Ummi,
I often write 'she left me for someone else.' If people were to read this, they might perceive it as casting her in a negative light, as if I am blaming her. But no, Ummi, I never blame her. I repeat those words not to justify her decision but to remind myself that I once didn't heed your advice, and now I am living with the consequences. I feel like I am being punished by God for not listening to you.
I am not a good son, am I?
Shibuya City, Japan
April 1, 2024