I really wanted to record our audio conversation, but I didn't do it out of respect for the fact that you are someone's wife. We only had a little time talking over the phone, and even though it's not enough, it's still better than having none. I want to jot down more, but I can't memorize much. I easily forget, even after a few seconds. It is a side effect of cancer and psychiatric medication. Do you know why I want to write down our phone calls? When I miss you, I can read them. It doesn't matter if they're short or long, as long as they are your words. I want to capture your words on paper. Your words always make me smile, and I want to have something that I can hold close to my heart. What did I call you? Baby love or sweet baby? See, even just two words, I can forget and get confused. Thank you for having me as your co-pilot. It means a lot to me.