Hai sayang,

5.38 pagi. Dua tahun lepas kena sound hahahahaha. Belum boleh lupa. Cuba lupa.

Tengah sahur

"Lama tau, tak panggil kita sayang"

"Ara lapar ke?"

"Itu aje kan abang tahu"

"Ye la kalau lapar abang nak turun masak"

"Masa bercinta ada je panggil kita sayang astu now takde dah"

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"Sekarang pukul berapa?"

"1"

"1?"

"Ha"

"Acam mana tahu pukul 1?"

"Laa tengok la jam"

"Ase acam pukul 6"

"Belum. Mengigau apa tadi terjaga terus sound abang?"

"Hihihi hantu kacau kita"

"Tu la tidur tak baca doa"

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"Ra, esok pagi abang pergi trim jambang. Sabtu abang masuk office"

"Tak payah kerja, bang. Minyak takde acam mana nak gerak sana sini"

"Kerja tetap kena jalan. Ara boleh tolong kemas beg abang?"

"Acam malas"

"Mana tak malas. Tadi nak beli kunafa, kunafa habis. Nak kek, kek habis"

"Entahnya. Menyampah. Tutup ajelah kedai tu"

4:36 a.m.

There are days when I simply cannot stop thinking about you. Yesterday was one of them. I don’t know why but you occupied my mind completely. You flooded my thoughts, as if you were lodged somewhere in my head, unable to find the exit.  This lovelorn ache sits heavy within me.

You were always so at ease in the kitchen. You loved to cook. You loved baking bread, though I never told you how much I liked buns. When Eid came around, you would make biscuits—especially semperit and tart nenas. I never really ate them. You also loved making kuah kacang.

I often wished I could visit your home—taste your cooking, admire your smile, listen to your stories, maybe even borrow a book or two to take with me. I wanted, in some quiet way, to have a small piece of life with you. Something I could carry as a memory, and return to with each passing day.

• Reports say Khamenei has been assassinated.

• Reports also say the Strait of Hormuz is closed.

• The Middle East looks very unstable right now.

• The Strait of Hormuz carries about 20% of the world’s oil.

• If it really closes, oil prices will rise fast.

• Malaysia Airlines has cancelled some flights to the region.

• If this continues, the global economy could change.

• We might face another recession.

• It could be worse than past crises.

• I think I made the right decision to return here.

• I love Costa Rica, but it is close to Honduras and El Salvador.

• The US has strong influence in those countries.

• There are also more reports about drug problems in Costa Rica.

• Staying in Cyprus felt stressful and risky.

• Israel and the US may not stop their strategic plans.

• Many people say Palestine is already facing severe humanitarian damage.

• There are fears the same could happen in Syria and Lebanon.

• There may be a bigger plan behind all this.

• Many people are not prepared if things escalate.

01032026

"Mesti abang terlalu terluka terpaling dalam, kan?"

"Bukan Ara dah ubatkan ke?"

"Acam tak berkesan aje"

"Apa tanda orang sayang kita?"

"Mmmm…caring?"

"Lagi?"

"Protective?"

"Bila orang sayang kita atau kita sayang orang, rasa kasih sampai pada diri kita atau pada orang yang kita sayang"

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"Mana ada orang berkasih tak terluka"

"Ase acam kita banyak aje lukakan hati abang"

"Rasa macam abang yang banyak lukakan hati Ara"

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"Kenapa kita nak bercakap tentang luka bila kita boleh bercakap tentang bahagia?"

"Kita nak tahu aje. Tak salah pun"

"Manusia terbentuk dari sejarah luka. Tanpa memahami luka, manusia tak hargai bahagia. Kalau kita nak pulih, kita perlu lalui proses emotional processing. Kita kena kenal, kena namakan, kena fahami apa yang kita lalui untuk betul-betul sembuh. Kalau kita mengelak, emotional avoidance kita panggil, luka kita susah sembuh. Mungkin jadi lebih parah. Luka sebenarnya takkan sembuh cuma kita belajar hidup dengan luka yang kita ada. Dengan memahami luka, kita dapat membentuk kematangan emosi, bina empati, dan menjadi lebih bijaksana. Kita perlu ada keupayaan untuk terima dan proses pengalaman pahit secara sihat walaupun susah"

Mac, 2026

"Mana eh naik zip line yang best? Survey kejab"

"Alaaaa abang survey sendiri"

"Kalau kakak angkat punya trip, dari tempah tiket pilih hotel sampai makan siap itinerary boleh buatkan. Kalau abang suruh haram nak buat. Sini nombor kakak angkat nak complaint kejab"

"Tak bolehhhh"

"Laki dia tak reti ke nak plan trip?"

"Laki tak function"

"……………"

"Suami kita function teruk. Bab tu kita acam tak reti nak buat apa"

"Laki dia reti buat apa? Anak?"

"Asenya acam susah dapat. Katanya buat sebab tanggungjawab"

"Tu tengah mesej ke?"

"Ha'a"

"Patut tak layan abang cakap mata tengok handphone. Kawin dua la macam ni"

Mac, 2026

"Ra, kemeja mana lawa? Baby pink ke salmon pink padan dengan slack hitam?"

"Baby pink"

"Okey"

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"Ra nak apa?"

"Abang nak gi mana senanya?"

"Bazar"

"Lah. Beria"

"Biarlah. Orang nak handsome"

Mac, 2026

"Serius la"

"Apa?"

"Abang nak pergi mana?"

"Keluar kejab"

"Gini aje?"

"Kenapa? Tak okey ke?"

"Takkk"

"Hari ni nak relaks"

"Bang, baju hijau seluar merah kot"

"Pergi mall je"

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"Tadi pergi Mydin. Jalan-jalan tingkat atas nampak banyak orang buka booth. Tengok banyak yang lawa, material pun okey"

"Beli acam nak buka butik"

"Tak sampai 60 pasang pun. Khas nak pakai pergi solat Jumaat"

"Emang setiap tahun alasan sama an, an?"

"Esok lusa nak pergi lagi. Nak beli baju budak-budak pakai Jumaat"

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"Ra, jom pergi Jakel"

"Baju raya dah tempah, kan?"

"Saja la usha kot ada yang best. Abang kan suka fabrik dengan karpet. Jom la"

"Ritu bebel kita shopping. Katanya badan satu aje. Ni acam mana kisahnya?"

"Heee. Siap cepat. Banyak betul siasat"

Mac, 2026

"Ra, ni martabak dinosaur. Nampak macam sedap"

"Alaaa kita diet. Murtabak ayam ke daging?"

"Hahahahaha"

"Ni workout nak tidur. Mana tahu boleh tidur. Workout makan Ara lain"

"Katanya kalau orang ingat kita emangnya tak boleh tidur"

"Siapa je nak ingat abang"

"Kajang sana"

"Taklah"

"Astu siapa?"

"Tak ada siapa"

"Acam lupa di tinggalkan hihi"

"Ye la"

"Jujur aje"

"Dah orang tu siap cakap 'Sayang saya untuk awak tak pernah kurang, cuma saya sayangkan dia lebih. He loves me wholeheartedly'. Haa apa lagi nak ingat"

_

"Apa perasaan abang?"

"Lupa nak cakap Zaza dah lulus submission. Dia mesej berapa minggu lepas"

"Wahhhh! Tak nak kita tahniahkan dia"

"Laa"

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"Sakit hati?"

"Ra…jangan tanya dah. Abang sakit dada"

"That answers it, right?"

3.45 pagi

10-03-2026

" 'Untuk Ara yang selalu abang nikmati'. Serius laaaaa"

"Betul la kan"

"Emang la tapi"

"Cantik isteri abang"

"Abang ni. Malu kita"

"Sikit lagi belakang tu naik bunga, semua cantik macam Ara. Haih Ya Allah…sejuknya hati tengok isteri sendiri"

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"Abang suka Ara tak kerja duduk rumah 24 jam boleh pandang. Isteri pulak cantik. Aduuuu"

"Acam tu la dia. Kita serabai acam Mak Limah katanya cantik"

"Tak pernah tak cantik. Setiap masa cantik"

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"Abang tengok apa?"

"Ara"

"Tudung selebet?"

"Tak"

"Astu?"

"Rasa bertambah-tambah sayang. Haih Ya Allah…"

Mac, 2026

"Pilih apa, bang?"

"Warna seluar dalam nak pakai"

"…………"

"Huyoo baby blue!"

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"Spender abang kan, warna baby blue"

"…………"

"Handsome, kan? Ke comel?"

"Puasa dok?"

"Hahahahaha"

"Hari ni Imam suruh ambil tauliah mengajar"

"On aje, bang"

"Tak nak la"

"Apasal?"

"Muka abang bukan untuk tontonan awam. Yela kang orang tergila-gila pulak susah hahahahaha"

"Eeee gedik"

_

"Abang paling benci orang ambil mudah pasal aurat. Aurat pun tak boleh jaga macam mana nak jaga benda lain"

"Bang, tak payah jadi ustaz. Takut tau laki bertukar Taliban"

"Orang laki sekarang pakai seluar sikit lagi nak nampak hujung punai. Orang lain ada jugak punai tapi nak sorok-sorok. Kalau boleh zip seluar tak nak kembung nak flat. Tak malu ke orang tengok pakai pendek sampai bentuk telor pun nampak"

"Fesyen, bang"

"Tu bukan fesyen. Tu bangang"

Mac, 2026

"Jalan la cepat"

"Dah nampak orang baris panjang pergi tekan lagi minyak"

"Astu dah jalan. Dia yang lambat"

_

"Laa tak top-up ke?"

"Dah, tak perasan habis"

"Undur, parking tepi"

"Kejab, top-up"

"Undur duduk tepi"

"Takde orang pun"

"Undur je, Ra"

"Kejab, bang"

"Hmm"

"Dah top-up!"

_

"Laju kereta ni nak masuk simpang"

"…………"

"Ra, bagi dia masuk"

"Dia yang tak nak masuk"

"Ara pun laju dah jadi bersaing"

"Asyik salahkan kita aje"

_

"Pergi ATM dulu nanti bateri habis susah"

"Ada aje bateri"

"Berapa peratus?"

"2"

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"Dah bateri 2% call pulak orang"

"………"

"Tak nak ambil duit?"

"Kita guna QR"

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Kaunter: RM 1150.50

"Bang, bateri habis"

"Nah, pakai kad abang"

"Jab tau"

"Bayar pakai kad"

"Dalam kereta. Jab, kita turun"

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"Tak pergi ambil duit lagi?"

"Kita pinjam charger kiosk"

"Bayar cash kan senang"

"Jab tau kita cari ATM"

"Kenapa tak pergi dari tadi?"

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"Marah kita ke?"

"………"

"Sorry la astu bateri habis"

"Dekat setengah jugak kena sidai tadi"

Februari, 2026

"Kita acam nak mengeletis pun susah tau"

"Ara reti ke mengeletis?"

"Reti laaaa"

"Sejak bila?"

"Abang takde kerja untuk kita ke? Kita acam bosan. Kerjakan kita ke hihihi"

"Amboi, orang dekat bengkel ni. Ada mesin baru masuk"

"Mesin apa?"

"Padi. Tadi ada orang offer bendang 200 ekar"

"Rajin ke gi bendang masalahnya?"

"Bendang mana satu? Hahahahahaha"

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"Ni orang dah balik. Kata nak mengeletis"

"Kita tak boleh tau tak tengok muka abang"

"Abang ngantuk"

"Tiba aje kan"

"Tak nak pergi bendang?"

"Nak mengeletis aje"

"Pulak"

06022026

Many women today take photos and post them online without checking their aurah properly. Before posting any picture, check it carefully. Check twice or even three times. Sometimes reflections from mirrors, television screens, windows, or other objects can reveal parts of your body that you did not realize were visible. You may think your aurah is covered, but a small moment of carelessness can expose it to everyone who sees the photo.

Dear sisters, this is a serious matter.

Always double-check before posting anything online. If you later realize that you missed something, delete the post immediately. Go through your social media accounts from time to time and check your old photos as well. Make sure nothing was overlooked.

Your aurah is your dignity. Protect it.

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This was my short lecture at the mosque a few days ago.