Thursday, July 10, 2025

I was sleeping in the hammock with you beside me. You wouldn’t allow me to leave you outside my mind, would you? How was your day, sweetheart? Busy arranging house chores while breastfeeding, cooking, washing clothes, and caring for the other three toddlers who always need your attention, love, and care? And of course, the big baby – is like a toddler too, isn’t he? Sometimes he needs even more attention than a newborn. Please take good care of your health, especially your mental health. Stop when you feel tired. You are not a robot. I know you get tired easily and usually need more sleep at night to truly rest. Lack of sleep can leave you exhausted and mentally burnt out. The night isn’t your friend. Don’t drink too much coffee. Prioritise your health too.

My sweet love,
My sweet lover,
My everything,
My perfection,
The first person who taught me that this world is bright and colourful. Time stood still when we were madly in love.

Good night, my love.



To Sua Ocean Trench, Upolu Island, Samoa
9 July 2025

Wednesday, July 09, 2025

Monster – “I needed time; she gave years.”

She gave you years of her life – loyalty, patience, sacrifice, and silent waiting without reciprocation. Her offering was maximal, her devotion unequivocal.

Blame yourself, not her.
_

I never blamed her. It has always been my fault from the start. You can’t convince me of something I already know deep inside. Being brutally honest is painful, but pretending and trying to lie to myself is just avoiding the truth. I don’t want to go back to the past. There is nothing left for me there. One of my feet has already stepped forward; only the other needs to follow. We are okay. We will be okay. I don’t want to beg for attention, affection, love, or care anymore. We don’t need that now. Let us keep our honour as a man this time. Let us hold on to our pride, not out of arrogance, but to keep our dignity. Let go of what was never meant to stay. You and I – we are the same person. Calm down. Take a deep breath in. Let it out slowly. I don’t want a passionate, extraordinary love anymore. I am too old and tired for that kind of love. Let the past stay in the past. He treats her better than I ever did. She treats him better than she treated me. Each time you miss her, remember her words to you – and it will help you keep your distance. That is the only way I know to slowly let go of what was once so beautiful to me. She’s good. She’s kind. She’s pretty. She’s rare. She’s full of energy, bold, and daring, with big dreams beyond normal life. Ara can never replace her. Yet here I am again… loving her quietly from far away, in the silent moments between the busyness of my days. She lives within every sight I see, every melody I hear, every word she once wrote. She will never leave my heart or my mind… but she is not mine. It hurts deeply to see the woman you love standing with another man, to see him touch her, kiss her, and do whatever he wants with her – when she used to be your safe place.


Vaiala Beach, Apia, Samoa
8 July 2025

Tuesday, July 08, 2025

"Sempat la otak abang berehat dari anxiety"
"Anxiety apa? Kenapa tak cakap?"
"Hari tu abang mop lantai ada kesan. Esoknya ada lagi. Abang nak mop, Ara cakap nak bersih. Ara lap guna span. Kata nak mop lepas masak. Dah masak, letih. Abang pun malas nak bising"
"Mmm calah kita?"
"Tak"
"Astu?"
"Ara bawa pergi mana bekas tu sampai jauh menitik?"
"Acam tak ingat"
"Kalau nak tengok kembar, bekas letak dulu dalam sinki. Taklah menitik. Tak baik ada kesan macam tu dalam rumah. Kena bersih elok-elok. Tak boleh lap guna span je"
"Dah letak sabun"
"Lain kali jangan buat lagi, okey?"
"Mmmmmmm"
"Terima kasih masak untuk abang. Benda kecik, tak ada apa pun"
"Abang tak marah?"
"Tak"
"Kenapa tak marah? Marah laaa cepat. Kita nak gaduh"
"Tak payah gaduh. Gaduh bukan dapat apa pun"
"Acam nak gaduh…"
"Ara makan cukup?"
"Cukup"
"Duit belanja cukup?"
"Cukup. Kalau nak bagi lebih pun bolehhh"
"Badan sihat?"
"Sihat!"
"Cukup tidur?"
"Cukup!"
"Metabolisme okey?"
"Perfect sangat!"
"Minum air cukup?"
"Ye, bang"
"Ada sakit-sakit?"
"Takde"
"Mental health okey?"
"Okey"
"Emosi?"
"Okey"
"Mood?"
"Nak gaduhhhh"
"Pakaian luar dalam apa semua cukup?"
"Cukupppp"
"Handbag, kasut, perfume, jam, gelang, rantai, cincin cukup?"
"Gobok dah penuh, bang"
"Duit nak beli apa tak cukup?"
"Hati abang hihi"
_

"Mekasih tau audit kita"
"Ha"


5/7

"Tengok laaa jab"
"Penerbit baru?"
"Ha'a"
"Banyak buku terjemahan"
"Astu la. Kita tahu abang mesti jatuh cinta dengan kita"
"Eh?"
"Hihihihi"


5/7
"Budak tengah besar. Masalah duit. Sekarang cuti sem, cari kerja tak dapat. Seminggu dah. Tu yang dia call"
"Kita baca Microsoft lay off 9000 workers"
"Dekat Malaysia dah mula SST + E-Invoice. Tarif lagi. Memang susah cari kerja. Orang nak ambil budak part time pun fikir dua kali. Abang dulu tak tahu nak cari kerja apa. Lalu tapak projek, cuba nasib. Tengok dapat. Orang tu bagi kerja bancuh simen. Hari pertama angkat simen, tak terangkat. Kena jerkah sebab lambat. Dekat tapak projek tak ada paip air. Kena angkut dalam tong sampai tempat bancuh. Lepas tu sodok pasir gaul-gaul dengan simen. Dah siap bancuh, sodok masuk dalam kereta sorong hantar dekat tukang. Ulang-alik. Kalau dapat ketua yang baik, dia bagi tempat bancuh dengan hantar dekat. Tak penat. Tapi biasa dapat ketua letak jauh-jauh. Penat ulang-alik. Tak boleh berteduh bawah tempat redup nanti kena marah. Ulang proses tu dari pagi sampai habis kerja. Kerja 8 pagi - 5 petang. Gaji RM 20. Kadang RM 10"
"Sikitnya…"
"Haah. Sebab kerja sedia barang, bukan tukang mahir. Daily paid. Rehat sejam. Lepas solat abang tidur. Haus cari paip air minum. Abang kerja hujung minggu. Ada kerja abang pergi. Kalau tak ada, abang kerja tempat lain. Kadang ambil upah mesin rumput. Abang kumpul duit sampai dapat beli mesin second. Lepas tu belajar servis mesin"
"Berapa umur abang masa tu?"
"11"
"11 tahun? Angkat simen?"
"Haah. Kalau cuti sekolah abang loaded. 4 pagi sampai 7, abang kerja pasar. 8-5 kerja kontrak. 8 malam sampai 11 jual barang dekat pasar malam tak pun tolong orang jaga kedai. Balik rumah lepas mandi tidur tak ingat dunia"
"Berapa jam abang tidur? Macam sekejab aje"
"12.30-3 pagi. 3.45 nak kena gerak. Nanti lambat orang marah.
"Dengar pun penat"
"Kita menumpang kenalah buat cara menumpang. Umur 11 abang dah fikir nanti 18 kena keluar nak duduk mana. Abang mana ada tempat nak pergi. Berfikir ke hadapan. Ara 11 tahun buat apa? Jadi princess lagi?"
"Eee tak la. 11 dah besar tau"


6/7
"Abang…okey tak?"
"Sakit kepala. Entah apa dia bising. Malas fikir"
"Wanna have a chigwag?"
"Apa tu?"
"Talk to me"
"Ooo ingat makanan adoi"

Monday, July 07, 2025


"Tak takut dosa dengan Tuhan main sedap mulut cakap"
"Kita baca pun sakit hati. Minta Kajang tidurkan dia"
"Doktor lain punya banyak"
"Kajang tetap di hati abang, kan?"
"Ara cakap bukan abang"
"Eleh"

"Bagi dia anak tu tanggungjawab isteri. Dia nampak jaga anak senang. Bila isteri tak dapat buat, dia pandang rendah"
"Hembus jab dia, bang. Perangai acam pokok pisang"

"Perempuan lagi jahat dari lelaki. Memang ramai perempuan sengaja cari laki lurus. Mudah kenakan. Laki senang ikut cakap bini, dah sayang. Dia tak tahu pun bini ambil kesempatan atas dia. Laki baik banyak rosak sebab perempuan"
"Tetiba kita risau jodoh anak laki kita hmmm"
"Jahat lelaki kita tahu. Jahat perempuan tak ada sempadan. Lebih berbisa dari ular. Licik, penuh tipu muslihat"

"Memang orang perempuan suka makan tengah malam eh"
"Tak tahu hihihi"
"Indomee tu maggi ke?"
"Laki kita palau semua jenis maggi and fast food and processed food. Sedih tau. Real food aje boleh. Healthy nau"
"Tunggu awak berhenti, kiamat pun belum tentu"


6/7
"Kita nak gedik-gedik dengan abang"
"Abang tengah ulang kaji surah hari kiamat - Al-Infitar, Al-Inshiqaq, Al-Takwir"
"Acam tak jadi gedik"
"Pulak"
"Acam terkenang dosa-dosa dengan suami. Salah abang. Penyabar sangat"
"Habis nak abang jadi apa? Mengamuk macam orang gila?"
"Tahun ni tak mengamuk acam pelik cikit acam abang normal tak acam mmm abang sayang kita tak"
"Apa kaitan abang mengamuk dengan sayang Ara?"
"Abang fikir la sendiri. Kita tak suka fikir-fikir kerut dahi acam abang acam berat nau dunia"
"Sudah"
"Sayang kita tak?"
"Sayang"
"Banyak tak?"
"Banyak mana Ara nak?"
"Semua"
"Seluas langit dan bumi?"
"Tak luas"
"Seluas angkasa raya?"
"Tak cukup"
"Segenap kalbu abang…"
"Tak nakkk. Situ ada Kajang"
"Laaaa"
"Habis mana?"
"Abang fikir la"
"Hati abang tiada lain melainkan sebuah singgahsana, yang telah abang peruntukkan hanya untuk dikau, permaisuri cinta"
"Abang tak rasa over ke?"
"Memang pun. Kata nak romantik"
"Astu tukar la"
"Sehalus sutera itulah lembutnya kasihku padamu, tiada mampu terlerai meski teruji ribuan badai"
"Acam suka tapi acam bukan abang"
"Jika benar cinta itu hadir kerana Allah, maka biarlah ia mengajar kita menjadi insan yang lebih mulia, bukan sekadar merasa indahnya perasaan"
"Abang ingat tak, abang selalu cakap dahulukan Allah supaya Allah dahulukan kita. Sampai pejabat dahulukan Dhuha. Sebelum Qailullah baca sebaris dua al-Quran untuk redakan lelah"
"Bila? Ada ke?"
"Masa tu kita baru aje kenal. Kita kan selalu stres. Abang cakap lembut aje"
"Haa ingat"
"First time kita dengar abang tazkirah dekat rumah aunty acam habislah kita, abang dah ambil hati kita"
"Memori simpan dalam disket eh? Semua ingat"
"Baru abang tahu perempuan acam mana"


2/7

Sunday, July 06, 2025

"Fikir Kajang?"
"……"
"You can share with me"
"Tak ada apa"
"Have you sorted out your thoughts?"
"Hmm"
"Abang…cakaplah"
"It’s too personal. Dengan diri sendiri pun malu tambah dengan Ara. Lepas fikir, abang dah dapat jawapan"
"Apa yang abang fikir?"
"Tak penting pun. Kena layan otak sekejab. Sekarang dah okey…"
"Please?"
"Abang nak tidur. Jom"
"Abang…"
"Abang okey…nanti abang pujuk hati abang terima…macam abang pujuk hati abang dulu. Ara tak boleh pujuk hati abang. Abang je yang boleh buat…"
_

"Biasa la otak abang. Dia nak perhatian, kita bagi"
"Kita pun nak perhatian"
"Laa kan berkepit je"
"Cheating isn’t only in your actions, it’s in your thoughts too"
"Amboi. Sampai situ"
"Eh mesti la. Laki kita hak kita"

Saturday, July 05, 2025

"Abang tak nak ingat. Bukan lupa cuma tak nak simpan dalam hati. Masa tu abang sakit. Duit kering. Projek banyak sangkut. Dia hentam abang. Teruk abang kena sihir. Nasib boleh sembuh.
"Astu susah cari abang"
"Macam-macam jadi bertimpa-timpa. Lepas satu, satu. Masuk pelaburan, janji tempoh matang 4 tahun, rugi besar. Hancur hati. Dah la duit tu abang harap sangat. Berkali-kali abang tanya tapi dia orang cakap abang yang salah. Abang nak guna settle banyak benda. Projek pulak tengah problem. Sana sini orang tindas. Dalam tengah struggle, dia sihir abang, dengan sakit lagi. Bayang la nak cari duit, badan tak sihat, anak lapar. Dia pulak buat macam tu padahal kenal rapat"
"Abang gaduh dengan dia ke?"
"Tak. Dia susah abang tolong. Abang susah dia tolong. Dah main sihir, jumpa abang slumber je macam tak ada apa"
"Jahat betul perangai"
"Tahun-tahun yang mendesak. Hidup sempit. Perit rasa. Tak ada tempat berpaut. Abang tak reti mengadu sangat. Tak nak orang tahu masalah abang. Dari kecik susah senang abang telan sendiri. Tak tahu nak rasa sedih macam mana. Dahlah susah, yang ada dengan kita pun angkat kaki. Bila orang tahu kita susah, banyak yang ambil kesempatan. Konon nak bantu tapi tipu"
"Dia call nak apa?"
"Cerita dia sakit sekarang, nak ambil rawatan duit tak ada, kereta rosak, orang hantar 'barang'. Hidup melarat"
"Rasakan. Jahat sangat"
"Tak baik cakap macam tu. Ara isteri yang baik. Jaga lisan. Tu bahagian dia, biarlah. Kata-kata kita boleh jadi pembakar semangat, boleh juga jadi racun yang berbisa. Pilihlah untuk bercakap hal yang baik. Jaga lisan. Jangan cakap lepas dekat orang. Kata-kata yang tajam orang akan ingat sampai mati. Kita tak tahu apa yang orang hadap dalam hidup. Jangan sampai lisan buruk kita beri kesan dalam hidup orang. Orang tak boleh lupa. Dalam badan kita ada dua anggota tak bertulang tapi paling bahaya kalau tak di jaga dengan baik. Pertama lidah, kedua kemaluan. Jagalah kedua-duanya terutamanya lidah dari lisan yang menyakitkan hati orang"


4/7


"Laki bersepah. Pilihlah kumbang lain. Belum kawin dah tinggal tepi jalan. Dah kawin nanti dia buat lagi teruk daripada ni"
"Anti betul kita dengan laki acam ni. Taguna"
"Ni bukan lelaki. Kalau laki dia tak tinggal perempuan macam mana marah sekali pun. Gentleman belum kawin, dah kawin tak buat macam tu"
"Ni cetan, kan abang?"
"Hahahahaha"
"Naik kereta asing macam kita kan senang. Kalau timbul isu - tak pernah pun, gaduh ke - pun tak pernah, ada kereta balik sendiri"
"Kita never fight-fight"
"Jenis kuat sentap + baran + fikir diri sendiri. Merana la bini kalau kawin. Cipta neraka sendiri pilihan sendiri"
"Tinggal aje aihhh. Red flag sangat"
"Kita pergi muzium senang. Tempat tenang, aircond sejuk, percuma lagi, balik dapat ilmu, orang tak ramai. Boleh tukar pandangan. Strategi tu penting. Nampak je orang laki ni simple padahal semua benda dia tengok, semua benda dia kira. Ara ingat dia tak kira ke berapa banyak duit dia keluar bawa perempuan keluar dating. Duit minyak, tol, belanja makan, tengok wayang, beli hadiah. Belum campur kalau PJJ kena naik flight. Dulu masa dekat U, ada member break up. Segala jenis bil dia simpan. Resit semua dia claim sekali hadiah dia mintak balik"
"Sakit jiwa ke apa?"
"Ara kena faham, bila satu laki mengekor rapat, ada la benda yang dia target. Ara ingat laki pilih perempuan rambang ke? Setiap orang ada target. Ada jenis pilih nak join loan senang. Senang bahagikan perbelanjaan bila dah kawin. Ada jenis cari perempuan kerja tetap senang nak suruh buat loan. Ada yang tengok keluarga perempuan loaded, ada nama boleh menumpang. Ada yang cari bini untuk jadi maid - masak, cuci baju, buat kerja rumah. Dia nak bini bukan nak jadi suami"
"Kita tak boleh brain acam mana dia boleh terfikir claim semua tu. Betul la perempuan cakap ramai laki tak ada mindset provider. Dia prefer split bill"
"Kawan abang pernah marah bini tak nak kerja. Dia cakap bini lain okey je kerja"


2/7


"Haaa tu"
"Laju FB buat kerja"
"Kontraktor je pokai. Benda la. Sebab tu kalau orang tanya abang kerja apa abang tak jawab. Dalam otak orang dah set macam-macam pasal kontraktor"
"Kita tanya abang jawab 'susun bata'. Cakap la developer ke. Tak pun property portfolio ke. At least cakap la development & construction services. Ini tak"
"Tak reti cakap bend macam tu. Sama je. Tak susun bata tak jadi bangunan"
"Orang lain beria tau pegang pelan dekat site. Tempek gambar dekat FB cerita macam-macam. Laki kita mmm"
"Dia projek besar. Abang projek kecik. Malu la beria pegang pelan macam drama Melayu. Abang pergi site bawa muka handsome je"
"Memang kena ada eh handsome tu?"
"Yela. Pekerja tengok sejuk hati. Bos handsome, kacak, bergaya, tampan, perkasa"
"Dah habis?"
"Dah hehehe"


3/7



"Ha pasal loan lagi"
"Ha'a loan sana sini"


3/7


"Haaa"
"Baru aje sembang, tora datang lagi"
"Menantu nak merasa apa. Kerja la nak duit"


4/7

Thursday, July 03, 2025

Cinta yang terluka adalah cinta yang terindah. Meski pahit.

01-02-2024
Dia tidak dapat menyembunyikan keresahannya.

23-11-2023, 6.17 pagi
"Bising sangat. Acam dia aje pergi kerja"
"Yela dia pesan dekat anak jaga diri. Risau orang ambil ke ular datang ke"
"Astu keluar laa. Lama nau bebel dekat anak. Cari cacing dekat je pun"
"Jauh la. Penat dia terbang kadang sampai 200km cari makan. Saintis letak kamera ikut dia"
"Tengok tu tak keluar lagi. Kalau terbang dah sampai"
"Kejab lagi dia keluar"
"Dia bebel sambil buat breakfast dekat anak astu bebel dekat laki. Mesti burung betina. Kuat bebel"
"Merdu apa"
"Tak suka. Bising"


3/9/2024
I woke up from a dream again. You were on vacation in a village, and I was staying at a resort nearby. A little girl came to me and hugged me. She looked like Marissa, so I went to the car park to look for your car, but I didn’t see it. Just days before, I dreamt about Pinky. In the dream, I opened my eyes and she was right in front of me. I jumped back to reality, but I still smiled. Lately, my chest hurts and my head aches on and off. My wife says I need rest, but I know it’s not sleep I need. It’s something deeper – it’s you. I keep myself busy with work so I don’t think about you. I count the days to your birthday but stay silent, afraid to cross lines that should not be crossed again.

May 2, 2025
Tunggu sekejab wahai kekasih
kerana hujan masih renyai
tunggu sekejab dalam pelukan asmaraku
jangan bimbang 
walaupun siang akan menjelma
malam belum puas 
kubercumbu dengan dinda.

(P.Ramlee)

_

Untuk sayang,

25 Februari 2024 
Tegucigalpa, Honduras
"Acam tabaik kan orang meninggal kita ambil kesempatan gaduh"
"Betul la tu"
"Acam tak jadi gaduh"
"Selamat"
"Satu dua ri aje, pastu kita gaduh"
"Nak gaduhkan apa?"
"Abang cari gaduh ke?"
"Haah"
"Tak takut ke?"
"Tak"
"Apasal tak takut?"
"Beras kita beli, baju kita basuh, A sampai Z kita buat. Bini kasi anak, anak pun kita jaga dari merah dua jari sampai sekarang. Apa lagi? Panjang kalau nak list ni"
"Lama pendam ekkkk"
"Hahahahahaha"


27/6

Wednesday, July 02, 2025

"Dua tahun lagi cukup ulang tahun ke 10 kita pergi Seychelles. Repeat honeymoon"
"Kita dah kawin berapa tahun?"
"8…kan?"
"Amboih. Confident nohhhh"
"Mesti"
"Confident beli mana?"
"Built-in masa lahir"
"Tuhhhhh"
"Saya ni bukan setakat handsome, kacak, bergaya, tampan, perkasa, semua lengkap"
"Siapa cakap?"
"Sendiri angkat bakul. Tunggu orang puji lambat hahahaha"


27/6
"Ingatkan abang nak beli buku AJM bagi Kakak. 5 judul berkaitan perempuan"
"Dia baca ke, bang?"
"Dia baca ke tak lain cerita. Kita bagi dulu. Sebagai parents, kita kena ajar anak kita tentang tanggungjawab, tunjuk ajar tentang alam rumah tangga biar di faham falsafah pernikahan dalam Islam. Tapi abang bukan nak bagi buku alam rumah tangga. Kita mulakan dengan buku berkaitan perempuan"
"Macam orang tua dulu-dulu"
"Abang nak dia bahagia, tahu tanggungjawab sebagai isteri, faham tugas sebagai ibu, pandai bawa diri bila masuk keluarga orang, reti jaga pergaulan sebagai perempuan. Dia ada masa depan yang cerah walaupun kita selalu nampak dia tak serius, main-main. Abang nak dia berjaya dunia akhirat. Sakit Ara sebagai ayah kalau tengok anak perempuan kita jatuh cinta dan berkahwin dengan orang yang salah. Abang bagi buku tu supaya dia dapat jadikan panduan. Mungkin tak berguna sekarang tapi satu hari nanti siapa tahu. Kita bukan hidup selamanya nak jaga dan bimbing dia"
"Jauhnya abang fikir. Tak terkejar kita"
"Nak lepaskan anak perempuan bukan senang. Kita manjakan dia, bagi hidup yang baik. Dapat tangan laki guna, hidup kalah neraka. Haih Ya Allah. Jauhkanlah. Boleh bayang tak, anak kita tatang-tatang, sayang-sayang masa kecik tiba-tiba kena pukul. Nak rotan masa kecik pun kalau boleh kita tak nak. Sampai tangan laki, salah letak gula kena tengking, kena maki, naik tangan, kena pijak"
"Bang, dah la. Kita dah anxiety"
"Anak laki lain pulak ceritanya. Kalau tersalah pilih, habis hidup. Duit bini pegang. Harta bini nak. Hidup kena control. Memang tak boleh nak grow dah. Tamat sampai situ. Hidup dalam stres, hati tak bahagia. Orang dulu-dulu takut kalau anak laki kawin tak balik rumah. Dia lebihkan keluarga bini. Apa-apa keluarga bini dulu. Ikut telunjuk bini. Tapi orang pun kadang tak tahu. Ada laki sifat dia memang macam tu tambah lagi kalau dia datang dari keluarga masalah. Perkahwinan satu escapisme. Laki baik-baik selalu perempuan cari mangsa. Tengok hidup Ocio. Habis musnah dari sehebat orang bila kawin dengan orang yang salah"
"Double anxiety mmm"
"Kita ni sikit hari lagi nak dapat cucu. Macam best, kan? Nanti cucu cakap, 'Atok handsome la' hahahahaha"
"Itu aje kan"
"Main dengan cucu. Heee best. Masa tu umur kembar berapa? 9/10 tahun lagi?"
"13"
"Mesti orang ingat adik dia orang padahal anak sedara"


1/5

"Rezeki orang tak sama. Dia ada rezeki lebih, dia beli nombor plate. Abang ada rezeki lebih, abang bina sekolah dengan library"
"Dulu kita ase acam best dapat plate acam tu. Sejak kawin dengan abang ase acam membazir"
"Tak la. Dia pun mesti buat kebaikan yang kita tak tahu. Banyak sedekah banyak rezeki. Cara kita guna duit tak sama. Setiap orang berbeza. Kita jangan pernah rasa diri mulia sebab banyak buat kebaikan. Setiap orang ada kebaikan yang kita tak tahu. Itu rezeki dia. Kita tumpang happy sebab dia happy dapat plate yang dia nak. Hidup ni senang je kalau tak banding-banding"
"Ha'a"
"Nak jual ke plate kereta Ara? Kalau nak jual, cari foremen yang beli nombor plate. Dapat dia rezeki lebih. Foreman pun banyak yang baik. Ada je foreman masa dapat kereta second dia check dulu semua, tukar barang apa yang patut, service balik macam kereta baru sebelum jual balik"
"Tak kot"
"Jutawan Dubai beli Bugatti tu biasa tapi nombor plate dia paling mahal dekat dunia. Plate "No.7" harga RM 63.7 juta"
"Membazir aje"
"Kita hidup tak lama. Tuhan bagi kita rezeki lebih sikit dari orang lain, kita fikir apa yang kita mampu buat untuk bantu orang. Kan Nabi cakap sebaik-baik manusia adalah yang memberi manfaat kepada orang lain"


16/1

Rehat

"Kita datang sini boleh rehat. Ara tak payah fikir lepas ni nak buat apa, benda apa belum settle. Boleh makan, mandi, rehat, tidur dengan tenang"
"Di samping suami tersayang"
"Tak payah fikir kemas rumah, masak, kemas dapur. Relaks sikit. Relaks dekat rumah tak sama relaks masa makan angin"
"Ha'a. Takdelah kelamsss sana sini"

Tuesday, July 01, 2025

Luqman

"Tak payah push Luqman. Kita sebagai mak ayah jangan bunuh kegembiraan dia hanya sebab dia tak boleh bercakap. Biar dia ekspresi diri dia sendiri. Kalau dia tak boleh cakap, kita reda, move on cari solusi. Jangan fokus pada masalah. Dia kecil lagi, Ara"
"Kita sedih. Kembar lain boleh cakap. Dia senyap aje"
"Ara kena faham, memori yang kekal sampai mati memori kita masa kecil. Biar memori yang anak kita ingat memori yang indah, yang baik-baik. Bukan kita gaduh, bertengkar, kita marah dia, kita push dia benda yang dia tak mampu buat. Jangan kita letak beban pada anak. Tengok dari perkembangan, dia cuma speech delay bukan autisme. Nanti Ara dah sedia, kita bawa dia jumpa pakar. Sekarang kita relaks dulu. Anak baru 3 tahun. Baru nak explore dunia"
"Mmmm"
"Kalau dia bisu pun, kita terima je kekurangan dia. Kita tak tahu apa kelebihan Allah bagi dekat dia. Ara kena lebih terbuka. Allah tak jadikan ikut apa yang kita nak. Yang kita nak, selalu kita tak dapat. Yang kita tak nak, tu yang kita dapat. Allah kan sebaik-baik perancang. Kita percaya pada Allah. Mengeluh tu benda biasa. Abang tak marah pun Ara mengeluh. Dah memang sifat manusia berkeluh-kesah. Tapi dalam keluh-kesah, kita kena bersyukur. Anak kita tak terlantar. Kalau terlantar, lagi susah nak urus. Allah bagi kemudahan. Luqman pandai urus diri"
"Kita kesian tengok dia…macam…apalah salah kita masa mengandung…"
"Dah…jangan fikir macam tu"
"Terima kasih, abang. Kita perlu sangat sokongan sebab kita rasa salah kita"


21/6

Nikmat

"Kadang-kadang…nikmat yang Allah bagi kita tak hargai sampailah nikmat tu hilang dari kita. Kalau kita selalu cari kekurangan, kekuranganlah yang kita nampak. Mata kita buta pada kebaikan. Hargai apa yang kita ada waktu kita memilikinya. Bila dah tak ada, sayang setinggi gunung tak ada erti. Masa tak boleh di ganti"
"Babtu kita sayang caveman. Dia philosophical"
"Abang cakap dekat Ary, kadang-kadang kita kena belajar sayang orang dari jauh. Kebahagiaan dia pasti melukakan hati kita walaupun kita selalu cakap kita nak orang yang kita sayang bahagia tapi itulah tanda kasih sayang sebenar. Sayang tak bernoktah, tanpa sempadan, tak bersyarat"
"Dia baik senannya tapi itulah. Kita pun tak faham apa dia nak"


25/6

Ary

"Kak Ain, nasihat sikit adik Kak Ain ni"
"Tangan tu masih elok kan? atau dah lupa cara guna sabun? Kalau sabun habis, beli"
"Hahahahahaha"
"Tangan tak sedap macam jilat pantat kahkahkahkah"
"Bengong"


29/6


"Sabar je la"
"Hihihi"

"Abanggg, pleaseee"
"Kan dah bagitahu"
"Buat la list"
"Malas"
"Buat buku kembar rajin. Dengan kita berkira"
"Ha ye la. Lepas habis kerja abang buat"
"Heee macehhh"
_

"Mayat ke nak baca?"
"Kenapa pulak?"
"Hitam putih aje. Takde color ke? Kita nak emoji. Susah tau cakap dengan caveman"
_

"Dia cukaikan semua?"
"Semua. Dokumen ada, download baca"
"Tak rajin kita"


19/6
"98% dari data kajian cakap macam tu. Pendek kata, bukan la aku cakap punai lu pendek, tapi if your mouth game’s on point, nobody cares about the size of your tool"
"Wa hilang mood nak kekah kambing, bro. Lidah pahit. Otak asyik teringat janda"
"Hmmm"
"Wa rasa dunia wa gelap. Rasa macam… hidup pun tak nak. Hirup udara yang sama tiap hari, tapi kosong"
"Habis nak sedut apa? Karbon dioksida macam pokok?"
"Wa tatau bro"
"Jangan mengada la. Perempuan bukan satu. Kemboja ada, Matahari ada, Melur, Mawar, Lili, Orkid. Pilih mana nak. Bendalah. Tapi jangan salah petik. Nanti luka sakit"
"Wa tak nak bunga. Wa nak apam sedap kahkahkah"
"Sebaik-baik perhiasan dunia adalah perempuan solehah. Cari elok-elok. Kalau kita bahagiakan dia, dia bahagiakan kita. Buang perangai lama. Hidup berdua kena tolak ansur macam telor dengan meat. Kadang senak, kadang heaven. Kena selalu alter parking hahahahaha"
"Gampang!"


25/6
"Siapa ni?"
"Doktor merangkap influencer"
"Tak kenal. Syarat masuk event memang tak boleh pakai baju?"
"Tak sure tapi asenya tak. Jab kita buka IG"
"Dia macam tak sihat je. Badan nampak londeh. Lama tak masuk gym kot. Six-pack pun tak nampak"
"Ha'a. Acam nampak penat aje kan"
"Cara dia lari macam ada tak kena. Lepas buat wall balls nampak mengah"
"Jadilah acam laki kita. Lepas ada orang tengok kita lari ri tu, dia cakap tak nak lari tunggu abang buat private stadium. Kita pun cakap tak payah, kita dah pencen. Penat tau lari. Kita dah tua acam laki kita"
"Abang tak suka orang tengok bini abang"
"Faham. Acam tu la laki kita. Kawan dia nak datang rumah, kita tanya nak masak apa. Dia hantar kita balik Hartamas"
"Abang tak nak kawan rasa masakan Ara. Kawan datang rumah pun abang tak suka. Kawan abang tak tahu rumah abang dekat mana. Kalau nak datang sangat, bawa pergi guest house je"
"Acam tu lah perangai dia. Sangat privacy"
"Sedara-mara, adik-beradik Ara, keluarga terdekat okeylah. Yang lain guest house. Kawan-kawan tak sesuai bawa datang rumah. Kena pilih-pilih. Sepupu-sepapat, ipar-duai yang tak okey pun seeloknya jangan bawa masuk rumah. Bukan semua datang nak bersilaturrahim"


"Cara-cara nak besarkan payudara bini anda atau kekasih anda - selalulah raba-raba"
"Ye ye aje"
"Ye la. It's an open secret. Semua laki tahu. Jadi, lepas ni kalau Ara tengok yang besar-besar tu fahamilah bukan ambil ubat sangat pun kerja laki dia"
"Tahu aje semua"
"Sebab tu laki tahu perempuan bekas orang ke fresh tak ada orang pegang"
"Susah kan jadi perempuan"
"Dah bini tak selesa, kenalah cakap. Memang la rasa kena cabul asyik nak raba tak kira masa. Suruh perempuan tu raba burung laki dia. Aduh, tegak nanti nak mencelup pulak. Susah jugak hahahaha"
"Takde fikir lain"
"Dari 24 jam, lelaki normal yang tak busy fikir pasal sex 23 jam kot. Perempuan suka sentuhan. Dia tak suka peluh-peluh, yelah penat nak cuci itu ini lepas 'kenduri'"
"Tak reti penat eh?"
"Orang cakap pasal kenduri. Betul la, lepas kenduri basuh periuk belangga. Ara fikir apa? haaa"
"Eleh abang tu. Kalau kenduri takde lain. Situ aje"
"PM perempuan tu tanya berapa besar baju dalam dia. Nak tahu jugak hahahahahahaha"

MoF SST Policy Adjustments

Ministry of Finance Announcement (27 June 2025)


Review of SST Expansion
  • Taking into account public and industry feedback.

Sales Tax Exemption
  • Apples
  • Oranges
  • Mandarin oranges
  • Dates
→ All exempted from Sales Tax


Adjustment of Registration Threshold

Applies to:
  • Leasing / rental services
  • Financial services

Threshold increased:
  • From RM500,000
  • To RM1 million

Exemption for Micro and Small Enterprises (MSEs)

Criteria:
  • Annual sales below RM1 million
Benefit:
  • Exempted from Service Tax on rental or lease services

Beauty Services

Service Tax will not be expanded to:
  • Manicure and pedicure (nail treatments)
  • Facial treatments
  • Haircutting and hair grooming services

Fiscal Metrics Outlook (2023-2025)

Fiscal Deficit (% GDP)
  • 2023: 5.0%
  • 2024: 4.1% (↓ from 2023, below 4.3% target)
  • 2025 (Projected): 3.8% → Improving toward 3% by 2028

Debt Position

(a) Absolute Debt:
  • 2022: RM1.399T (78.1% of GDP)
  • 2024: RM1.2T
  • 2025: RM1.5T (record high)
(b) Debt-to-GDP Ratio:
  • 2023: 64.3%
  • 2024: 64.6%
  • 2025: 64.2% (projected) → Stagnant

Revenue & Expenditure

(a) Tax Revenue (% GDP):
  • 2023: ~12.0%
  • 2024: 12.5%
  • 2025: 12.4% →Below 15% threshold
(b) Petroleum Revenue (% GDP):
  • 2025: 1.0% (↓33% from 2023)
(c) Rigid Expenditure Share:
  • 2022: 40%
  • 2024: 48% → Crowding out investments

Social & Development

(a) STR/SARA Allocation:
  • 2024: RM10+B
  • 2025: RM13B (↑30% YoY)
(b) Development Expenditure (% GDP):
  • 2024: 4.4%
  • 2025: 4.1% →2-year decline

Critical Trends

(a) Positive:
  • Net borrowings ↓ to RM76.8B (2024 vs. RM92.6B 2023)
(b) Risks:
  • Development spending ↓ to 4.1% of GDP
  • Petroleum revenue ↓ 33% since 2023

Key Takeaway

Structural weaknesses persist:
  • Tax revenue critically low
  • Rigid costs crowd out growth investments
  • Absolute debt at record high
  • →Requires GST/wealth taxes + subsidy restructuring

Practical Impact:

Every 10% SST on "non-essentials" (e.g., glassware, chocolates) and 8% tax on commercial leases directly funds initiatives like:
  • Sumbangan MADANI cash aid (RM2.5b budget)
  • Public transport subsidies (RM1.8b)
  • Rural healthcare expansion


(16/6/2025)

Friday, June 27, 2025

"Tu siapa tu?"
"Kes cikgu vs wiring"
"Kenapa orang sebar?"
"Yang kita geram, apasal dia tak ganyang laki dia?"
"Tu la salahkan orang luar padahal salah pasangan. Tepuk sebelah tangan tak bunyi"
"Tersebar WhatsApp dia tapi kita tak baca pun"
"Habis masa depan, kerja, nama baik, reputasi haih. Keluarga lagi"
"Tak takut dosa ke menduakan suami? Kita tak la sokong tapi acam kesian. Done meluah. Maceh dengar"



28/5
"Actually, kita kan nak abang ada medsos"
"Buat apa?"
"Kita acam suka tengok hubby orang wish dekat wife memasing 'Happy Anniversary', 'Happy Birthday'. Acam best baca husband orang tulis sweet sweet bersemut untuk wife dia orang"
"Hmm"
"Sampailah kita faham…abang tak macam tu…abang tak macam yang kita harap-harapkan…abang tak romantik. Sangatlah jauh nak tulis dekat public sweet acam tu…honestly, kita sedih. Abang handsome, soft spoken, gentle, workaholic, pandai, semualah tapi tak romantik"
"Hmm……"
"Abang tak kelakar. Serius aje"
"…………"
"Astu baran"
"Abang minta maaf tak jadi macam yang Ara nak…"
"Your love is quiet. It doesn’t ask to be seen. No grand gestures, no noise. Just presence. Just care. Just me and you. Now I understand, abang"
"Air rendaman dah siap. Mandi, lepas tu abang urut badan"
"Okey"
_

"Ara yang mengendap abang haaaa"
"Tak eh. Kita cari abang"
"Kejab nak habiskan jump rope"
"Tiba aje shirtless siap topi koboi. Apa eh point shirtless masa kita takde"
"Kata hari tu tengok otot boleh naikkan mood perempuan hehe"
"Nak tengok pun susah"
"Ara…bagi abang habis workout lepas tu kita bincang"
"Kita nak marah aje dengan abang. Tak tahu kenapa"
_

"Abang dah pesan jangan lintas masa abang training. Nasib tak kena pisau"
"Biar la kita"
"Kalau kena luka dalam. Dah, keluar. Bahaya dalam ni. Abang training benda tajam"
_

"Ra, setengah jam lagi abang habis. Tinggal boxing workout"
"Kenapa tak kawin aje dengan gym? Buat apa kawin dengan kita"
_

"Lagi berapa hari kita nak pergi bercuti. Jangan la gaduh-gaduh. Budak-budak tengah seronok nak main pantai, panjat bukit. Kenapa bad mood?"
"Entah"
"Abang tak larat teka-teka. Bagitahu kan senang"
"Takde salah pun"
"Habis tu kenapa marah?"
"Tak tahu"


19/6

"Lelaki akan ada nafsu sampai mati. Kalau perempuan faham benda ni, semua jadi senang"
"Kita faham sebab abang fahamkan kita"
"Tapi tu tak beragak la habis semua orang tengok. Dah semua dapat dosa kering mengata dia"
"Itu aje point kita senanya"
"Bagi la video Bubu ada jugak faedah. Janganlah kamu mengintip atau mencari-cari kesalahan dan keaiban orang lain. Itu termasuk dalam perbuatan tajassus. Berdosa besar"
"Bukan kita eh. Kita tunjuk abang aje"


28/4
"Mak dia takkan tolong dia"
"Mana abang tahu?"
"Dah mak dia tak suka laki tu. Tak bagi kawin. Dia nak jugak. Mak dia tak terkejut pun tengok hidup dia hari ni. Orang tua dah tahu apa akan jadi akan datang. Sekali tengok dia dah tahu apa jadi hidup anak dia nanti"
"Astu mak dia sanggup tengok anak susah?"
"Dah tu pilihan dia. Orang tua hati keras. Tak adanya dia nak kesian kalau dulu tak nak dengar nasihat. Habis pun dia cakap dulu nasihat tak nak dengar. Sekarang terima je la. Nasi dah jadi bubur"
"Acam sama ayat Bonda aje mmm mmm"
"Sama-sama makan garam hahaha"


28/4
"Apasal abang trim?"
"Ara nak ke orang cakap mana la lawyer tu dapat laki. Dengan serabainya, selekeh pulak tu. Tak ada orang lain ke nak buat laki. Nak?"
"Tak nak"
"Habis tu?"
"Susah la cakap dengan abang"
"Laki pun kena jaga imej bini. Tak nak orang cakap belakang, bini dapat nama busuk. Orang perhati setiap perbuatan kita, penampilan kita, penampilan pasangan kita, anak-anak kita"
"Jangan la ceramahkan kita"


19/4
"Mesti la dia bangga dengan bini dia. Tengok cara berdiri pun tahu. Pakai pun kemas"
"Ajaib eh abang ingat dia"
"Ingat sebab dulu laki dia sambung belajar UK. Bini cuti setahun teman dekat sana"
"Masa tu dia orang takde anak. Astu kita tunjuk gambar ada anak, abang tanya kenapa bini dia nampak letih"
"Ara cakap laki dia busy"
"Astu sekarang senyap-senyap dapat Master dekat UK. Anak husband jaga"
"Dia habis belajar sebab dapat suami bagi sokongan kuat. Macam tu lah suami isteri, saling menyokong antara satu sama lain. Sama-sama suka ilmu, sama-sama pergi kelas, sama-sama sambung belajar, sama-sama baca buku"


19/4
"Tu nak pergi berperang ke camping? Camping apa macam kereta kebal"
"Abang tak kenal ke perempuan tu?"
"Tak. Siapa tu?"
"Siapa pun abang tak kenal. Caveman betul"
"Tua kan. Mana tahu apa"


23/5

Wednesday, June 25, 2025

Ary

"Susah wey. Lubang tak kasi. Minyak kereta wa isi. Banyak anat arrr"
"Laa baru tahu geng bini-bini malas isi minyak? Slow la lu"
"Minyak empty tank. Dia suruh wa isi. Sibat"
"Kau angkat satu Tesla. Senang, tak payah isi minyak. Dulu nak charge guna apps, sekarang tak payah. Charge dekat rumah pun boleh. Kalau running jauh, bawak power bank. Tapi dekat rumah, aku jugak yang kena cas. Hidup jadi lelaki kena pandai cari solusi. Dunia tak nak dengar orang lelaki cakap letih. Nanti orang kata kita lembik. Jangankan nak pinjam bahu bersandar, baru mengadu dah kena cop complaint. Dunia tak simpati dengan laki, bro. Nak mengadu, mengadu pada Allah"
"Wa banyak stres. Rumah tongkang pecah, kereta serupa tong sampah. Bikin wa mental"
"Hantar je la car wash"
"Apa pasai arr perempuan itu macam. Wa nasihat dia buat dekkk"
"Dah itu kelemahan dia, kita terima je la. Isteri kita jugak. Sikit-sikit salah tu kita pejam mata, pandang kebaikan yang dia buat. Aku pun tengah latih diri aku jugak. Dia goreng ayam minyak mercik ke lantai. Dulu aku panas hati, aku bising. Sekarang ni, aku pandang dia goreng ayam untuk Adam makan. Adam suka ayam goreng. Pandang nikmat yang dia bagi pada anak. Letih pun dia bangun goreng kalau anak mintak, tapi jangan tanya kenapa dia tak guna air fryer. Tu "love language" nak cari gaduh dengan aku. Perempuan suka gaduh. Ada hari nak gaduh, kita gaduh. Hari lain malas layan, bolayan"
"Wa nampak bini lu lembut. Wa tatau susah bela"
"Mana ada susah bela. Dia serba-serbi indah. Baik budi pekerti, akhlak mulia, aurat tutup rapi, jaga ikhtilat, apa aku cakap dengar, taat apa aku suruh. Allah…sebagai isteri tak ada tandingan dengan orang lain. Aku nak dia masuk syurga paling tinggi. Perempuan ni ada macam-macam ragam. Kau layan la ragam dia tu. Mana ada buku manual. Semua orang kompleks sebelum jadi senang sama macam bini kita pandang kita"
"Kasi ajar apa wa perlu buat"
"Laa apa aku pulak kena ajar. Aku bini pun satu. Lu bini dah berapa"
"Wa stuck. Wa tak boleh fikir maa"
"Jangan suruh dia jadi apa kita nak. Jangan paksa benda dia tak suka buat. Jangan buat benda yang dia tak suka. Berlembut dengan dia. Ego kena buang. Kau bawak ego, aku pun mati otak nak fikir"
"Wa rindu janda lama wa…"
"Itu la sesal dulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tak berguna. Nasi dah jadi bubur"

18/5

_

"Rimau lu dah tidur?"
"Singa gua kirja. Turn gua jaga anak"
"Wa serabut arr. Wa gaduh sama bini"
"Kenapa?"
"Tak dapat pantat"
"Gila straight tak ada cover hahahaha"
"Antat arr. Tekanan wa real"
"Dia tak larat kot"
"Wa pantang kena reject. Angin terus naik berdesup"
"Bawak sabar. Jangan ikut rasa. Sakit bini tu nanti. Kesian dia"
"Banyak panas wa punya hati sekarang ni. Macam takde outlet"
"Sabar bro. Tak semua benda boleh lepas dengan marah. Kadang kena belajar tunduk sikit supaya rumah tangga tak tumbang. Kita lelaki. Tapi power kita bukan tangan. Power kita bila kita tahu bila kena diam bila kena peluk bini walau tengah marah hahahahaha"
"Pundek"

19/5

Ary

"Kejab lagi aku bagi syarahan bising, tapi aku nak cakap jugak. Lelaki perlu lebih dalam 3 perkara - Ilmu, Amal Ibadah, Harta dan Pendapatan. Imam al-Ghazali pesan suami perlu lebih berbanding isteri barulah di hormati - Umur yang lebih tua, ketinggiaan lebih tinggi, lebih harta, kedudukan atau keturunan yang lebih baik. Lagi banyak lebih, lagi baik. Sekian tips memilih calon isteri"
"Masalahnya bini gua egois"
"Tu pasal tiba rindu bini lama?"
"Susah mau handle maaa"
"Masaklah lu. Padan muka hahahahaha"
"Babi!"
"Guna la hammer drill apa lagi"
"Gua tak dapat arrr. Susah mau kasi lubang"
"Kesian hahaha"
"Banyak pundek"
"Kena sabar. Api lawan api lagi marak. Kena jadi air. Air lu kan banyak. Hah apa guna"
"Susah mau jinak. Ikut sama dia punya kapla"
"Itu la dapat yang dengar cakap tak nak jaga. Ni dapat sang egois, aku pun angkat tangan. Perempuan semua baik, kena cara berubah tapi lu kena makan hati berulam jantung dulu la. Tahan ke hahahaha. Ini pun jenis ego mana mau nak mengalah"
"Kirim salam, bai"
"Habis macam mana nak jinak. Perempuan ni dia ikut kita. Kita lembut dengan dia, lembut la dia. Kita keras tak tentu pasal, hah lu tunggu buah dia kasi"
"Gua takde masa arrr nak layan"
"Jangan lu penat jinak, brader lain rembat dah. Sayu hati tengok hahahaha. Perempuan yang suka kita, dia bagi kita jalan senang. Perempuan yang tak suka kita, macam-macam lu kena hadap. Hati mau kental. Muka kena tebal. Lu tak payah la layan game ni. Kena buang sedih pulak"
"Gua punya ego tinggi KLCC. Lu tak suka wa, lu blah. Apa pasai wa nak tunduk wa punya ego?"
"Bagus jugak ada pendirian macam lu tapi tu la gua kerja bahagian sales, muka tebal jiwa kental. Menitik air mata darah belum tentu jinak"
"Wa nak tukar line arr. Lu ada makwe baik, kasi call"
"Apa rasa tukar bini?"
"Syooooook oooo"

16/5
_

"Kau jangan gaduh merata la dol. Sana gaduh, sini gaduh"
"Gua cakap benda real. If he good for your hole, doesn’t mean he’s best for your soul"
"Kau ni la"
"Focus on goals, not a hole"
"Mana la dia tak mengamuk"
"Love isn’t about presence, it’s about effort"
"Kau pergi bahan gegirl dalam group tu buat apa. Duuu. Dah tahu memang spesis kita takkan menang lawan dengan perempuan. Kau cucuh api"
"Come on, man. A hole can’t produce anything without our great swimmer kahkahkah"
"Berapi feminis kalau dengar"

17/5
"Kita dah rosakkan holiday acam selalu kita buat"
"Taklah. Mana ada. Tu kan dah lama dulu"
"Semalam tu mmmm…sorry…"
"Kalau tahu mesti Ara tak bagi abang tengok, kan?"
"Ha'a"
"Jangan salahkan diri"

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Semalam, sebelum tidur, Ara menonton sebuah video pendek. Aku berbaring di sebelahnya—ingin menonton bersama. Kisahnya tentang seorang lelaki yang ditinggalkan kekasih kerana tidak mempunyai kerjaya dan kewangan yang stabil. Setelah berpisah, lelaki ini bekerja keras—tanpa jemu, tanpa henti. Akhirnya, dia berjaya. Dalam salah satu babak, lelaki itu pengsan akibat keletihan dan dikejarkan ke hospital. Di wad, dia disapa seorang doktor muda—senyuman manis, mata tenang, tutur lembut. Sesuatu yang jarang ditemui. Lelaki itu jatuh cinta.

Selepas keluar dari hospital, dia mendapati bekas kekasihnya berada di rumah—ingin kembali menjalin hubungan. Namun, dia menolak. Perasaannya telah berubah. Dia segera ke hospital, menemui doktor tersebut dan dengan tenang bertanya, "Pukul berapa syif awak berakhir?". Lalu dia mengajak perempuan itu keluar. Cerita pun tamat. Aku diam, pura-pura tidak terkesan dan cuba mengabaikan. Ara rasa bersalah walaupun itu bukanlah salah dia. Dia tak tahu jalan cerita. Kalau tahu tentu dia tak benarkan aku menonton bersama. 


Suva, Fiji
24-06-2025

Tuesday, June 24, 2025

Post-Operation Midnight Hammer

I. MILITARY DIMENSIONS

1. U.S. Precision Strikes: Operation Midnight Hammer
  • Primary Targets: Iranian nuclear facilities at Fordo, Natanz, and Isfahan.
  • Delivery Assets:
    • B-2 Spirit bombers deployed from Missouri—18-hour sortie.
    • 14 GBU-57 Massive Ordnance Penetrators (MOPs)—penetrated 200+ feet underground.
    • 24 Tomahawk missiles launched from a U.S. submarine in the Persian Gulf. 
  • Outcome:
    • U.S. claims complete degradation of nuclear enrichment infrastructure.
    • Iran confirms structural damage but denies radioactive contamination.
2. Iran-Israel Kinetic Exchange
  • Iran launched 30+ missiles toward Israeli territory—4 struck, causing casualties and infrastructure damage.
  • Israel retaliated with aerial bombardments on western Iran.
  • Missile Systems Involved: Iran utilized advanced Kheibar Shekan (1,400 km range).

II. GEOPOLITICAL REACTIONS AND ALIGNMENTS

1. Iranian Response
  • Foreign Minister Araghchi condemned the strikes as a transgression of sovereignty, warning of retaliatory action “by all means necessary.”
  • Iranian Parliament passed legislation authorizing closure of the Strait of Hormuz, pending Supreme National Security Council approval.
  • Diplomatic overtures made to Russia, initiating high-level security consultations with President Putin.
2. International Responses
  • Russia: Condemned U.S.-Israeli strikes as “an egregious breach of international law.”
  • United Nations & IAEA: No radiation leaks reported; warned of severe consequences should attacks on Bushehr nuclear plant escalate.
  • Oman: Criticized the strikes while maintaining navigational neutrality in the Strait of Hormuz.

III. ESCALATION SCENARIOS AND RETALIATORY PATHWAYS

High-Probability Retaliation Vectors
  • Closure of the Strait of Hormuz:
    • Would disrupt 20% of global oil and LNG supply.
    • Estimated to push oil prices above $100–130/barrel, inducing global inflationary shock.
  • Proxy Attacks via Regional Networks:
    • Houthis: Potential targeting of Red Sea and Gulf shipping routes.
    • Iraqi militias: Likely to conduct drone and rocket attacks on U.S. assets in Iraq and Syria.
    • Hezbollah: Could open northern front against Israel.
    • Impact: Risks entangling the U.S. in a wider regional war and destabilizing global energy markets.
Mid-Probability Strategic Escalations
  • Nuclear Reconstitution:
    • Possible withdrawal from the Non-Proliferation Treaty (NPT).
    • Accelerated uranium enrichment at clandestine sites.
    • Risk of nuclear arms race across the Middle East.
  • Cyber Warfare Campaigns:
    • Potential attacks on U.S. critical infrastructure (energy, finance, health).
    • Threats to Gulf oil installations (e.g., Aramco).
Long-Term Asymmetric Threats
  • Terrorism on U.S./Israeli Soil:
    • Mobilization of IRGC-linked sleeper cells in Western nations.
  • Ballistic Missile Escalation:
    • Targeting key U.S. bases (Al-Udeid, Incirlik) or civilian centers in Israel.
  • Geopolitical Realignment:
    • Formal military cooperation with Russia; expedited delivery of S-500 air defense systems and Su-35 fighters.
    • Strategic refugee manipulation to destabilize Turkey and Europe.

IV. DOMESTIC AND ECONOMIC IMPLICATIONS (UNITED STATES)

1. Political Fallout
  • Presidential Overreach Allegations: President Trump bypassed Congressional authorization, prompting bipartisan criticism.
  • Partisan Reactions:
    • Democrats warn of escalation without mandate.
    • GOP factions split—some isolationist, others supportive of decisive action.
2. Economic Repercussions
  • Stock Market Volatility: Immediate selloff amid fears of war.
  • Oil Market Impact: Futures spike to $85–100/barrel.
  • Sectoral Winners: Defense industry stocks (e.g., Lockheed Martin) rallied sharply.
  • Commercial Disruptions: Airlines reroute flights away from the Middle East.

V. HUMANITARIAN AND ENVIRONMENTAL COSTS
  • Casualties:
    • Over 430 Iranian fatalities and 24 Israeli deaths reported.
  • Information Suppression: Internet blackouts limit Iranian civilian reporting.
  • Nuclear Facility Risks:
    • Potential uranium hexafluoride leaks pose toxicity risks (not radiation per se).
    • Bushehr reactor damage could trigger a Chernobyl-style meltdown if cooling systems fail.

VI. STRAIT OF HORMUZ: STRATEGIC ANALYSIS

1. Legal and Geographic Constraints
  • Strait spans 39–96 km, divided between Iranian and Omani territorial waters.
  • Iran cannot unilaterally enforce a full closure under international maritime law.
  • Alternative routing via Omani waters remains viable but risk-prone.
2. Iranian Capabilities
  • Asymmetric Disruption: Sea mines, fast-attack craft, drone strikes.
  • Full Blockade: Operationally possible but politically and economically self-destructive.
3. Strategic Blowback
  • Iran’s Oil Revenue Risk:
    • Iran exports 1.84 million bpd to China; closure halts this lifeline.
    • Estimated revenue loss: $50 million/day.
  • Global Diplomatic Backlash:
    • Closure would alienate Gulf partners and invite enhanced U.S. naval presence.

VII. ENERGY INDEPENDENCE: U.S. OIL REALITY CHECK

1. Production Capacity
  • The U.S. is the world’s largest oil producer, extracting over 12 million bpd in 2024.
  • Achieved net exporter status in 2020 due to the shale revolution (Permian Basin, Bakken Formation).
2. Ownership Model
  • Private Mineral Rights: Unique to the U.S., enabling individuals to lease drilling rights or earn royalties (12.5–25%).
  • "Bundle of Rights" includes leasing, royalties, and bonus payments.
3. Operational Dependencies
  • Refinery Constraints: Most U.S. refineries are optimized for heavy crude, requiring imports.
  • Infrastructure Gaps: Pipeline limitations hinder optimal distribution.
  • Strategic Imports: ~8 million bpd still imported for flexibility and geopolitical balance.
4. Market Exposure
  • Despite production dominance, the U.S. remains vulnerable to global price volatility, particularly from Middle Eastern disruptions.

VIII. STRATEGIC CONCLUSIONS

1. Tactical Success, Strategic Risk: U.S. strikes have crippled Iran’s nuclear infrastructure—but hardened Tehran’s resolve.

2. Hormuz Closure as Economic Weapon: Viable for pressure, but economically suicidal for Iran if prolonged.

3. Proxy Warfare Likely: Iran will prefer asymmetric engagements over direct confrontation—enhancing deniability.

4. Global Oil Security Fragility: Asian economies are disproportionately exposed to Hormuz instability.

5. Diplomacy in Decline: Negotiation channels have collapsed; war of attrition and economic shock likely to follow.

6. U.S. Strategic Edge: Energy independence provides cushion, but not immunity, against global ripple effects.

Monday, June 23, 2025

"Perang, kerja, perang, kerja. Senanya bawa kita holiday ke acam mana?"
"Eh? Kata nak tidur?"
"Ha'a tapi cakap la tapaya tidur ke teman abang ke. Kita nak tidur biar aje"
"Pulak"
"Kita takde kan dalam otak abang?"
"Ada"
"Nampak tu. Pandang la sini"
"Dari Cyprus bawa ke sini meragam. Cuba cakap Ara nak apa?"
"Kita kesunyiaan tau"
"Kesunyiaan apanya sehari berkepit"
"Abang kepit dengan kita ke kembar? Abang tak bagi perhatian dekat kita pun"
"Emotional intimacy cukup, physical intimacy kot tak cukup. Nak?"
"Ada ke tanya acam tu"
"Complicated betul orang perempuan ni"
"Dah la. Nak tidur. Night"
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"Singa…bangun…"
"Tak nak"
"Eh tak tidur"
*muncung*
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"Eyy singa"
"Tak kenal awak"
"Saya, yang handsome ni, takkan tak kenal"
"Tak kenal. Awak tak famous"
"Saya famous dalam hati awak je"
"Tak cairrrrr pun"
"Seumur hayat hamba berkelana, tiadalah yang setanding wajah tuan menyinar kalbu yang dahaga"
"Abangggggggg!"
"Hahahahahaha"


Nadi, Fiji
22-06-2025

Sunday, June 22, 2025

Japan’s Strategic Shift

Japan's Strategic Signaling in the Taiwan Strait: A Multifaceted Response to Chinese Assertiveness

1. Japan’s Calculated Escalation: From Strategic Restraint to Assertiveness

Deliberate Timing of Naval Maneuver:
  • On June 12, 2025, JS Takanami transited the Taiwan Strait—five days after a Chinese J-15 flew within 45 meters of a Japanese P-3C surveillance aircraft in the Western Pacific (June 7–8).
  • The sequencing underscores Japan's intent to signal strategic resolve rather than de-escalate tensions.
Abandonment of Past Restraint:
  • Historically, Japan avoided Taiwan Strait transits to minimize provocation with China.
  • This marks the third transit within one year (Sept 2024, Feb 2025, June 2025), reflecting a policy recalibration.
Justification Through Normative Framing:
  • Japan positions the operation as a defense of "freedom of navigation" and adherence to international law.
  • Actions are closely aligned with U.S. Indo-Pacific Strategy and 2022 National Security Strategy of Japan, which called China the “greatest strategic challenge.”
Chinese Military Response:

The PLA Navy and Air Force monitored the transit in real-time, reflecting heightened sensitivity and an increasingly zero-sum security posture by Beijing.


2. Strategic Convergence with the Philippines: From Symbolism to Operational Integration

Sequenced Deterrence across Maritime Theaters:
  • After the Taiwan Strait transit, JS Takanami proceeded directly to the Luzon Strait and South China Sea, conducting joint exercises with the Philippine Navy on June 15, 2025.
  • This maneuver links the Taiwan and South China Sea flashpoints, reinforcing the geographic continuity of deterrence.
Trilateral & Minilateral Security Architecture:
  • On June 20, Japan hosted trilateral coast guard drills with the U.S. and the Philippines near Kagoshima, simulating:
Maritime search & rescue
  • Fire suppression and collision response
  • Crisis coordination under gray-zone scenarios
Institutionalizing Access and Intelligence-Sharing:
  • Japan and the Philippines have ratified a Reciprocal Access Agreement (RAA), mirroring those Japan maintains with Australia and the United Kingdom.
  • This allows legal basing rights, pre-positioning of assets, and shared use of military facilities.
Message to Beijing:

These actions present a coordinated checkmate strategy, enhancing deterrence across multiple domains and pressure points.


3. China's Gray-Zone Escalation: Synchronized Military and Cyber Pressure

Military Normalization of Coercion:
  • Taiwan reported that within 24 hours of the Takanami’s transit, 50 PLA aircraft and 6 warships operated near its ADIZ—indicative of routine encirclement operations.
  • These activities constitute a form of strategic conditioning, intended to exhaust Taiwan’s readiness and erode public morale.
Massive Cyber Offensive:
  • In 2024, Taiwan experienced an average of 2.4 million cyberattacks per day, doubling 2023 levels.
Majority traced to Chinese state-sponsored APTs, such as:
  • APT41 (Double Dragon)
  • RedDelta
  • Mustang Panda
Primary Targets:
  • Critical Infrastructure: Airports, seaports, water systems, power grids.
  • Government Networks: Particularly during PLA military drills (e.g., during "Joint Sword" exercises).
  • Disinformation Campaigns: Amplification of anti-government sentiment using deepfakes and fake social media accounts.
Strategic Intent:

Per Booz Allen Hamilton and Taiwan’s NSB, the aim is to achieve “annexation without kinetic conflict,” leveraging psychological, digital, and informational warfare.


4. Multinationalization of Deterrence: Toward an East Asian Security Bloc

Regional Coalition Emergence:
  • The so-called "Squad" (U.S., Japan, Australia, Philippines) is transitioning from ad hoc coordination to a de facto deterrence coalition.
  • South Korea and the United Kingdom are increasingly integrated—e.g., HMS Spey conducted its own Taiwan Strait transit on June 18, 2025.
Escalation Risks & Strategic Entanglement:
  • The Quincy Institute warns of Taiwan-South China Sea conflation, particularly if U.S. forces base more assets in northern Luzon, close to Taiwan.
Chinese Strategic Perception:
  • Beijing interprets this alignment as a "containment bloc," potentially justifying more aggressive kinetic or hybrid responses, such as:
    • More close encounters (as seen June 7)
    • Expansion of ADIZ claims
    • Declaration of an Air Defense Identification Zone (ADIZ) over Taiwan or South China Sea

5. Key Timeline of Incidents & Strategic Signals

June 7–8, 2025:
  • Chinese J-15 approaches JMSDF P-3C to within 45 meters – a near-collision and extreme provocation.
June 12, 2025:
  • JS Takanami transits the Taiwan Strait—third such mission within one year.
June 15, 2025:
  • Takanami conducts joint naval drills with the Philippine Navy off Luzon.
June 18, 2025:
  • UK's HMS Spey transits the Taiwan Strait—signaling NATO-linked presence in Indo-Pacific.
June 20, 2025:
  • US-Japan-Philippines coast guard exercises simulate maritime crisis coordination in Kagoshima.
2024 average:
  • Cyberattacks on Taiwan exceed 2.4 million/day, with Chinese-linked groups targeting both infrastructure and morale.

Conclusion: A Precarious New Normal in the Indo-Pacific
  • Japan’s recent maneuvers reflect a strategic inflection point: from risk-aversion to active participation in regional deterrence.
  • This signals a new doctrine of multilateral resistance to China’s “gray-zone coercion”—military, cyber, and legalistic.
  • The convergence of kinetic signaling, digital warfare, and alliance formalization has made the region increasingly fragile.
  • The strategic paradox: stronger deterrence may heighten miscalculation, especially absent emergency communication channels between regional militaries.
  • Balance of risk and resilience will determine whether deterrence prevails—or spirals into broader conflict.

Saturday, June 21, 2025

The Iran Air Bridge

The reports of Chinese cargo planes (including flight CLX9877) disappearing from radar near Iranian airspace, despite being logged as Luxembourg-bound, present a compelling case of covert logistics amid the Israel-Iran conflict.


1. Flight Anomalies Suggest Covert Operations
  • Radar Blackouts: Three Boeing 747 freighters from China vanished from public tracking systems over Turkmenistan-Iran airspace after turning off transponders—a tactic atypical for civilian flights and often linked to clandestine activities.
  • Suspicious Routing: Though flight plans listed Luxembourg as the destination, the aircraft never entered European airspace. Instead, they flew consistent paths toward Iran via Central Asia before disappearing.
  • Aircraft Suitability: Boeing 747 freighters are commonly used for heavy cargo, including military equipment. Aviation experts note their frequent role in government-contracted arms transport.
2. China-Iran Strategic Alignment
  • Energy Dependence: Iran supplies ~2 million barrels of oil daily to China, making stability in Tehran a critical economic interest for Beijing. Regime collapse would disrupt this flow and destabilize China’s energy security.
  • Military Partnership: A 2021 China-Iran pact covers infrastructure, energy, and defense technology. Past incidents (e.g., Chinese drone parts disguised as wind turbines sent to Iran) reveal a pattern of circumventing sanctions.
  • Anti-Western Solidarity: Both nations oppose the U.S.-led order and advocate for a "multi-polar" world, incentivizing Beijing to bolster Iran against Western pressure.
3. Timing Amid Escalating Israel-Iran Conflict
  • Post-Strike Deliveries: The flights occurred just after Israel’s Operation Rising Lion targeted Iran’s nuclear facilities and military leadership (June 13–17, 2025). With Iranian air defenses weakened, the cargo could replenish critical supplies like missile components or drone tech.
  • Iran’s Vulnerability: Israel’s strikes damaged uranium enrichment plants (e.g., Natanz) and killed senior commanders. Covert aid might prevent regime collapse—a scenario China fears could ignite regional chaos.
4. Global Repercussions
  • U.S.-China Tensions: Overt military support could derail Beijing’s efforts to stabilize relations with Washington amid trade wars. The U.S. might impose secondary sanctions or heighten naval patrols.
  • Nuclear Proliferation Risks: If shipments included missile tech, they could accelerate Iran’s nuclear program. Tehran has already threatened to quit the Non-Proliferation Treaty (NPT), risking a cascade of nuclear ambitions globally.
  • Regional Power Shift: Bolstering Iran could counter Israel’s air dominance and prolong the conflict. However, if exposed, it might unite Gulf states and the West against Sino-Iranian collaboration .
5. Plausible Deniability vs. Strategic Gambit
  • Denial Tactics: Cargolux (partially Chinese-owned) denied entering Iranian airspace, blaming "faulty tracking data" . China’s Foreign Ministry has not commented, maintaining ambiguity.
  • Calculated Risk: Beijing likely weighs short-term gains (preserving Iran’s regime) against long-term fallout. If proven, this move signals China’s readiness to use "gray zone" tactics—exploiting civilian logistics for military ends—to challenge U.S. influence .

A Shadow War Intensifies

The flights epitomize modern hybrid warfare: deniable, non-traditional, and escalatory. While proof of cargo contents remains elusive, the circumstantial evidence—routing anomalies, historical precedents, and geopolitical timing—strongly implies China is testing the boundaries of indirect intervention. This not only risks inflaming the Israel-Iran conflict but also signals Beijing’s intent to reshape West Asia’s power dynamics, one covert flight at a time. For regional stability, independent verification (e.g., IAEA or UN investigations) is urgent—yet diplomatically fraught .