Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Yes, I miss you

It’s just a feeling that comes every time I think about you. It’s just a feeling, nothing more. I would not let my heart break again by you. I would not let my mind feel the same pain.

I think I deserve someone who suits me.  You’re my past and you will always be in my heart, forever. I’m not missing you. I just miss how happy when I was with you. I miss our late night conversations; I miss how close we were to each other.

Even that I miss you very much I won’t stop to move forward. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to be loved by someone who cherishes me. I do not deserve to be betrayed. I am a hard person to love but when I love, I love really hard.

You’re not happy with me. There is no reality. There is nothing. I’m tired with this love so I set it free. Fourteen years have been just enough. I have lost myself. I have lost my dignity as a man.

My heart says you’re the one. My mind says it’s enough. I choose to follow my mind. You’re someone who really special to me. To let you go is something very hard to do, but I need to. I’m a man who needs someone who respect and  never betray me.

In short, when I miss you, it’s doesn’t mean I want you back; I just miss us. Missing is just a part of moving on.

Man who betray you once would betray you twice – Ken Follet