Reading all those words is calming and brings cheer to my heart. She is very skilled at writing, while I am an average writer. Her choice of words and sentences is exquisitely beautiful. I started writing again in the blog that we used to share. I think it is the most intimate place for us. It's quiet, peaceful, and just the two of us. I have read some entries, but I haven't read them all yet. Maybe I didn't want to hurt myself, so I am taking my time slowly, trying to understand and feel what I need to feel.