"Abg tgh dgn syg kan skrg? I am the other woman kan?"
(Jan 10, 2024)
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No matter how many times I deny it, it is true that I have a "relationship" with other women behind my wife's back. We didn't declare anything, never spoke about it either, but it is still an affair. To make matters worse, she is someone else's wife. Yeah, it's too bad. I used to be a very loyal man, but this time I broke my own rules. Everybody breaks their principles for someone.
She was the one who ended our relationship nearly ten years ago for another man. Sometimes I wonder, am I foolish for still treating her with kindness despite the numerous times she shattered my heart? I don't know why she still wants me when she has a man who consistently goes above and beyond to bring her happiness. I haven't made any sweet gestures for her. .
How do I feel about having an affair? I feel bad. I feel guilty towards my wife. Every time I look at her, I feel sad. I always remember how painful those years were when someone I loved stabbed me in the back, and now I am making the same mistake. My wife carries the scars of past betrayals, when her fiancé had another woman behind her back and now I am doing the same.
"Cheating" is a painful word. I never expected that I would have this kind of relationship in my life. I want to be faithful to my wife, but the heart wants what it wants. People say that having an affair is a choice, and I made that choice. I hope that my wife doesn't know about this. I don't want her to be hurt. I love her and my family, but still I chose to be a cheater, an unfaithful husband…