"How do I tell you, I dreamt of getting caught by my husband? Not one, but two nights in a row. The thing I scared of the most? Not seeing my girls. How do I tell you about thisI dont want to let go of you, but I cant lose them either."
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Life often presents us with difficult choices, and it seldom shows leniency. This makes me wonder if there's time left to experience the emotions that have yet to be felt, to savor the warmth of sweet love. I yearn for the chance to take my time before parting ways, but it seems even that is a luxury I'm denied. Does this harsh reality validate the phrase "a cruel world"? I never anticipated her return, yet I always held onto the hope that she would come back. Now, she has returned, and still, I can't have her. Can't the world show me a moment's kindness? I refuse to put her in a position to make a choice. I won't risk ruining her life, sabotaging her marriage, or force her to choose me. No, I won't ask her to do anything. I am resolved to find an exit, to say goodbye, as much as it pains me. It seems to be the best option for both of us, despite my reluctance and her wish for me to stay. Even though we both yearn to freeze this moment, no aid has come to our rescue. Should I start distancing myself from her now?