Friday, April 29, 2011

Don't judge others

I’m at a coffee shop while my assistant, Pak Mad, takes my kids to KLIBF. I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to navigate PWTC with a wheelchair through a crowded area. Sitting here with my laptop and books is much more comfortable. I look around and see many people walking around, holding hands. They notice me, and I smile in return.

The people here seem to be from the upper or upper-middle class. They drive exclusive cars, wear high-end clothing, and use the latest cell phones. They live their own lives, and it’s apparent that many foreigners—Arabs, Filipinos, Burmese, Siamese, Pakistanis, and others—are here too. We have a good life, and it attracts their attention and work.

As I observe these people, I admit I have my own views about them. Yes, it’s wrong to judge others without knowing their true selves, but we often can’t help but make initial impressions based on appearances. Unfortunately, these impressions can be far from the truth. We tend to judge people based on what we see rather than recognizing them as ordinary beings created by God.

For example, a young couple holding hands might seem unmarried, but they could have eight children. An old man in dirty clothes might appear poor, but he could own a 30-hectare estate. A pregnant young woman walking alone to the clinic might seem like she is carrying an unwanted baby, but she might have a husband who couldn’t join her for a routine check-up.

We don’t know the full story. We base our judgments on superficial observations, which are not always accurate. We often judge others but dislike being judged ourselves. As the Filipino proverb goes:

“The rattan basket criticizes the palm leaf basket; still, both are full of holes.”

No matter how much money you make, how high your education, or how powerful you are, you are still a small creature in the grand scheme of things. Everyone is the same. Having superiority in any field doesn’t give anyone the right to judge others.

The Quran advises:
 
“O you who believe, if a wicked person comes to you with any news, ascertain the truth, lest you harm people unwittingly, and afterwards become full of repentance for what you have done.” (Al-Hujurat 49:5)

I wrote this for myself, not for anyone else. Last night, I taught my kids the advice of Prophet Jesus:

1. Always mention Allah when speaking to avoid a hardened heart.
2. Do not view the wrong actions of others as if we are superior.
3. Examine our own wrong actions as if we are slaves.
4. Some people are afflicted by wrongdoing, while others are protected from it.
5. Have mercy for those afflicted and thank Allah for protecting us from wrongdoing.

For those curious, my kids don’t attend school; they are homeschooled with me as their sole teacher. Last night, I taught them about life’s philosophy. I understand people might say that philosophy is too serious a subject for three- and six-year-olds, but as the Malay proverb says, “Meletur buluh biar dari rebungnya,” which means “Train the bamboo while it’s still a shoot.” I put this into practice.

Yes, understanding life is a serious subject, but our approach to teaching our children is earnest and dedicated.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Gusto kitang makasama habang buhay

1
Its 2.22am and I still awake. As usual, Umar needs his daddy to accompany him watch telly. No Ultraman tonight, he watches Batman. This morning he plans to plant papayaya. I taught him about photosynthesis and he wanted to know how papaya grows up. We have bought papaya’s seeds yesterday evening.

2
Honey, still miss me? It just one day without phone calls and you missed me so bad. No doubt I miss you too. Hey, don’t miss me that much. You won’t able to do anything if your heart just keeps calling my name. I knew you can handle heart matters. Please do that.

It’s good the whole lot have settled down. I’m quite worried. Obstacle is part of adventures. Remember that always. 

After they had confirmed that Anwar is Lelaki Y, today I read about sex video part two. Likes movie, the actor is still the same. I guess so.

I’m thinking about 1Malaysia e-mail that squanders our money. Do we need that? I think we most need free wireless hot spot rather than e-mail server.

3
My body becomes weaker day by day and I still keep doing chemotherapy. I need chemo to fight bad cells and in the same time, my body cannot stand tough to have radiotherapy. What should I do?  I live with high hope and its makes me still alive.

Hey adorable girl, I love so much. Please handle yourself with care.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

You at all times look sexy in my eyes

Hi sweetie,

1.
Okay, sorry for not respond to your message. Blame to Maxis! Hey honey! We are at Cameron Highlands. It is not in my planning at first. Umar asked to bring him around and Huda comes out with suggestion to go to Cameron. I agreed!

On May 1st, we will fly to London for wedding occasion. I’m not sure how long we would stay there, maybe only one week. Everything in Ocio’s plan and he didn’t text or call me to inform. I guess him quite busy for last minute preparation.

When the whole thing have confirm, I will let you know.

2.
Good new for you. Utusan had reported that Lelaki Y is Anwar. I didn’t read further. It’s none of my curiosity. I bet you happy. That’s all I can tell you for today. Owh! Other interesting topic - Policemen have found fingers in plastic bag. Yes, only fingers without hand.

3
Honey, I think you didn’t have any capacity in taking pictures. Some pictures are blurring. You look sexy with pink t-shirt. You at all times look sexy in my eyes.


Miss you sweetheart.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Cherish your life today

1.
Yahoo! No more text books, no more notes, no more exams. I’m sure you are happy because exams have ends even today’s paper is more tough than expected. It is okay Honey. Don’t bother with that. Most importantly, you are free now, at least for two days before going to India.

Nothing much I could write here. Today just like yesterday. Everything seems to be fine. Huda has discharged from ward and Umar got fever last night. Umar didn’t sleep well last night because he misses his sister. I bought ice cream but Umar didn’t eat either Huda.

2.
I met an old man at dialysis centre. He was about 70’s something and he was alone. Nobody accompany him there. We had chit chat and exchange stories. He told me none of his kids wants to take care of him. They seem busy with works and daily life. He stays alone at his old house and nobody pay a visit at least once in a month. I could see his sad eyes and I nearly to cry.

He took bus from his house because he couldn't drive. I was imagining how hard it is for him to walk to the bus station and walk again to be here. Years before he stayed with his eldest son but not longer after that his son send him to old folk home.

Yeah…You know what it means.

He said his son is more than affordable to take care of him but still he refuse to. This old man needs a friend to talk to. I lend my ears for him for four hours. I know how sad he is. Fathers who work so hard for his children and had been throw by his own blood. Who didn't feel heartbreaking?

3.
I never expect to be like this. I mean to have brain cancer and use wheel chair to move. Like everyone else, I expected my life will be okay until my last breath. Life is unexpected. Today we are fine but tomorrow nobody knows. Maybe tomorrow is your last day on this earth. We pray and we hope everything would be fine as it is.

My whole life has changes a lot. Every single thing seems tough for me. I must adapt all those things. I must learn how to cope with that. We are on learning process every day. We learn how to make people love us, we learn how to make our life better than previous years, we learn how to be a better person from day to day, we learn how to cope with new thing happened around us, we do adapt new changes in daily life and so on.

Life is not easy as we think and yet not so hard. Every person has their own challenges. Everybody have their own accountable to carry. We have our own life. My life is not similar like you not because I am special. I believe each person of us is special. The thing is, we must think we are creating to be special. That’s the new way how I see my life.


Cherish your life today. Maybe tomorrow never comes. Who knows?

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Poems

Its afternoon and I make great effort to complete Buku Puisi Untuk Dia. Until now, I have about 10 poems which are not enough. I was planned to write about 15 poems. She had asked about the progress of her present. I knew it sound not surprise.

Maybe when I have completed that book, I will show it here. No promise. I been stuck for a while when my baby lappy had attack by naughty Trojan. For three days I struggle to remove the virus. Thanks to the wife, she helps me a lot. Well, she’s computer experts.

Her birthday is tomorrow, April 12. I will give this present before she goes to India for one and half month. Hopefully, today I can have a rain of idea so I could write and complete this special present for special person in my life.

Much Love.


Thursday, April 07, 2011

It’s not our option, God choose for us because He knows better.

Do we need any particular reason to love someone? We love someone for no exactly reason. So don’t bother to ask why. We used to hear love at first sight or last love ever after or puppy love. We believe what we want to believe. For instance, I do believe love at first sight while my wife believes last love. After all, it is about love. Love, in any case is more important than prosperous.

You cannot force someone to love or hate you but certain people do believe that shaman can do it. When I at a stall around my place, I hear [hearsay] someone talking about shaman. Forgive me for hearsay but I couldn't help myself not to hear that because they sit near me.

This woman was talking about her daughter who falling in love with a fat boy. She didn't like that boy simply because he is fat and she claim that her daughter is beautiful and deserve better. She was asking her friend about shaman. She wants the shaman work on something to make her daughter hate that fat boy.

It is not the first time I hear about that. Certain people meet shaman because they do trust shaman could make someone that they adorable fall in love with them. They believe shaman have power to do so. I don’t believe it. Shamans just want your money.

Why we always judge someone by their appearance? It doesn't matter fat or thin, black or white, as long as we love, then it's nothing to be question. There should be no double stand or discrimination. All human being are deserved to be in love. It’s in God’s hand not ours.

If we keep questioning why, it means we questioning God’s work. It’s beyond our ability to choose who we want to love. It’s not our option, God choose for us because He knows better. Remember He creates us.

In short, if we find shaman to change our destiny, it means we change His planned. I don’t know why we used to compare a couple through their appearance. For instance, A doesn't match to B because B is attractive whereas A is not so good-looking. B ought to have better in other words.

Who are we to say A is not suit for B while God write in our destiny that she/he is the one to accompany us in not-so-long journey?

We always want to be God.

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Pelengkap

Dia,
si manis

kekasih saya sepanjang hayat.

Rasa

Sayang,
rasa itu
tak pernah luntur
tak akan padam

tak mungkin berkurangan



Monday, April 04, 2011

7 Hours

1.
I have a lot of stories to write. Well, infamous reason why I didn’t write simply because of time. Last week we went to my second hometown and straight to Langkawi Island. We stayed 3 days 2 nights. Nothing much differs and to be honest, I do not really love to spend my time there. I prefer Redang Island or at least Tioman.

My kids were so excited when I told them about the legends of Mahsuri. Umar keep asking me why these things happen, who involved in that conspiracy and so on. He enjoys asking question while her sister chooses to listen. Yeah, they have different character.

2.
…and I like the seven hours we lay side by side on Sunday morning in bed. Honey, I think we can write down our names in Guinness World Record for that seven-hours-record.

3.
I still on my mission to complete my poems book as a present for her. Don’t ask how many poems I have written. I wish I could finish it on time. If not, she will go to India without my present. I need to work hard in limited time. Please stop ticking.

4.
I think she has finished her revision. I need to climb into bed [borrow her words] to sleep.


I love you.