maybe it wasn’t enough.
But I will never forget
The way you made me feel
Like I was everything
And I will never forget
The way you made me feel
Like I was nothing.
― Antonio M. Acre
13 Julai 2017