"Macamana abang sakit bila saya dengan laki saya...itu la sakit saya bila abang dengan isteri abang..."
(April 23, 2024)
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Hurt... If you want to talk about hurt, I felt it a decade ago when you walked away from my life. Like you, I didn't think about it. It just came and conquered my conscious mind with the image of adultery, whether I closed my eyes to try to sleep or stayed awake. It just came and didn't want to go. It's horrible. The emotion is unbearable, isn't it? Yeah, I know how it feels. I have dealt with it for a long period.
Surely, as an adult, I understand it's your duty and you have your needs to be fulfilled too. It's a part of marriage. It gives us calmness and pleasure at the same time. We crave the touch, the gestures, the kisses, the playful bites, and all the other expressions of intimacy. Sharing intimate moments with loved ones is a fundamental human pleasure that enhances happiness and strengthens bonds.
I used to touch my wife very softly and gently, offering her sweet touches and kisses. Being far away for work, I always wanted to rejuvenate when I returned home. One way, of course, was through intimacy. When we are apart again, we tend to remember those moments - our laughter, the hushed breaths, the joy, and the excitement. I don't want all of that to fade away. No, never.